Kiss Him

Omegaverse

Nathaniel

Part Ten

It was almost one thirty in the morning when Craig got a phone call from Walker, saying Marcus had gone into labor and that he needed to get to the hospital. I was very surprised at first how Craig reacted to that. He panicked and started rushing his jeans on before he'd even got off the phone, I'd never seen someone so happy about someone else's kids before. Maybe I felt a little jealous, not because I think Craig still has lingering feelings for Marcus, no. It was because they were all so close, like seriously close. I'd never had something like that in my life and I was jealous of it. Stupid, yes. I shouldn't be jealous, but I was. Now we were sitting in a private room on the maternity ward and I was….uncomfortable. I'm an Omega, the one who would end up having kids and that thought made me feel sick, this room made me feel sick. But I stayed for Craig. He looked so happy when he saw the babies and I kept myself back from it all. But felt like I shouldn't have come with him.

"I love them," Craig muttered, as he held a tiny baby to his chest. He looked really happy. "I'm going to spoil them both so much. Uncle Craig is going to give you everything your retarded momma and papa won't."

"Excuse me?" Marcus said and I had to hold back a laugh.

"Ignored him beautiful." Walker cooed and kissed Marcus. It was….cute, sweet. But weird. Standing in this room is weird.

"Nathaniel, you want to hold a baby?" Walker asked.

I shook my head. Fuck no I don't. I don't like babies. I don't like hospitals. I don't like all this. "No, I'm fine just watching…."

"Oh come," Marcus said, wrapping the one Walker was holding up in a creamy yellow blanket. "You'll have kids one day, it's good practice." His eyes quickly fleet to Craigs then back to me. What in the hell is he saying? I'm never having kids.

"I'm fine, honestly…."

"Here," Walker said around a bright smile. "Go on. He's adorable." Oh fuck! How could I deny that smile and cuteness. 

"Erm...right, sure," I stuttered and then I was holding a tiny human. He was light as air. "I should sit, really." I needed to sit. My legs felt like jelly and I was shaking. It didn't want to drop the baby.

"Here," Walker said and offered me his chair next to Marcus. "I need the loo anyway, so sit down."

I nodded and moved to sit in the now empty seat. Then I was back looking at the small baby. He had wisps of hair on his small head and a little button nose. He looked squashed? But cute. Still It didn't change my mind in ever wanting kids. "He looks like you, Marcus."

"Of course. I have strong sexy genes and my boys will be strong sexy boys."

Craig snorted. "That just sounds weird. You can't call your kids sexy you freak."

"Err yeah I can. I can call them whatever I want, they're mine."

I chuckled a little and carried on staring at the baby in my arms. He's so warm and soft. "They'll look like Walker too?" I mentioned and suddenly the room fell silent and I looked up at Craig and Marcus staring at me. "What?"

"Nothing." Craig murmured.

"Oh," Marcus squeaked. "Well….they're, erm…"

"They're not mine," My eyes snapped up towards Walker who was by the door now. "Well they are, just not by blood."

"Huh?" I was hella confused.

Marcus sighed. "I met Walker when I was already pregnant."

"Oh right," What. The. Fuck. I thought. He was already pregnant and Walker took on the responsibility of two kids that weren't his. That's...that's something. "Sorry…."

"Don't be," Walker smiled and I passed him his baby….yeah, his baby. "We both didn't know and when I found out that he was pregnant it just made being with him even more special. These babies are mine and Marcus's. Nothing will ever change that."

How brave. I guess I was even more jealous now. They had real love. Strong and real. The kind of love that made everyone else look like shit. Or maybe it was just me. It made me look and feel like shit. I thought I was in love. I thought Rhys loved me, but looking at Marcus and Walker, I saw that it wasn't even close. "That's, well….very special."

"Thanks," Marcus gave me a huge smile. "It was so crazy though. At first I didn't want kids, but Walker made me see how fantastic it was having a family. I'm not exactly a saint, but he made me feel like a person. I owe him everything," Marcus's eyes glazed over and what I saw shook me. Intense unquestionable love. A deep burning desire that I've always wanted. "Considering who and what I was." He added.

I was now very interested. "Who...well…"

"I was a prostitute," Marcus said, cutting me off. "It's stupid now that I think about it."

A prostitute? Marcus was like that? "We met in Germany." Walker added.

Craig turned slightly to face me, still holding onto one of the babies. "Me and Walker went to Germany. But I went there for….well….one of the sex clubs there."

Wait wait wait. I thought. He went to Germany to pay for sex? "So you like that sort of thing?" I asked. My blood started to boil a little. My heart rate started to spike.

"No," he started to say. "I was told about it and wanted to give it a try, I guess."

"Yep and that's how I met Walker." Marcus sang happily.

"Okay?" I was now uncomfortable on a phenomenal level. "I need to step out for a bit, sorry." And just like I quickly scarpered from the room. It was too much. This whole thing was too much. I looked around and saw midwives and nurses and heard baby cries and the voices of other parents. I needed to get out of here and now.

I literally ran down the hall and out of the set of double doors we came through. I took a deep breath, but it wasn't good enough. I had to leave the hospital. So I kept on going, forgetting the lift and took the stairs instead until my lungs started hurting and finally….I was outside. The wind was a little chilly for so early in the morning, but the sun was warm. No snow. No ice. No freezing cold temperature. I thought it would be good being back in the warmth but I felt like I was burning up from the inside out and I wished I was back in the cold with the snow and ice and bitter winds. "Hey! Nathaniel!" I spun on my heel to see Walker. Not Craig, but Walker.

I shook myself and fell onto an empty bench. "....what?"

"You okay?" He asked and sat next to me.

"I needed air."

"You looked panicked. What is it?"

"It's nothing…."

"If it's something I've learned over the years," he cut in. "It's that I know when someone is lying. And you're lying, so spill it."

I sighed and ran my hands over my face. "I felt uncomfortable, okay. I'm not used to this," I pointed at the hospital. "Any of it."

"Me too."

"How?" I bit. Then I felt awful for it.

He chuckled and leaned back against the bench. "I've been through a lot and having an Omega for a partner was the last thing on my mind, until I met Marcus," I made myself comfortable and nodded. I wanted to hear more. I wanted to know what it felt like to not want something, to then crave it. I guess. "I never wanted to go to a sex club. It was Craig's idea. I'm not saying it's what he's always been interested in, because he's not. It was always just curiosity. I'm glad it happened, I found my whole world," he laughed a little. "It was terrifying and Marcus is….weird, but wonderfully weird. I know it must be difficult for you where Craig is concerned. Him and Marcus have this odd love hate relationship."

"Doesn't it bother you that Craig, well, has feelings for Marcus?"

"Yeah and no. It bothered me because it hurt Craig. I know that sounds utterly stupid, but it did and then it also didn't bother me because Marcus was born for me and I born him. Craig has never been the easiest person to get along with, but Marcus did. He pulled us all closer together."

"Craig is strange. I mean like he likes me, which is strange. I'm also not easy to deal with and I wonder why he bothers at all."

"Well, when you like someone you do bother. You look past all the negative things and see the good. I think you'll both be fine."

"Yeah," I breathed out. "Craig accepts my shit I guess, although I still find it hard at times."

"I've never been one to gossip, I've had enough of that in my life, but I did hear a little and honestly it doesn't matter. You might think shit...what am I doing? But it really doesn't matter. All that matters is now and what's to look forward to."

"I'm not sure what I'm looking for." Well that's a big fat lie. I'm looking for love, real love. Like what Walker and Marcus have. Someone who will look past everything and only see me….then it clicked. What the fuck. Craig is doing exactly that. Jesus I'm so damn ignorant.

"I think you're there buddy."

"What?"

"It just clicked into place, right?"

Who the fuck? "You read minds now?"

"No, but I saw it on your face. I'm not saying get hitched and start planning kids, not at all. But accept that you've finally found what you've been looking for."

I huffed a snort through my nose and suddenly grabbed Walkers hand. "Thanks. I think all of yours weirdness is rubbing off on me."

"Nope, you were secretly weird already," Then he laughed and squeezed my hand. "I'm gonna go back up and cuddle my kids and my guy. I suggest you tell Craig how you really feel."

"Sure, just give me a few more minutes."

"Definitely, see you shortly." And he got up, smiled and walked away. I'm so stupid. All these weeks me and Craig have been together, fucking around and just having fun I didn't see the bigger picture. I love him. Real love. I didn't feel this way with Rhys. Not even close. I think it was more of a high at getting what I wanted. Now….now I needed to share this revelation with Craig, the only man I ever want in my life, sharing my hopes and my dreams with me and I'd share his too. I felt lighter, better and….happy.