Yamato's Point Of View

Nozomu was my star, he was someone I had looked up to all my life. After our relationship ended... I  had no one I could talk to. I sighed while I washed the blade, wrapped my wrists and cleaned the floor before I walked into my dark room. My phone was loaded with messages, most were from fans. Others were from my band. 

Nozomu: Hey guys, don't forget we got to go to that new year’s

                 party! 

Aouli: Everyone be ready to go in 10.   

           Talk to y'all later!

Kai: Rin and I  will be waiting in the lobby!!! So

       don't take forever Aouli and Nozomu!!!!

I watched as everyone exited the chat. The only other person who didn't respond was Asa. But I knew he was watching like I was... I threw my phone across the room and screamed. I was so sick and tired of being the only one who felt so depressed! I cried for a good five minutes and decided to get dressed.

Asa's Point Of View 

Once they finished messaging I got dressed, not really caring how I looked, I wore the same old outfits I usually wear to concerts because I didn't care. Everyone will be crowding Aouli, Nozomu, Rin, and Kai. Because who doesn't want the latest scoop of the couple's in the band: Inspiration. These days it's all anyone ever talks about. Which annoyed me. I sighed as I adjusted my black shirt, and black jeans, I tossed in my red sneakers and ran downstairs where Rin, Kai, and Yamato all stood. I quickly found myself sitting beside Yamato. 

"Heyo Yamato!" I said in a cheerful voice. 

"Hey, Asa." I looked over to Yamato. 

"Hey, are you okay? You don't sound like your usual cheerful self." My voice laced with worry. I'm just worrying for another band member, nothing of it. I thought to myself. 

"I’m just tired, Asa. " He said, looking to the floor.

"Well if you ever need to talk Yamato, I'm here for you." He looked up and looked me into my eyes. I looked to his face, and smiled, but not before noticing the leftover red tear marks on his pale face. He immediately looked down. And mumbled a thank you. But I had to know. "Yamato wha-" 

"Sorry, we're late guys!!!" Aouli yelled while running to us, his fingers laced with Nozomus’. 

I turned away before my glare could grow. and stared at Yamato, a question still lingering in my mind. Yamato are you okay?

Yamato's Point Of View

We all got into the limo. The couple once again sits with one another, and I sit staring at the wall until I feel a presence beside me. "Heyo Yamato. Want a drink?" I nodded, maybe that'll help till I can get home. He pours me a drink and hands it to me. I give him a smile and begin sipping the drink. 

I smiled at him. "How did you know plum wine was my favorite?" 

"Easy, you never order any other drink Yamato. " 

"Really? I thought last time we went out I got a beer?" 

He laughed. "You took a sip then pushed it away Yamato!" 

"Did I really?" 

"Yes, then you ordered a plum wine." 

"Dang!" I went to take another sip of plum wine, but I had hit the bottom of the glass. Asa saw this and filled me another glass. I smiled. "Thank you, Asa!" Suddenly both me and Asa realized the car had gone quiet and we both looked over to see Nozumu, Aouli, Rin, and Kai staring at us. 

"Awww! So cute! Young love!" Kai yelled, clapping his hands like a child receiving a gift. Rin laughed and kissed his husband on the forehead. 

"Hey! don't rub your happy marriage in our faces k!" Aouli yelled, but just then Nozumu kneeled down on one knee...I knew what came next and looked down to the ground, quietly crying... It should have been me.

Asa's Point Of View

I watched as Nozumu on one knee before Aouli. I was mentally cursing him out, as I listened to the crap coming out of Nozumu's mouth. "Aouli, my one, and only love. I want to spend the rest of my life beside you. I want to wake up and fall asleep beside you. I want to be there for every moment of your life. So my lovely Aouli will you make me the happiest man on earth and marry me? " 

I listened to Aouli's squeals and screams, "I DO!!!" I sat there watching it all the events that laid before me, a few years back I would have probably 

I turned away as they kissed. My gaze fell onto Yamato, he was shaking. I didn't know what came over me but I poured him another glass before I put his head on my lap. I leaned down to Yamato's ear, and whispered, "Yamato I'm here for you." I didn't know if this was enough for him until he hugged me. 

Tears streaming down his face, he mumbled only loud enough for me to hear. "I hate life." 

These three words hurt me. But I hugged him back and whispered. "At the party I want you to go to the balcony, make sure you aren't followed... we'll talk then," I tell him before he continues sipping on his plum wine. 

Yamato's Point of View

I couldn't believe what he told me. I sipped my plum wine... Someone wanted to listen. Someone who most likely understood my pain. I felt my heart race... What if he tells someone?! What if someone follows me, and heard every pitiful word I say?! What if I tell him and he laughs?! What if...What if... What if...My heart was beating out of my chest now, so I reached for another glass. Drinking it quickly, and I continued to do that until we arrive. I got out of the car after everyone else carrying the bottle of plum wine. 

I walked around and saw reporters thanking the gods that none of them saw me. I began heading upstairs, looking behind me, I walked into the bathroom and sat there for a good five minutes before returning on my mission to the balcony. 

Once I reached the double doors I took a big swig of the plum wine, before opening the door. Asa turned toward me and rushed me away from the door, locking it behind me. He turned toward me, giving me a sad look before he pulled me a chair. and patted it. I sat down, looking to him. "Talk to me Yamato." 

I couldn't stop myself from talking. "Nozomu was my only friend. My lover, who I would give the world in a silver platter, left me for another, saying that he hoped we could be friends. But he doesn't care. He smiles and laughs and doesn't see my pain. He's oblivious! Everyone is oblivious to my pain... Everyone except you... " I looked to Asa... "How did you see my pain?" 

Asa's Point of View

I looked to him. and placed a hand on his pale face. I didn't know why it hurt me to see him in pain. "You’re always hiding your face, and going to your room early, not to mention the fact that you seem so distant to everyone." 

His bottom lip poked out, tears fell off his face, as he screamed. My heart burned, as I hugged him. "I don't want to live anymore! I hate my life!" I hugged him tighter. Those words... They were breaking me. His tears soaked my black shirt, but I didn't care. He was been breaking, all by himself. 

"Yamato... I promise you'll never feel so alone ever again." He cried louder into my shoulder. As the clock stroke midnight, I leaned in, placing a kiss on his forehead as his cries slowly come to a stop. As we watched the fireworks we both knew this was a new year we both will never forget.