I go to the only place I feel needed. When I arrive at the hospital, I stuff my feelings and put a smile on my face. I try to keep myself together. I need him to think I’m ok. Before I can go see him I need to clean myself up. I move into a separate room. Closing the curtain. I remove my shirt. I try to convince myself it’s not bad as I look down. Bruises and scars.
I’m ok. I'm alright.
I look down at my body once again. A mirror exposes the truth. Dark circles under my eyes, a tiny malnourished body. I was pale from lack of sun. I had messy hair. It was dull blond that lacked luster. It was longer than a boy’s hair should be. I tie it up into a messy bun. I go back to looking at the bruises. There was one bruise that was deep purple and red. It was quite large extending from my ribs to the top of my. hip. I’ve seen worse, but I couldn’t lie, this one was pretty bad.
I take a deep breath. I smell something new. Through the crack in the curtains I see a man. As I look closer I realize it was the guy who had helped me earlier. He seemed bigger. He searches the room and his eyes connect with mine. As soon as he sees me he marches over. I try to close the curtain but he stops me. I slowly back away.I grab my clothes as quickly as I can and try to cover myself. My instincts tell me to offer myself to him. I grit my teeth. “Do you have no manners?”
I don’t look, I keep my eyes glued to the floor. I feel if I look into the eyes of the alpha my omega instincts will do something disgusting. He approaches me. I hear his deep and heavy breath. I try to get away but he grabs me. I feel his grip tighten.
I yank my arm from his grasp and my shirt falls to the floor. I try to pick it up but he grips my shoulders. I try to break free from his grasp. He pushes me onto the hospital bed. I’m pinned to the bed and try to squirm free.
“You piece of shit! Get off of me!” I look around the small space looking for an escape. He grips my chin and forces me to look at him. I shut my eyes. If I make eye contact who knows what will happen.
“Look at me.” His voice is strong. Something inside me quivers.
“No!” I try to break his grasp. I started to feel dizzy. It was getting hard for me to breathe.
Alpha.
“Look into my eyes.” His voice. Instincts take over and before I can stop myself I open them. Green eyes. Even though he was still blurry there was no mistaking him.
I started to feel hot. My body was burning. Then it hits me.
“You dipshit.” I whispered.
I could feel something inside me. An alpha like this. ‘He’s made to be yours. Offer yourself to him.’ A whine escaped my lips. I was trying so hard to fight back, but I wanted him to take me. I wrap my arms around his neck. I need to get away before it fully takes over, before I can give in to instinct. I bit his shoulder and push him back. Throughout my life I’ve learned the one thing I’ll always be good at is running away.
I apologise internally to grandpa. I’ll visit him later but for now, I need to get away. I run to my car, and quickly hop in.
I step on the gas. I open my glove box. I had already used my emergency suppressant. I curse mentally at myself. This is ridiculous. I need to get away from everyone. I only have one place I can go.
‘You have to find him’
No.
‘You will belong to him’
No.
‘You were made for one thing, and that's him.’
I step harder on the gas. I lived just outside of town. My house was surrounded by the forest. If I could shift it would be ideal, but I can’t. I hold all the negative aspects an omega does, none of the positive.
I have heats, I can conceive a child, and I have the voice of my wolf. I don’t heal quickly, I’m practically blind, and I can’t shift. As soon as my door opens I struggle to climb out. I end up falling in the dirt.
I was so hot. I just need to get inside. I’ll be safe. Right now I’m sending a beacon to any wolves around.
It hurts so much. My body begs for me to call out. I manage to push myself off the ground. I lean against my truck. I clutch my chest. My heart beats quickly. It begs me to go and search. A whimper escapes my lips.
The slam of a door grabs my attention. Everything is blurry. I can’t see through my tears.
I hear footsteps.
I breathe in the air. The ass who triggered my heat. I snarl at him. He pauses, but then steps closer to me. My knees grow weak. Even though I despise him, there’s a part of me that desires him. I fall into him.
His neck was exposed. I run my nose along it, taking in his scent.
I need him to claim me. Others need to know he’s mine. I lick his neck. He tries to muffle his moan, but I can feel the vibration through his throat.
“Are you going into heat right now?” I pressed myself onto him connecting our lips. I was quick to mesh our tongues together. Desperate for him. His hand moved down my back. I had wrapped myself around him, it wasn’t enough. His hands stop mine.
I couldn’t manage words. Only the sounds of a desperate need. He lifted me off the ground.
I whimper in his ear. I nuzzle my nose into his neck. I glide my tongue across and suck softly. They’ll know he’s mine. Some part of me knows he’s taking me somewhere, but right now I don’t care. I just want him. I drag my canines across his neck. If I just sink my teeth into- I hiss, as something sharp pierces my skin.
“I’m sorry.” He whispers. I feel my eyes get heavy and my body follows.
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It’s warm. It smells of the forest. I slowly peel my eyes open. My surroundings were unfamiliar. There were huge doors that were wide open. A balcony looking out into the forest. I looked out. It was nice, I could smell the fresh dirt, and the pine from the trees.
I sat up. I was in a foriegn room. I had no idea where this was. There were shirts surrounding me. I had been nesting.
That damn alpha.
I quickly lift the blanket. I was only wearing a pair of underwear. My heart sinks, I rush out of the bed stumbling to the ground. I find the closest mirror and lift my hair to see the back of my neck. A wave of relief fills all but one part of me. The wolf inside of me was disappointed. That part I despised the most.
I wasn’t mated. I can deal with anything else, but if he had mated me… I quickly shake the thought from my head. I pull one of the shirts from the floor and sniff it.
It smelled like him. He did smell good, a rich musty scent, smelling like the forest and very subtle cologne,, it was pleasant. I button the shirt. It covers my body, I roll the sleeves up so it fits properly. It falls below my butt looking more like a dress on me. My body looked almost normal, I was still terribly thin though.
How long had I been here?
I wander out onto the balcony. It was just morning, the sun had already started to rise. The sky was no longer pink but still not a solid color.
It was beautiful. I can’t remember the last time I had enjoyed a sunrise like this. I leaned against the balcony. Looking up at the sky. It wasn’t super cold, but still had the morning breeze. It was refreshing. Summer was ending and fall was beginning. There were still hot days, but it wouldn’t be too long til the days got cold.
I move my attention to the trees. I see a wolf, pitch black fur. He was large. He looked familiar yet, there was something different.
The wolf inside of me stirred lightly. I knew it was him. The man who brought me here. I push myself off the railing. With a glare I turn my back and walk away. I was so angry. I sit on the edge of the bed. My mind was racing, it was filled with so many questions, some I don’t think I want the answer to.
There was a knock on the door. “Come in.”
The door slowly opens revealing the man. This was the first time I was really seeing him. His hair was dark, his skin was dark as well. He wasn’t wearing a shirt probably because he had just shifted. The shorts hung low on his hips leaving almost nothing to the imagination. He was ripped.
I shake away the thoughts and stare at him. Out of all the questions to ask the first that leaves my lips is “You’re a real piece of shit you know that? ”He looked at me.
“How can you expect me not to get mad. I see my mate ridiculed with all kinds of bruises. I was upset seeing you like that.”
“I’m sorry what did you just call me?”
“My mate.” I could feel my anger growing as he spoke.
“What the-”
“I know a lot of people don’t believe in fate or destiny, but I just know as soon as I smelled your scent I knew you were meant to be mine. You’re my fated mate.” I stared at him.
“How could you say something like that? You know nothing about me, and now you’re claiming that you want to spend an eternity with me. I-” My head erupted in pain. I winced and leaned into my hands. He rushed to my side.
“Are you ok? Here lay down. I’ll grab you something to eat.” He lifted me up and placed me back onto the bed. I felt the squish of the pillows.
It wasn’t long until he came back into the room. He had a glass of water, and some kind of food with him. He props me up with pillows and hands me the water. He opens up the nightstand and pops off the cap for what looks like some kind of pain medicine. I pop the pills in my mouth. I instantly feel better. My eyesight was a lot better too.
“What the hell kind of magic is that?” He smiles.
“It’s a special pill. My pack works on quite a few different things. This one came out to be extremely useful for our kind. It’s why you’re all better.” I finished the glass of water. He moved to the plate.
“I actually was hoping for a cup of coffee.”
“You should eat some real food. I wasn’t able to give you a whole lot while you were in heat.” The room went silent. I had forgotten about that. The reason I was here in the first place.
“I’ve survived on a lot less. Right now though I need some caffeine.” He sighed, but left the room. I felt uncomfortable. The questions were resurfacing. When he came back he handed me the cup and sat by my feet.
“Thank you. Um- Is it alright if I ask you a couple of questions about what happened?” I didn’t want to ask the questions but I needed to. He didn’t answer, but I had to ask what I needed to.
“Did you use protection?”
“We didn’t have sex.” I looked up at him.
“We didn’t?” He shook his head.i couldn’t help the sigh that escaped my lips, I was relieved. I was still a virgin. A heat is something I want to share with someone I love, not with a stranger. I know it’s a lot to ask for, but the last thing I want is to get pregnant. I wouldn’t be able to afford it. Honestly it’s not like I have time to fall in love. It’s not something I have the capacity for anyways.
I look beside me. His alarm clock reads 7:56am saturday. I have to get to work soon. I start removing the blankets.
“What are you doing?” His eyes were bright
“Leaving.”
“You can’t. You’re not well enough yet.” I rolled my eyes and got to my feet. I helped myself to his closet. I needed pants. Though all of his were too big, I could still work with it.
“Look. I appreciate your help, but I have things I need to do. Like my job for example.” You could tell that he was getting upset. I really didn’t have the time. I don’t have the patience to deal with him.
“If you give me a ride, I'll give you something in return.” I wink. He gulped.
"Anything?" I paused.
"No. Not anything. Something within reason."
"I want you to answer all my questions. You have to be truthful."
"I'll answer 10. I get a pass on 3." He pondered. I stuck out my pinky. "I swear I'll answer truthfully, but think of my position. I'm sure there are some things you want to keep to yourself." He nodded and linked with my pinky.
I adjusted the pants once more, rolling them over themselves on the top. Then cuffing the ankles. The big shirt helped hide the fact all of these clothes were way too big. It looked like I planned it that way.
“I don’t know what happened to my clothes but I do want them back.” I felt better, the caffeine was already hitting my system. I don;t think anything would prepare me to deal with him. He seemed like he was too energetic, and a little too weird even for me.
I need to deal with it. I can’t afford to lose another job. Just remember, there’s always an escape, you just have to find it.
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