I . . . have depression. Most the time I feel nothing, like, why do I exist. Some days I wanna do nothing but cry. Other days . . . I feel like ending it. I feel like hurting myself . . . I even looked up "does cutting yourself help?". I haven't been getting barely any sleep (about only 2-4 hours of sleep). Most of the time I feel like I don't deserve happiness. I font deserve others support. When people ask if I'm ok I say I'm ok so I don't hurt anyone else around me. So they can keep smiling. So they don't worry. When people tell me compliments and say I'm awesome. I say that thanks but truly . . . I believe none of it. I let people walk over me so much my self esteem and confidence is almost . . . broken. I hold my feelings inside, I hide my true feelings so I don't hurt anyone. I feel so pathetic, so worthless. I feel like the world would be so much better without me in it!? I don't come out about my intentions and problems because I might get called an " attention seeker " and that I'm faking everything . . . I-I usually just . . . stay in the corner of my room and . . . just . . . do nothing bit be on my phone, laying there . . . questioning my existence
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I-I'm sorry!
I-I went on an entire rant
. . . S-sorry
I shouldn't waste your time like this!
B-but anyways
You're amazing Ochako!
You do matter and you're so funny and sweet!