I just wanna tell you something. I know maybe you’ll not understand, maybe you’re gonna be mad at me. But, I need to tell you, and I think I’ve waited enough. I… I’ve got a problem. An illness. That destroys my view. And, in a couple of years, I’ll be blind. I learnt during Cm1, but I didn’t really realize, so I didn’t tell anyone. Not even Chris. Now you’ll probably see me differently, as if “blind” was written on my front head. I’m not blind yet. But the doctor says I'll be this autumn. I’m telling you all this ‘cause I just needed to tell someone.”
Do I tell Chris too? No, no. He’ll never understand. And then, he’ll love somebody else.
1 week later.
It does feel strange, surely, but I’ll always see you as “Alex”, a cool friend. I’m sorry for you, it must be so hard. I couldn’t live through this. But I know you’re strong, and that you’ll overcome everything.
This is more than light. It’s just… no word to describe it. What is even better than happiness? I dunno, but that’s what I’m feeling. I knew he’d understand. Yeah, good thing after bad thing. Super thing, I mean.
During dinner, I’m smiling as I’ve never smiled since a long time, and my parents seem to be happy seeing me like this. They think I’ve finally moved with them, and sort of forgotten the past. If only they knew it’s this same past that delights me. I go to bed joyful, whispering this angelic mail. Angelic? I guess…