1st of August. 2 weeks before my adventure.
This girl is mad. She’s ready to go anywhere to see someone’s face. Take a photo and that’s it. She loved a guy, said it was a mistake, now she loves another one, why wouldn’t it be a mistake too? At 13, you have a crush; then you love someone else, and so on. Until you meet the one.
Ok, I’m mad, if you want to. But I prefer going somewhere and fail that going nowhere and regret. When you have something so strong that it makes you do this, you know you must do it. It’s not a mistake, when you dream, think, see, talk, live for a person, it just cannot be one. I’m 13, I don’t care if people say love cannot be taken seriously at that age. I don’t care because I know. I know what I feel, I know that once you made the mistake you can’t make it again. And, it would be so long to explain, sometimes words aren’t enough. It’s not only to see his face, I want to tell him, talk to him. He can say anything he wants to, he can say he loves another girl, he can say anything, but he can’t go away, he can’t ignore me. He cannot do this. He cannot leave me, only look at me, like the others did. I need hope, I need it. After this, I won’t be able to hope for something else, never.
You’ll maybe understand, or maybe not. The point is not to be comprehensive. The point is to know. You can know things without understanding them. Even me, I know what I’m feeling, but to explain it and to understand it is so hard.
Hard, but not impossible. If you live these things, you’ll understand what they really are. I’ve been waiting for an opportunity too long, so I’ve created it. (Thanks to all the people who said so nice quotes, they do help me a lot:)