Nick only managed to take a few steps before a quiet voice called out for him.

‘’Wait!’’ Julian said. Nick turned around and looked at him. Julian stood at the same spot; arms wrapped around himself as he nervously bit his bottom lip. Nick took a step closer to him again, unsure of what to do. He wanted to pull the young man close and breathe him in. To hold him and kiss him until the whole world around them disappeared, but he wasn’t sure if Julian wanted that.

‘’I’m sorry, about everything,’’ Nick said again, half expecting Julian to turn his back on him, but he didn’t. Instead, Julian ran towards him and flung his arms around Nick and kissed his lips hard.

‘’Don’t apologize,’’ Julian whispered against his lips. ‘’I was being an idiot.’’

‘’No, you weren’t.’’ Nick hugged him tighter and Julian pressed his face against Nick’s chest. ‘’Can I tell you something?’’ He felt Julian nod against him, and he couldn’t help but smile. He kissed the top of his head and took in a shuddering breath. ‘’I don’t know what this is-‘’ he began, and Julian clenched his fists in Nick’s shirt as if he thought Nick would leave him. As if he thought this was the last goodbye. ‘’-but I know it can become something more. Because I want it to.’’

Julian looked up at him with big eyes. ‘’Are you sure?’’ he asked quietly.

‘’Yes, Julian,’’ Nick smiled as he pressed his lips to Julian’s forehead. ‘’I’m very sure.’’

The tears ran down Julian’s cheeks, but Nick kissed every single one of them away. He took Julian’s hand and led him back towards his little house, and as soon as they stepped through the door, Nick slammed it shut and pressed the younger man hard against it while claiming his mouth once more. Julian’s hands were in his hair, holding Nick in place, while Nick’s hands were placed on Julian’s hips. The young man breathed heavily as Nick began kissing the right side of his neck, teasing the soft skin with his teeth and his tongue, before moving on to the other side. Julian leaned his head against the wooden door and gave himself up to him, allowing Nick to push his knee in between Julian’s legs. He could feel the other man’s hardness against his thigh, and he wanted to touch him. To let the lust consume him whole. Nick pulled away long enough to pull Julian’s shirt off of him before his mouth was on him again. ‘’You’re so beautiful,’’ Nick breathed against his skin, as he kissed his way down Julian’s chest. The young man hissed as he felt Nick’s tongue run over his right nipple, and he arched into the touch, begging for more. Nick smiled as he kept teasing him. Every time Nick’s teeth scraped over one of his nipples Julian moaned, and Nick loved that sound. Julian’s hands were still wrapped in his hair, and his grip tightened every time Nick’s tongue played with him.

‘’fuck,’’ Julian moaned, as he pushed Nick away gently. He took hold of Nick’s shoulders and turned them around, so Nick was pressed against the door. Julian pressed his knee in between Nick’s legs, and Nick hissed when he felt the young man’s thigh rub against his cock. Julian smiled as he began opening Nick’s shirt.

‘’I want you so bad,’’ Nick whispered against his lips, as Julian pushed his shirt off his shoulders.

‘’Then take me,’’ Julian said as he bit Nick’s bottom lip.

Nick smiled big as he began pushing the young man backward towards the bedroom. He needed more than just a blowjob this time. He wanted to be inside Julian and feel how well their bodies would fit each other.

They reached the bed, and Nick sat down on the edge while Julian stepped in between his legs. Nick pressed his face against Julian’s lower stomach, kissing, licking, and teasing his soft skin. Nick grabbed Julian’s hips to hold him in place, while his tongue explored the thin line of hair that started under his belly button and disappeared down his pants. Everything about this was so new and so exciting for Nick. The idea of having Julian, on the bed, underneath him was making him painfully hard. He looked up and met Julian’s gaze, and a cheeky smile formed on the young man’s lips. Nick took his hand and pulled Julian down onto the bed. Nick pushed him down onto his back and laid himself on top of him. Julian spread his legs further apart and wrapped them around Nick’s hips, pressing their groins hard together. Nick couldn’t hold back his moan when he felt how hard Julian was under him, and his cock was throbbing painfully against him.

He pulled away and kneeled between Julian’s legs, as his hands worked open the buttons in his pants. He stood up and pulled them off of him while looking at his beautiful naked body. Julian was still on his back, legs spread apart, and his hard cock against his stomach, the tip already shining with pre-cum. Nick began biting his lip without even noticing it, as his eyes scanned Julian’s body. He was frozen in time, and he couldn’t pull himself out of the trance he was in. Julian laughed a little and shook his head before he sat upon his knees and pulled Nick closer to the bed. He kissed Nick’s lower stomach and his warm breath caressed his skin gently, sending shivers up and down Nick's spine. ‘’Too many clothes,’’ Julian whispered as he opened Nick’s pants.

Nick closed his eyes as Julian pulled his pants down. Nick didn’t have time to think before Julian took all of him in his mouth. Nick gripped Julian’s hair tight and pressed himself deeper down his throat, and he admired how the young man was able to stop himself from gagging.

Julian pulled away, and looked up at Nick, his beautiful eyes big and bright with lust. Nick pushed him down onto his back and laid himself on top of him, between Julian’s legs. Nick was grinding his hips, causing both of them to moan as their cocks rubbed against each other. Nick's head began buzzing again, as he claimed Julian’s mouth with his own. The kiss was desperate and clumsy, but it was perfect. Julian pulled away from him a little and looked at Nick with a serious expression on his face.

‘’Are you sure you’re ready for this?’’ Julian asked and kissed his cheek.

‘’Yes,’’ Nick breathed, ‘’I want all of you, Julian.’’ He leaned down and kissed the corner of Julian’s mouth. ‘’It’s just… I don’t know how,’’ he whispered, ‘’I don’t want to hurt you.’’

‘’Okay,’’ Julian sighed a little as he pulled away. He reached over to the nightstand and opened the little drawer, pulling out a small tube. Nick stared at him with big eyes. He might not know much about anal sex, but he most definitely knew what that was.

He cocked an eyebrow at him, ‘’why do you have lube on you? Did you plan for something like this to happen before you even got here?’’ He asked with a little smile on his cheeks. He knew that Julian had brought it with him when he had arrived because the young man hadn’t gone to town to buy supplies in the time Nick had known him.

Julian blushed a little as he met Nick’s eyes. ‘’You can use this when you’re alone too,’’ he said with a little smile. ‘’I’m only human… I do have needs too.’’ Nick’s mouth went slack as images began popping up in his head… images of Julian, laying on this bed, naked and alone while fucking himself on his fingers… or whatever else he’d brought with him. ‘’Did I surprise you?’’ He asked as he waggled his eyebrows.

‘’So… you- ‘’ Nick cleared his throat as he began blushing. ‘’-you know.’’

‘’Fuck me while dreaming about you?’’ Julian said bluntly and Nick almost choked. Julian laughed as kissed Nick’s lips quickly. ‘’Well, yes. I do. Does that bother you?’’

‘’What!’’ Nick yelped, ‘’No, god no! It’s- ‘’ he took in a deep breath. ‘’-it’s kind of hot.’’

‘’I’m glad you think so,’’ he said with a little smile. ‘’So, I kind of need to get prepared, if you know what I mean,’’ once again he waggled his eyebrows and Nick blushed even more. ‘’I’m way too tight for you right now.’’

‘’Oh my god, Julian… do you have to be so… blunt?’’ Nick shrieked. Julian’s honesty both turned him on and made him feel awkward all at once, but he didn’t want him to stop… he liked hearing him talk like that.

‘’Yes,’’ Julian shrugged. ‘’You said that you didn’t know what to do, so I’m explaining it to you.’’

Nick hung his head and mumbled another ‘’oh my god,’’ under his breath before turning his attention back on Julian. ‘’okay, keep going then.’’ Nick said, and Julian smiled at him.

‘’There are so many ways to do this… but the easiest ways it either that you do it, or I’ll do it myself.’’

‘’With what?’’ Nick asked stupidly, and Julian just shook his head.

‘’You are hopeless,’’ he whispered as he took Nick’s hand and kissed his fingers gently before sucking one of them into his mouth, looking at Nick with a come on, you can’t be that lost expression on his face. And Nick wasn’t.

‘’Oh,’’ he said

‘’Yes, oh’’ Julian repeated with a little laugh. ‘’I can do it myself if it’s too transgressive for you.’’

Nick shook his head fiercely. ‘’I’m okay with it,’’ he said before even thinking.

Julian nodded slowly. ‘’Are you sure?’’

‘’Yes,’’ Nick whispered as he took the lube out of Julian’s hand. ‘’I’m sure,’’ he straightened up a little and kneeled between the young man’s legs. ‘’I want all of it… with you,’’ he said as he opened the tube and poured some over his fingers. A little blush crept over Julian’s cheeks as Nick’s hand disappeared down between his legs. Nick pressed his finger against his hole and looked into those beautiful dark eyes. ‘’Are you sure about this?’’

‘’Yes, Nick! I want you,’’ he whispered.

Nick smiled and leaned down to kiss him as he slowly pressed one finger into him. He felt Julian tighten around him as he moaned into his mouth. Having his finger inside of him while hearing him moan made Nick's cock throb. He needed to be inside of him soon because this anticipation was making him desperate. He pressed his finger all the way in before slowly pulling it out. He studied Julian’s face, making sure that it wasn’t too much for him, but the small moans and calm expression on his face told him, that he was okay. Julian’s mouth was slightly open and small quick breaths escaped his lips, his eyes were shut, and his fists were clenched in the sheets.

Nick continued for a while, moving his finger in and out of him slowly before adding another one. He’d never done something like this before, and he hadn’t expected that he would enjoy it as much as he did. Having his fingers inside Julian, feeling the heat of him was intoxicating. It wasn’t like it was with women. They weren’t nearly as tight as him, and his fingers always slid easier into them. This was all so different, and he loved it.

‘’Nick, I’m ready, okay?’’ Julian moaned. ‘’Please, just take me!’’

Nick nodded as he slowly pulled his fingers out and poured more lube into his hand, stroking himself a couple of times. Julian watched him with hungry eyes as he settled down between his legs and pressed his cock against his hole. ‘’Fuck me, please.’’ He begged, and Nick could do nothing but obey.

He pressed into him, filling him up slowly while pressing their lips together. Julian opened his mouth, and Nick groaned as their tongues touched. Julian hooked his legs around Nick’s hips and forced him deeper into himself. The buzzing in Nick's head had never been this extreme as it was now, and his whole body was shaking as he was buried deep inside of the beautiful man underneath him.

Nick was rewarded with a loud moan every time he thrust into him. Julian looked at him, smiling, as he wrapped a hand around his own cock, stroking himself at the same pace as he was getting fucked in. The sight pushed Nick closer to the edge, and he leaned down and claimed Julian’s mouth once more, tongues fighting desperately for control.

Julian’s breath hitched as he clenched his eyes shut, and Nick looked down at his hand, as Julian came all over his own stomach. ‘’Fuck,’’ Nick moaned as he could feel Julian tighten around him, and the sight of his stomach covered in cum, and the tightness around his cock made him reach his climax with Julian’s name on his lips. 

He didn’t pull out, as he collapsed on top of Julian, breathing heavily. Julian wrapped his arms around him and held him close while kissing the top of his head. ‘’This was amazing,’’ he whispered into Nick's hair. Nick just nodded. He could talk yet, but he agreed. This was the best experience he’d ever had, and he knew that he couldn’t live without this ever again.