In dedication to ‘The Ex From Hell’ by Alisa Gross
Guilt is not part of the present / It is part of the past
Guilt is not knowing right from wrong / It Is making mistakes and regretting them
Guilt is not lashing out / It is the voice in the back of your mind saying “Don’t do it”
Guilt is not feeling loved / It is feeling unloved like the puppy that became too much
Guilt is not knowing you are enough / It is the need to think “If only…”
Guilt is not hearing “I love you so much” / It Is hearing “Why are you so useless!?” before seeing blackness that envelops you
Guilt is not being wrapped in the arms of your loved one / It Is hiding in the bathroom wishing you never met him
Guilt is not relaxing in front of the fireplace / It Is laying on the cold, hard floor
Guilt is not showing off your body / It is covering up the black and blue with layers
Guilt is not ‘Do you feel like a man when you push her around?; Face down in the dirt, she said "This doesn't hurt!"’ / It is him pulling you up out of the dirt after accidentally hurting you
Guilt is not knowing you’re going to be with your family / It is writing the note while hot tears flow down your cheeks
Guilt is not having clean arms / It is letting your arms shimmer with crimson
Guilt is not taking the pills as prescribed / It is downing the whole bottle like a shot of whiskey
Guilt is not going to bed knowing you’re going to wake up in the morning / It is closing your eyes for the last time
Guilt is not your mom’s hug leaving warmth to fill your body / It Is watching from afar as she holds your lifeless body close to her while sobbing wanting her baby back
The song lyrics ‘Do you feel like a man when you push her around?; Face down in the dirt, she said "This doesn't hurt!"’ come from the song Face Down by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. All rights belong to them.
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