Dear Diary,

  I can't stop crying because mommy keeps hurting me and telling me that I should be like her. But I just said No because it's not what I wanted to be, she yanked my hair and push me to the walls, "You're not following the family rules, Alianna! How dare you break one of them!" she said, "But I didn't break their rules!" I replied, she didn't listen to me.. She doesn't listen to me..

I was crippled with so much despair of what I've done wrong to my own family? They never listen to me but listen to their own stupid ideals!

It's been years that I haven't write this diary, Let's say that I'm a 13 years old today. Apollo and Amaterasu were surprised that I have bruises all over the place. They ask me "What's wrong Alianna?", I was too scared to tell them because they might tell anyone, even my parents what I've told them. I just run to the park and cry there. 

Years of getting so much despair and torture. I lost my own will to keep my courage moving, I stop encouraging myself and just stop everything I enjoyed. One day I hear so much voices in my head, I can't stop crying until I notice my left eye's sclera turn black on my mirror which I accidentally drop it on the ground. That mirror shattered, as I look at it. My left eye is red and blue mixed. My iris was dark blood red, with neon pink around my iris. The voices, I..