When I was off work I trudged to my truck. There was a note on my windshield.
“Nope.”
I pluck it off and immediately throw it in my passenger seat. I do not have the energy to deal with this right now. Hate notes are always thrown on my windshield. Even though I try to pretend it doesn’t hurt, it always does.
I drive down to the school. I park my truck in my usual spot. As far as I can, away from everyone. I just want to sleep.
I grab my bag. I feel eyes digging holes into me. I ignore it and keep moving forward. Whispers spread as I walk. Something was off. There wasn’t any blatant bullying. It was new and honestly unsettling.
People moved away from me, but this I was used to. Instead of the looks of disgust and hate , they were replaced with fear and curiosity.
I tell myself to ignore it, but it’s kinda hard when it’s all around me. I move to my locker. A group surrounds my locker. I smell a familiar scent. I don’t necessarily need to go there. Not at the moment.
I bypass the crowd.
“Andy!”
I hear a voice call behind me. I ignore it, trying to hide my face. Keeping my head down. It’s better to hide in the bigger places. For once luck is on my side as the bell rings the crowd grows.
I slip in with the crowd of people and go to my usual seat in the back of class. There weren’t a lot of people in class today. A lot of people probably got an excused absence to prepare for the big meeting. Honestly less of a hassle for me. I set my backpack on top of my desk and allow myself to relax.
I should be fine. I don’t think he’ll be able to find me, for now at least. The sun was shining on me through the window. I closed my eyes. As I drifted to sleep I couldn’t help but dream.
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I cry. My sobs are louder than I would like. More than anything the pain of what they said hurt more than the physical.
What made me more mad was I didn’t know if they were lying. I want them to be, but I don’t know. I wipe my eyes silencing myself. My body was still shaking.
I wandered to the drop off spot.
Gram stood outside the truck as she waited for me. Gramps was in the truck. As soon as she sees me she knows. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing” I mumble and get into the truck.
“What’s up kiddo?” My Gramps looks at me. Then to my Gram. She hops in beside me. The car was quiet. When Gramps started to drive.
“So how was your day?” I stay quiet and just shrug.
“That’s it.” Gramps pulls into a different parking lot.
“Spill it. What’s going on?”I burst.
“Why don’t I have a mommy?! Everyone says my mom broke pack rules, they say I was never supposed to be born! Is it true? Am I really some abomination that was never supposed to be born?”
“Honey, why do you think that?”
“Everyone at school says it. They say my own mom didn’t want me.” I burst into tears again.
My gram pulls me into her chest. When I’ve calmed down, Gramps finally speaks up.
“Listen to me. I don’t give a damn about what anyone thinks. Your mother may have made some mistakes, but having you was not one of them. You are Not an abomination. You are an amazing person who has a heart of gold. We love you more than anything. There are just some circumstances that your mother had where she couldn't have you with her. When you’re older we’ll explain everything, but for now I need you to trust me. Alright?” I nodded. “Now who wants some ice cream to cheer us all up?” I giggled, as he pinched my cheek.
I remember the way they constantly treated me as if I was their own child. They were the only ones who truly cared for me. I never was able to find out the reason my mother left. Maybe when Gramps wakes up, he’ll be able to tell me then.
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I wake up at the sound of the bell. I rub my eyes. I reach my arms above my head and stretch. The few people that were in class were headed out the door. I grabbed my backpack. I throw my hood on remembering the chaos going on outside.
I finally get to the library. In there I simply head straight for a table throwing my backpack down. It’s been exhausting not only physically but mentally as well. I allow myself to sleep once again. This time instead of nice memories, I’m greeted with a nightmare.
I wake with hands on my shoulders. I fight back the tears. It felt real. I don’t fight back the arms that wrap around me.
I try to slow my breathing. I finally calm down and pull away. I looked up and there he was. The one I had been avoiding. The one who somehow always found a way to find me.
I sigh. I could feel my cheeks heat up when I peered at him.
“What are you doing here?” He chuckles.
“You have a panic attack and the first thing you ask is why I’m here.”I don’t look at him. I look at anything but him. I don’t want my feelings to get any deeper with him. He’ll leave when I cross the line between love and like.
It always happens.
The problem was my nightmare wasn’t so much a nightmare, but the harsh reality I call my life. When I care deeply for someone, like a curse something happens where I lose them. It never fails. That’s why it’s better to separate myself now. If I don’t what I feel will be real. It won’t just be the idea of someone showing me kindness.
I need to get away from him. I start to grab my backpack. “C’mon I wanted the beautiful omega to show me around. I managed to get away from all of those people following me. Just so I could see you.”
“Ok. C’mon, I’ll take you.” A huge smile spread on his face. He got to his feet with a spring in his step. I bite my lip. I nervously play with the stitching on my sleeves as I walk slightly ahead of him.
He follows behind me without question. Which is something he shouldn’t do. In a way it almost makes me feel bad.
I hear her before I see her. “Where is he?” She yells. I feel an arm grab me from behind. Trisha. The typical popular girl. Beautiful, blond, bold. Everyone wants her, or wants to be her.
She’s an omega. A purebred, her family is high up, and well known. She’s destined to be a luna.
I pull my arm from him. “You said you wanted a beautiful omega. I simply followed your wishes.”
Irritated, he looked at me. “I wanted you. You’re the beautiful omega. I was trying to express how absolutely amazing you are.”
“I disagree. Now, I have places to be.” I clench my fists, as I walk away. I fight the tears. I hate it. I know he wants me to stay with him. I know he thinks he wants a relationship. I want one, but with an alpha from a higher up pack, it won’t happen. He grabs my arm and pulls me closer to him. Right before he can say something Trisha comes over.
“Oh my gosh! There you are, I've been looking all over for you!” She looks me up and down. “Is this trash bothering you?” I pulled my hand away. I bowed my head. I escaped to the back of the school. My chest hurt. It was simply just a reminder that I can’t live a normal life.
I feel as if I’ve been cursed. I was cursed not to be happy. Maybe I was cursed to make everyone around me suffer.
Maybe it would be better if I wasn’t here. I just want to escape. I want to get away from everything. Maybe the universe will answer my questions. Maybe I’ll get some kind of sign.
I feel like that’s not the case as I head into my truck.
I drive down to the hospital. I just needed the one person my life revolves around.
“Hey gramps.” I sit beside him. “It’s been a while since I’ve seen you. I’m so sorry. I met a couple of people. One is annoying. He constantly tries to show up. He’s kind, but comes from a great family. He thinks we should have a relationship. I told him no. He still tries. There’s this wolf too. He’s the other one I met. He won’t show me his human form. He’s incredibly sweet. I think he might be a rogue, but he doesn’t scare me. In fact quite the opposite. Any troubles I have fade when I’m with him. It’s weird.I wish you would wake up and help me.” I couldn’t help but laugh softly to myself.
“I miss you. I miss both you and gram. The two of you made my life so much happier. It’s been hard. The two of you made me feel like I was worthy. I haven’t felt that way in a long time. Not since you’ve been here.” I feel myself begin to tear up. I bite my tongue as the ump forms in my throat. I don’t talk, I know I’ll start crying if I do. I have to be strong, for him. I attempt to swallow.
“I’ll be right back.” I can at least pay for the month now.
I walk out of the room trying to push all of my emotions down. I stop and lean against the wall. I try and take deep breaths.
I’m finally able to make my way down to the front desk. “Hi can I make a payment?”
“Yes for which patient?”
“My grandfather. He’s in room 719. I would like to pay for this month.”
“It looks like it’s already been paid. It looks like there’s an automatic payment set up as well. You don’t have to worry about paying ever again. Not as long as there's money on this account.”
“Wait. Who paid? What’s the name on the account?”
“Hunter Levett.”
“Thank you.” Did he seriously? Ugh. I can’t believe this. I need to go. I march out of there. I begin to dive to the house where I once was. Why would he do this?
I can’t pay him back and I’ve been perfectly clear. I don’t want a relationship with him. I can’t accept the money I don’t want to owe him anything.
THere’s nothing I can give him. He wants a love that I can’t provide. He should be with someone who is worthy of him. He’s an alpha with a higher standing. He deserves an omega that can compare to him.
The sooner he gets it through that thick skull of his, the better he’ll be.
I park my truck in his driveway. I march to his door and bang on the door.
“Open the door !” I yell as I continue to bang on it. When the door finally opens. “You piece of shit! I told you to stop doing ridiculous things like this and yet you….. You’re not Hunter.” I see Hunter’s face, but it’s not Hunter.
He stares at me. He seems surprised. I step closer. I smell his scent once more.
“It’s you.” I look at him. The wolf. Yet he looks like Hunter, but he’s not. I know for a fact he’s the wolf I had met in the forest. His scent is the same. I also get the same feeling when I’m around him. The feeling of wanting to be closer to him. The safe feeling. “Please explain to me what is going on.”
“No one has ever been able to tell us apart before.” He looks at me.
“What?”
“No one has ever been able to differentiate us before.”
“Ok. Please just explain to me what is happening.” I pinched the bridge of my nose.
“The Azure Moon Pack has two alphas. A set of twins. My brother and I. One of us is destined for great darkness while the other is destined for greatness. It’s up to you to decide.”
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