"That maybe but whatever doughs I may have had are gone. Poseidon confirmed it himself. He didn't say out right that he only wants my death at his hand but he didn't denied it at all. All he would say was 'Who Told You?' so you tell me Artmis what do you have to say to that?" I said. Artims wouldn't look at me. Which was yet another conformation of the truth that is that Poseidon wants me dead. Now I really needed that drink and the cigarettes. I knew there was about 20 different top shelf bottles of Vodka up stairs. So I unlocked my door and went on up.
I went to my built in bar and found a bottle that looked good for the night. It wasn't of the best quality that I had but it would do the trick. I garbed my smokes and lit one up then opened the bottle and proceeded to drink it down strait. It burned but not as much as the tears that ran down my face. How stupid could I really be. I was such a fool to hope that anyone would ever see the real me. That I would ever have someone ever give a shit about me. I could do a lot but I could never seem to get anyone to really care for me. All anyone ever saw was what I could do for them. Or think about what I could do with the power that lived in me. Like I was just a tool for anyone and everyone to use. I HATED that most of all. I was a FUCKING person too GOD DAMN IT!!! I wanted a family that loved me and I could grow with and in. But that was not in the cards for me. No I was just everyone's fucking tool.
"What the fuck am I even fighting for any more?" I asked myself out loud. As I stared out the bank of windows out to the ocean. I took another drag off both my cigrette and the bottle. All the while I was pondering over the question I had asked myself. I saw Richey, Nicky, all the girl's faces flash before my eyes. I saw all those that where "friends" to me and those I protected when no one else would. I saw the kids I had worked to get out of the gangs that where killing them. They were all little lights in my darkness but even I could tell they where losing their hold on me as I kept giving into the darkness. Each time I had to take a life and I gave over to that darkness that would for ever live within me. Maybe it was time I just gave over to it fully and let go of any hope at all that I may have once had that there was something good in this life out there just waiting for me to find it or waiting to find me.
"Coyrah! Even in the darkest places there is light if you just look. You will see it. You fight for those that cannot fight for themselves. You take on that darkness because you are strong enough to do what needs doing when it needs doing. You see far to much of the worst of everything. You are aloud to be happy Coyrah. You have only to make a leap of faith. I know that is not easy for someone like you. You have known only darkness for so long that it has become home for you but that was never where you were meant to live." A voice I had never heard a day in my life before said. But I didn't stop to think to much on it. I was a Demi-God after all so this was kind of normal for me.
"And just who the fuck might you be?" I said as I looked out my windows. Yet I was also using the reflections to see if someone had come in behind me, or more likely appeared in my apartment. Sure enough she was there. She looked like a woman that was used to having some kind of power. Her gowned was beautiful, long and flowy. Like that ones you might see at some red carpet event or some shit. She even had a crown on her head. Her hair was dark almost black. Her skin was pale like she didn't get enough sun. Unlike mine which showed I got too much sun. Her eyes looked familiar though as though I had seen them before and they had looked kindly on me. Like they looked on me now. She wasn't put off by my foul language but she seemed to understand something else too. She had a look in her eyes that said she too knew what it was to fight so much just to survive.
"I am the one whom will be your mother if you will allow it. But for that to happen you will have to trust. I know what I am asking. I may not have been born a child of a God but I was born with power that had me hunted by everyone and I was an out cast. I know how you feel because I have felt that same way. But we are linked you and I, Coyrah. We share in this fate. We are Queens. You are not yet I know but you will be. As in life just like in chess A Queen is her Kings last line of defiance. You are strong Child so strong but you are weakening and you know it. I can see it in you as sure as you see me standing here in this room. You long for a peace you have never known and fear it all at the same time because you don't know how to handle such a thing as someone whom will willing take care of you and love you not because of your power or what you can do for them but because of who you are as a person." She said. I about lost my shit then and a storm kicked up out side. If I was smart I would have started it off shore and just made the hurricane move inland slowly. It would have taken more power but it would have saved me some trouble and helped me let off more steam but I was far too pissed at this point to give two fucks who knew where I was and where they could find me. In point of fact she was helping me put out the call to all those that wanted me dead to come and find me and take their chance at killing me and then at least I would have some place to put all this rage. But the storm was in the storm that I found the most calm and it scared the shit out of her. I saw a man appear behind her now. Likely he was her husband and summoned to her by her fear.
"You may have been born with power Your Majesty but don't pretend to know me or any fucking thing about me. I don't need you, your husband, or your sons for any damned thing. I would be willing to bet you have no idea the price you all ask me to pay for what it is you really want. But I'll tell you." I said. I had sneered when I had called her Your Majesty. But by the time I said I would tell them the price that was needed for what they wanted most in this world I sounded down right evil even to my own ears. I took another hit from the smoke and the bottle then looked them both square in the eye.
" Poseidon, you, your son, and your people are Demanding my life. For you ungrateful fucks to return I have to die at the hand of Poseidon and your son. I don't see how any of that fits with what you claim. So just as I told your sons. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE! I don't need any of you. I will die on my terms and it sure as hell won't be as a slave to someone else's will. Now Get Out!" I said. I saw the shock on their faces. I felt the storm intensify outside and in my eyes as they just stood there. I was just about to bring a bolt in and strike them both when Haira appeared between them and me. She looked right pissed too. I gave her a look that said plain as day that she could either get them the fuck out or I would hit her with the lightening too and we would see how well she did with that. She bowed her head to me. That took me back. The Gods never did that.
"Coyrah, forgive us this. Airtimes thought that you would like to know that you are not alone in all this. She wanted to give you hope for a brighter future than the one you have choicen but I fear what they have all forgotten. You are a woman that has never had anything good and this all has given you nothing but more of what you have always known and pushing you is not going to change that. I will take them and leave you. Though I wish you had found some kind of happiness in this life that is not the path you are on and I know you well enough to know that you will not change your course now. I hope you find peace in Aleseium." She said. I nodded and turned my back to her and my unwanted gests. I lit another cigarette and took a long deep drag. Then fallowed that with another hit off my bottle. There would be no sleeping tonight. That was fine with me thought I saw something moving in the shadows outside I set down my bottle and lept from the window and down on to the street below. Finally some one worth killing was my last clear thought before I hit the street outside. As I landed I gave fully over to the darkness, I never did feel any pain here.
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