Ezra stands in the doorway of my hospital room he looks frozen like he just heard a devious plan he wasn't meant to hear. I don't know how long he was standing there all three of us just stayed still. Finally I sneezed breaking the stillness, Jace was faster to bless me and Ezra looked like he was brooding. I looked at Jace and I decided I would use this opportunity to break up with Ezra. I smiled weakly at Jace and I turned to Ezra.

 "Ezra..." I hesitated unable to find my words, "I think we should break up," I said straight to the point as sharp and blunt as a spoon but still deadly and effective. "I feel like I've been pulling you away from work and I have sensed that when we are together you seem to be hiding something or your aren't in the present with me. I know it is probably just me, but I had started to develop feelings for Jace. I... I-I cheated on you, Ezra, I already cheated on you so please don't try to reason with me," I started just endlessly talking. Ezra's face darkened and he stared at me looking like he was an injured rabbit. Ezra walked to my bedside, kissed my forehead, and then hugged me to his chest.

 "Mia, I don't care what happened but I love you!" Ezra paused on the brink of tears. He gulped "please don't leave me, please stay with me, I won't mind if you have another but please as long as you will also stay with me I'm willing! Just please don't leave me," he pleaded. I gently pushed him away and gave him a tissue.

 "Ezra, I don't love you the way you love me, I love someone else. I don't want to have more than one man, it isn't fair to you," I never really had much money before Ezra so I decided to use it against Ezra. "I originally only stayed with you and slept with you for your money. I'm not even who you think I am. You deserve sd someone else," I coaxed. Ezra's face had a look I hadn't seen before, it looked like he was defeated, accepting, and winning all at the same time. His face flashed angry and then it settled into a nonchalant expression.

 "Mia you should really overthink my offer. I'm being nice, I'll continue to be your sugar daddy too if you'll have me, and I will find more time to spend with you when you want," Ezra offered before he leaned in to my ear and whispered "I can also do everything to keep you next to me even if it means using all means necessary and unnecessary," he leaned over me and turned to Jace. "Jace please leave me and Mia alone for a moment I need to speak with her privately," Ezra said his voice oozing false sweetness. Jace looked to me for my decision. I nodded at him to go and when he left closing the door behind him.

 "What do you think I'm hiding from you, Mia? Mia i love you I gave myself to you s-so don't just push me away what is it? Was I too hasty? Am I too high profile? Tell me what I did wrong Mia?" Ezra pleaded. I felt torn in two on the one hand Ezra had never shown me that he wanted to hurt, instead he showed me endless love and happiness. On the other hand he may be a demon who is willing to hand over our child to continue living in the mortal realm. Either way he hid too much from me and he could never know that we were going to be parents.

"Ezra. I can tell you are hiding something and I don't want to pry and I no longer want to know. I cheated that's that. We are over I cannot tolerate myself for cheating and will never return to you because I have betrayed you deeply. This is both our faults and as such there is no longer an us. You are you and I am who I am," I droned out not giving him a chance to say anything. But instead of being dejected he crossed the space between us and gave me a kiss on the forehead.

"I done care what you did as long you come home to me," Ezra whispered to me before giving me a passionate kiss and soon he worked his way onto the gurney with me he gently removed the thin hospital gown from me and detached me from the wires of the hospital.  My mind was telling me no but also telling me this may be the last time I'll ever get to be held by him and so I gave myself to one last time.

When I awoke, my mind was hazy and I felt oddly satisfied, until I attempted to turn, my body felt like I had been through a wood chipper. I then recalled the events that had transpired with Ezra. I began to cry and then felt a hand touch my shoulder. Angry with myself I rejected the hand away and curled myself into a ball. I heard the person's breathe catch.

 "Mia, I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have left. I shouldn't have stepped out. I shouldn't have closed the door. I shouldn't have gone outside," Jace pleaded. I heard his voice and a part of me felt better and secure with his presence. I uncurled from my position and turned to face Jace. Even with the regret of the events looping in my mind, my art filled mind still managed to admire Jace's beautiful and handsome carved jade like features. I used that small thread of thought to push the sadness of my memories of what I had back. I vowed to not be sad over Ezra anymore and that it would be in my unborn children's best interest if I never saw Ezra again. I'd lost him but I also gained two smol hopes from him. 

 "Jace it's not your fault," I said in a low voice. Jace hearing me speak looked at me through sad misty eyes the self blame crossed his face but I know the blame doesn't belong to him. "You can't blame yourself for the bad outcomes I find for myself Jace. I have to let him go for the safety of my unborn children. You being here is more than I could dream for us," I say and stroke my belly knowing my two small beans would be safe coming into the world with Jace to look after them.

 "Why couldn't I see that Godspeed was a demon? I'm supposed to protect you and instead I basically hand delivered you to him," Jace says blaming himself for me and Ezra.

 "It isn't true I was drawn to him from the moment he appeared before me, even if you told me to stay away I would have found a way to him, don't blame yourself. You still protected me and will continue to protect me, right?" I reason with him eventually Jace regains his composure and holds me in a gentle hug.