Warning: Suicidal actions and swearing
This a dramaticized more than I should
I wish I hadn't been born. I used to tell myself that death was a mercy I didn't deserve. But don't I deserve mercy? Maybe not. But I'm finally going to take control.
The thoughts started at age 10.When I realized I was gay. When I came out to my parents. That was a BIG mistake. I was sent to a camp that was supposed to cure of homosexuality. I was there for 3 months. The camp was outside the law. We were beaten. It was a living hell. I tried mulitple times while I was there. By the end I wasn't allowed anywhere near the knifes.
Then I saw many christian therapists. All I was told to do was to believe in god, who just happened to be homophobic. Even though homosexuality wasn't even mentioned in the bible.
I was sent to the most homophobic mental center in the USA.It was built on money and corruption.
This is it, I can't take it anymore. I'm done trying to please, I'm done trying to live the best life I can. Cause with my parents I can't. Goodbye life and hello Satan