I was an average student not because I could not do better than that but because I spent most of my time trying to be something I was not,a rich cool kid.

I come from a humble background while my friends come from well-off backgrounds but I just could not accept that so I always struggled to match up to them so I would lie to my parents about school projects and requirements just so my parents could give me more money.

I really never paid attention to how much they struggled to feed and keep me in school sometimes they would sacrifice meals just so they could save up my school fees.

After holidays,When others talked of how fun their holidays were,how extravagant it was,I was also there "giving same kind of stories,how my parents had got a new car, apartment (new properties)but none of that was true,I spent most of my holidays fighting with my parents, asking for a smartphone,new shoes and clothes.

I was also good at being an attention seeker ,breaking school rules just so I could scare fellow students, bullying them... You could say Peer pressure had taken the better part of me and had a negative impact on me.

Our teachers always advised us to concentrate on studies because each of us got admitted alone and when leaving after graduation,each of us would also leave and face life alone. I never imagined such a day would come but it did.

On that day,after graduation no one could tell how the other left. With my average grades, I was able to secure myself a place at a local university but even then nothing changed,I went back to my life style of trying to be a rich cool kid totally ignoring my parents struggles but things here were different...rich cool kids would hold parties,buy expensive clothes, jewelry and branded bags ! Even after lying to my parents,the money was not enough to do all of that.

To solve my problem,I had to come up with a new way of acquiring money so the easiest way was to use my school fees .I started using my school fees . My parents gave me the money but instead of taking it to school,,I just went partying and continuing my "cool rich kid " game but without paying school fees I wouldn't be allowed to sit for my end of year exam so during that period I just slept in my room when my classmates asked why I just lied that I was sick but had already applied for special exam. I did not know that they already knew that I could not sit for the exam because I had not paid my school fees.

Everyone began questioning why a rich cool kid like me could not afford to clear at her school fees bill. I become the center of every conversation among those who knew me. 

All of my friends started avoiding me,I didn't know what to do the unpaid school fees had accumulated to a very high amount so there was no way of lying to my parents the only option was to tell my parents the truth but I did not have the courage to do that ! What was I going to do? Drop out of school? If I did,what would I tell my parents? What about my future?With all this thoughts running through my mind ,I finally come to my senses! It downed on me that I had taken a wrong turn,I had made very wrong decisions made so many unforgivable mistakes but here I was now regretting....