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There are moments in time where it feels like a glitch. It feels like it can’t be real, like everyone is playing a prank on me.
I can’t help but start laughing. I felt like this whole thing was ridiculous. A joke everyone the universe was playing on me.
“Let me get this straight. Your brother says I’m his mate. As if that wasn’t crazy enough, I find out he has a twin. The mysterious wolf who showed up when I needed him, just so happens to be you. The one person I felt was on my side now seems to claim the same thing, as his crazy ass brother. Along the lines of how I was only meant for you. Which boils down to you saying I have to decide between the two of you. Is that correct?” He nods his head. I turn around. When I turn around I see the fancy car rolling into the driveway. I laugh bitterly.
“This has to be so funny to you.” I mumble to the universe.
Out of the car steps the other brother. My head begins to ache.
As soon as the two face one another I can sense the tension. I shake my head and begin to walk to my truck. Hunter’s hand grabs me.
“Don’t touch me.” I yank my arm from his grasp.
“Just listen-” I feel faint. The slight pain in my head suddenly turns unbearable. My ears begin to ring, my knees get weak. I was about to pass out. My vision went first. I could only hear what was going on around me.
I could hear their voices. The wolf’s voice was deeper and more hoarse. While Hunter’s voice was richer.
“I told you not to approach him. I told you he’s mine.” Hunter growled.
“And I told you to suck it. I don’t care if you own the pack. I don’t care about anything other than a mate. I’ve said this from a young age. And at the end of the day it’s not up to you. It’s up to him to decide.” The wolf was calm when he spoke.
“I will make him mine. I won’t stop at anything. I don’t care what it costs.” Hunter’s voice was getting louder. You could tell he was upset. I tried to wake myself up. I was frozen, it seemed like my body was heavier than a ton of bricks.
“He should have a choice. What if he doesn’t want you? He has his own decisions. You can’t force a relationship, especially if he doesn’t want one.” The voice spoke. I couldn’t help the tug on my heart strings.
“You’re just saying that because you know what your fate will be. He will be my mate not yours.” There was a loud slam.
After what felt like an eternity my eyes finally peeled open. I was on the couch. I tried to sit up but started to feel faint again. The wolf carefully helps me sit up. I lean on him for support as I slowly come back to reality.
“I got you some ginger ale. You need a little bit of sugar in your system.” He spoke.
He brought the glass to my lips. “Slowly.” His voice brought me comfort. He wrapped his arm around me. The bubbles burned. I drank more as my world started to turn properly.
I can’t help but feel a little overwhelmed. The room was quiet before he spoke first.
“I’m really sorry. I didn’t want to tell you like this. I’m so sorry. I just-” He pulled away from me. I tried to speak but nothing came out. I took another sip of the drink. Finally I found the words
“Can you please explain the whole situation from the beginning?” He sighed but nodded.
“My parents were only supposed to have one child. It wasn’t long until they learned something was wrong. They found out that there were two children not one. When they learned about this they went to an oracle. It was here the oracle predicted the future. One child would be destined to be with a great light, while the other would become a dark corrupt power. They would cause great harm. We were both destined to have the same mate, and it was the one mate who would decide this fate. One of us was going to be loved by all, the other would be resented by all but one. From a young age we were raised differently. Our parents raised us on those ideals. My brother showed promise so he was groomed to be the Supreme Alpha. I was not." His voice faltered at the end.
“So why am I involved?”
“Well- have you ever heard of fated mates?”
“No- I mean kind of.” He chuckled when he heard my response.
“There was the moon goddess and her twin the sun god. The sun god lived a life of partying. He often pushed his obligations off to his sister. Although she wasn’t happy with it, she never said anything. She would simply do the tasks. She had always been shy and never been great with people. She was alright with this, all of her followers were animals. The night time animals worshiped her and would even sacrifice themselves for her. As time grew the animals' loyalty never faltered, they trusted their goddess. It was the humans who began to falter in loyalty. So the sun god decided to turn her most loyal followers into humans. He changed the wolves to humans but since they were tied to the goddess Their loyalty still belonged to the moon goddess. What the sun god didn’t realize is they were animals by nature. The wolves he turned to humans began killing all of the sun gods followers. When the moon goddess realized her brother's mistake. She tried to change them back but it was only temporary. She then had to think of a way they wouldn’t kill the humans that followed her brother so she tied their souls. For every moon follower they were destined to be with a sun follower for eternity. Even after death the souls will find one another, even in their next life.”
“I don’t understand how that has anything to do with this situation.”
“Well, do you know how I brought up the idea of souls?”I nodded. “Well my brother and I are essentially one soul that has been split into two. We are destined to have the same mate. We believe that mate is you. It’s a lot to take in and I know it’s a lot to ask but- Please give me a chance. I know I'm not worth it, but I would like to be friends with you." I couldn't help but stare at him. He had asked so little. Just to be friends while his brother asked for the world. "I'm sorry- I shouldn't have-"
"No. It’s alright. I guess no one has ever asked to be my friend before. It's new. I don't know." When I looked at him he looked sad. It actually kind of hurt my heart. I sigh.
"Ok." The look on his face. He hugged me. I couldn’t help the smile that spread across my face. I allowed my nose to nuzzle into his neck as I smelled his scent. For some reason it did bring me comfort. I enjoyed the warmth his arms brought me. I pulled away.
As soon as I pull away I feel a little cold. I shake the feeling away and look at him. Even though I look at him there’s a part of him that is so different.
“When you say you weren’t trained to be alpha what does that mean?”He looked away from me.
“It’s something I would rather not talk about.” You could see the hurt in his eyes. When he spoke it was almost as if he was either afraid or ashamed. The room fell silent once again. I couldn’t help but wonder. What would cause him to react like that? Why would his parents treat their own children differently?
He cleared his throat. “Did you want some dinner? It’s getting kind of late and I think you need more substance in your system. Before you say no, I’m not letting you leave until you eat something.” I groaned.
“I’m not really hungry though.”
“Ok then what room do you want to sleep in?”
“What?”
“I told you. You will not leave until you have something to eat. I know it may seem mean, but it’s for your own good. You just blacked out and your body is struggling. Just please let me cook you something to eat real quick.” The way his voice changed so quickly I couldn’t help but agree with his request. He went from the voice of an alpha to the soft spoken tone of an omega. He got up and left the room.
I don’t know how someone can be so kind yet have a slight dark side. I feel like I can trust him. I don’t know why.
He had opened up. I don’t know if I believe what he’s saying. It doesn’t sound real to me. Even when gram and gramps tried to explain the idea of fated mates to me I didn’t believe it. I don’t know. The idea that for all eternity you’re stuck with one person. That just doesn’t seem real to me.
Maybe it’s because I haven’t experienced it for myself. I lay my head down on the couch. I don’t know why I struggle so much. Maybe if I did give it a chance. With every type of happiness there has to be some sorrow. SHould I open up and allow myself to try and develop romantic feelings?
There’s a part of me that just wants to close myself off from the world. If there was such a thing as destiny why would I be destined to be with someone? WOuldn’t it be better if I was destined to be alone, so I don’t bring anyone down to my level?
When I look at my life from afar I have no redeeming qualities. I’m an omega who was abandoned by their own parents. I have no money to my name. I have a pack who wishes I was dead. No one around me wants me around because I bring bad luck wherever I go.
I have no friends. Well- actually I have one friend now. I can’t help but feel the slight warmth in my chest. I’ve never been able to say something like that. Even as a kid, no one wanted to be around me.
It had bothered me my whole life. Then there was a point where the emotion plateaued. I didn’t feel happy or sad, just numb. I had become used to it.
I think there’s a piece of me that’s afraid to let someone in. What if I get too attached? Will I be able to accept when he leaves?
When he leaves.
The thought hadn’t occurred to me. The brothers were only visiting. They weren’t from around here. It was temporary. This whole idea was a fleeing one. They would be gone by the end of the month at the longest length of time. That’s if they stretch their negotiations with my pack.
I sit up on the couch.
The more I allow them to enter. The worse it will be when they leave. I can’t let them into my life.
I forgot people I grow attached to always leave. When they leave all I’m left with is crippling loneliness. I need to keep myself blocked off. Just like how it was before. If I keep myself closed off I don’t feel pain.
Finally the wolf comes back out holding a small cup. Steam pours out the top and he comes closer. I grab the cup and look at him.
“It’s soup. A little meat and veggies will do you good. I was already making this, figured it was perfect.” He smiled at me.
I couldn’t help the butterflies that flew inside my gut. The way he smiled at me I couldn’t stop the attraction I felt towards him. I wish it was different. I wish I didn’t feel anything, but he was so nice and it was hard not to feel something.
Steam rises out of the soup. I stare at it. I can’t remember the last time I had a home cooked meal. When I eat I only eat diner food and leftovers from the bakery.
“Hey why are you crying?”I felt my face and felt the tears. I had started to cry and didn’t even realize it.
“I’m sorry.” I set the cup on the table and tried to quickly wipe the tears. He had already noticed but here was a part of me that was still trying to hide the fact.
He pulled me into his arms. I tried to pull away but his grip tightened as he held me close. “Talk to me. I’m here for you.”
“No you’re not! You’re only here for now! You’re gonna leave me just like everyone else!” I continued to fight and tried to pull away.
“Look at me.” I refused. “Goddammit, look at me!”I looked. “I will not leave you. Never.”
“But you’re an alpha for a different pack and you don’t live here, you-”
“You are my only reason for living. You are my purpose. Even if it’s just as a friend I’m always going to be by your side. I’m not the alpha, he is. I will stay here with you. Okay?” I nodded. I felt better. He still held me in his arms. I allowed myself to breathe in his scent. Even though he and his brother seemed identical in scent they were slightly different. The wolf smelled more like the forest. His scent brought me more comfort.
He pulled away just for a moment and passed me the soup. There was no longer steam rising from the top, but it was still warm. He kept an arm around me as I ate. His presence was comforting.
When I finished I was full, but the weight of everything finally had an effect on me. I leaned my head into the crook of his neck.
He lifted me up in his arms. I wanted to trust him. I shut my eyes. I’m going to try. I’m going to allow myself to trust someone. He’s given me everything I could ask for, and no reason not to trust him. He promised he would stay with me.
I won’t be alone anymore.
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