“Todd will be back in an hour. May I sit here until then?”

Kody had to make himself watch as Phillip signed; eyes dull and expression blank as he nodded despite his want not to. They talked about this, the three of them; it was more than okay to have his alone time but if he was feeling particularly grey that day they were allowed to ask to stay.

Then, in turn, he would let them.

It was a good compromise. A safe decision that left Kody feeling more good about himself than bad.

Just knowing that either Philip or Todd were there; were willing to be there for him. Wasting their time when they could be somewhere else or loving on each other. But no, they chose to sit with him and, after he got over the guilt, he always found that fact comforting.

The dark room was only lit by a single softly glowing lamp in the corner, the rest of the room cut off from light by the heavy blackout curtains. Todd and Phillip had made the change to their room eagerly once Kody had worked up the courage to tell them about his headaches; about the slight paranoia he had developed and mental depression that sometimes hit him so hard he had to fight to breathe.

They were… amazing. Understanding and oh so perceptive to their newest lover’s needs; and absolutely willing to accommodate them.

Kody fell asleep watching Phillip, eyes drooping lower and lower until all he could focus on was the feeling of Phillip’s hand in his; the texture of his fingers against his palm and the comfort his presence brought.

He woke in the same position about two hours later, a hand still holding his and an ever-present figure sitting comfortably in the chair beside him. It was Todd now.

Todd smiled fondly when he saw Kody was awake, leaning forward to brush a few strands of hair from Kody’s face that had shifted while he slept. Todd and Phillip’s hands were always warm, always safe and comforting.

“Hungry?”

Kody almost had the thought to laugh.

Todd was always trying to not-so-subtly feed him; prompting for Kody to take banana chips or feeding him cubes of cheese -Kody was rather fond of cheddar- whenever he could.

Phillip didn’t really ask, opting to just leave a small plate or bowl of apples in front of Kody’s face with a ‘that’s for you and you’re eating it’ look.

Kody appreciated the sentiment of both, and both tactics worked equally as well on him.

Tomorrow will be better.

Kody thought to himself, remembering what his therapist and he had talked about. She had said that ‘forced optimism’ didn’t work for everyone but if it worked for him to do it. He understood that and it did work for him sometimes but if it didn’t he knew he always had Phillip and Todd to fall back on.

He didn’t know what he would do without them.

He honestly couldn’t even fathom how he had gotten through life before his two angels had appeared to him three years ago.

“O. K.”

Todd grinned happily, turning to holler out at Phillip. Kody watched his mouth out of habit, not really putting any effort into figuring out what he was saying.

Phillip came in with a cup of tea and a blueberry muffin a few moments later, setting the tea on the nightstand coaster before leaning down to press a kiss to Kody’s forehead and setting the plate on the bed.

“Made this morning.”

Kody sighed, nodding at Phillip's words before using the blankets to make a cozy cocoon around him as he sat up and reached to slowly pick the muffin apart, discarding the wrapper on the plate as he brought chunks of the sweet cake up and into his mouth; blushing a little as he looked up and saw both Todd and Phillip staring fondly at him.

He still wasn’t used to all the attention.

“Good?”

Phillip signed, nodded down to the deconstructed muffin and taking a seat in Todd’s lap, smirking to himself as the smaller man underneath let out a groan and flailed a bit.

Kody nodded, feeling the very beginnings of a smile pull at the edges of his lips as he swallowed the last of the muffin. He felt a little better now, headache having dulled since the ibuprofen had kicked in and the nap had soothed some of his nerves.

“Movie?”

With a simple nod of his head Kody was whisked up -blanket burrito and all- and ushered into the living room where a full-blown pillow fort and bowls of all his favorite snacks awaited.

He had to smile, they knew him so well.

“...thank you.”

They both grinned so widely at him, a kiss landing on both of his cheeks as he was settled into the middle of the nest and his boyfriends slid in on either side of him.

The snacks were passed around and Kody got crumbs down his shirt as the movie went on; Phillip fell asleep against the couch and Todd had already gotten practically naked as he laid on his stomach in front of them since he was ‘too hot underneath all the pillows and blankets’.

Kody was feeling better. He knew it was probably a temporary thing but he felt so grateful to his devoted, loving men.

Because they made him happy.

They took the time to pamper and cherish and spoil him until he forgot to worry sometimes.

They all fell asleep in the hours that followed, television screen going dark from idling as the strings of twinkle lights lit the expertly built fort with warm, non-intrusive light.

Kody woke up first, slightly groggy and surprisingly calm as he blinked and looked around.

They were all squished on the couch, Todd being sandwiched between them despite the complaints of him being ‘too hot’. They were both still asleep, clutching the one thin blanket that covered them all as Phillip snored softly.

Kody had felt his chest vibrate sometimes as he slept, the even in and out of his breaths not enough to explain the feeling so it had to be snoring.

Kody grinned mischievously, working himself into a sitting position as smoothly as he could without accidentally pushing Todd and ultimately Phillip off the couch. Then he set to working Phillip’s sweatpants down to his thighs, doing the same with Todd’s gym shorts before he slowly straddled the both of them.

Using both hands he gripped their shafts, already excited -when depressed and horny it’s always nice to know you can fix one- as he anticipated their reactions. He loved when he could get them hard himself; watch as they became more and more unhinged just from what he did.

An easy stretch to the end table provided him with the bottle of lube he needed, the familiar feel of the plastic cap popping open causing Kody’s pulse to spike.

A generous amount was drizzled into his palm before he rubbed his hands together and went back to work, eager and excited for what would happen when they both woke up.

Phillip moaned softly, eyes fluttering sleepily as his leg twitched; another groan leaving his lips as the sweet feeling of pleasure registered in his mind. Todd was very much in the same situation, albeit a bit more vocal with his pleasure as his hands came up to sign.

“What are you doing, love?”

Kody raised a brow, giving a hard tug to each of their shafts pointedly.

Phillip grunted and Todd shivered, lifting his hips and smirking when he saw Kody sitting atop both of their legs. He had rid himself of his clothes and was perched like a king as he sat over them, controlling their pleasure with that devious little smile on his face.

Phillip was the first to act, sitting up and pulling Kody into a deep kiss that made his hands falter in their rhythm; Todd following after him and attaching himself to Kody’s neck so he could add to the collection of little marks and bruises already there.

Kody’s lips parted on a silent moan, head tilting back and mouth yielding easily to Phillips as his fingers twirled their way through Todd’s hair; he didn’t think about the lube being smeared into his hair, Kody knew that Todd liked when they got dirty anyway.

Words didn’t need to be said as the two older males undressed fully, Phillip more than Todd since the latter was already there without prior prompting.

Then they were back on Kody, Todd claiming his lips for himself this time as Phillip lubed his fingers and slid them smoothly inside of Kody; curling his fingers and hitting the smaller man’s spot with practiced ease. Regardless, Kody always shuddered and whimpered when touched; trembled and shook like the pleasure was too much for him to handle.

Phillip loved that about him; loved the way that it was almost like the first time every time, only sweeter since both he and Todd now knew where Kody liked it best. How he liked to be touched and how rough he liked to be handled.

It was almost like a dance how smoothly the three of them came together, the way they worked in harmony so each of their pleasures were matched in passion and heat.

“Go ahead, Sweet.”

Todd spoke to Phillip, giving a playful smirk as he tweaked Kody’s nipples between his fingers and caused the male to gasp and arch upward; the same way he always reacted.

“He’s adorable as always, isn’t he?”

Phillip hummed his agreement, leaning over to kiss Todd languidly as he grasped Kody’s hips and slowly slid in, a flare of heat lighting in his stomach as the lube squelched obscenely between them. Kody writhed and moaned helplessly, voice soft and quiet but still drowning in pleasure as he scrambled for Todd to ground him.

Todd answered his silent plea easily and pressed another passionate kiss to his lips, opening his eyes when Kody tapped him urgently.

He watched Kody’s hands, attentive and curious as to what he wanted to say.

“Both. In me.”

Phillip chuckled, giving a particularly hard thrust that sent Kody into another desperate arch that made Todd give Phillip a look; not at all peeved but still fussing at him nonetheless.

“Let him speak, you beast.”

Phillip just grinned, passing the lube over and parting Kody’s legs a little more so he could thrust in deeper; smoothing his hands over Kody’s skin and silky thighs before he lifted him up and turned to sit so Kody was on top of him.

Todd stood and got behind, wrapping Kody in his arms and entwining his fingers with Phillips as they all held each other; guiding his lubed shaft next to Phillip before he whispered ‘I love you’ against Kody’s lips and gently, slowly slid in.

They all gasped and groaned at the feeling of being filled and being sucked in; Kody breathing heavily and struggling to keep his eyes open as he felt himself being stretched to his limits.

He loved it though, loved the way his breath was stolen as both of his men filled him up to the absolute brim.

They were familiar with this scenario, each sharing kisses and tender words that meant the world even if some went unheard. They had found themselves in this exact same position last night; the three of them entwined in a passionate embrace as they grabbed and called for each other.

Their voices rose together as Kody gasped and threw his head back, holding Phillip’s head against his chest where he was sucking on his nipples and pulling Todd into a furious kiss as his release hit him so hard it made his vision blur.

He called both their names on a silent breath, not even at the end of his ecstasy as Phillip and Todd released inside of him; one right after the other.

He shivered at the feeling, clenching down around them as his fingers twitched and his body went lax.

“Shower or bath do you think, love?”

Phillip asked softly once they had all come back, peppering feather-light kisses along Kody’s face and then to Todds; completely content and happy.

“Bath? I think he’d enjoy a nice long soak.”

They both hummed thoughtfully, looking down at the comatose figure laying boneless against them; eyes lidded and heavy as he mewled with contentment every so often.

How did they survive before with having Kody to pamper?

Phillip and Todd’s love for each other took root long before meeting Kody, but now that he was here they were so glad that they were granted the opportunity to share their love. To be able to have the chance to experience the miracle that was Kody himself. Phillip, Todd, and Kody, no one could dispute that they weren’t absolutely fantastic together; almost as if they were handcrafted for one another.

“...I… I love you.”

Both Todd and Phillip smiled, swept away on a wave of love and fondness as Kody lifted his head to smile at them sleepily.

“I love you more.”

“I love you most.”

"But I loved you both first."