***Hm so there’s no sexy fun times in this but there’s a lot of sex talk so…yeah. just so ya know <3***

Chapter 12

That moment when…

you have to call your best friend’s little brother to ask him how to have gay sex

-Xabien-

“Please can we not do this in here though, my mum and sister will absolutely hear us and that just- no,” Rat says with a laugh, and I nod hurriedly. “That’s the problem with having an old mansion - there’s no soundproofing like some packs have. We can go to my room, it’s on the top floor so fairly away from people, as it’s only my room and a bathroom up there,” I explain, my heart feeling like it wants to burst from my chest.

I can’t believe he actually agreed to be my mate.

Rat tilts my face towards him, kissing me again softly. “Let’s go, because there’s no way I’m waiting on my own thinking of all the things you’re going to do to me,” he says with a smirk, and I feel my face heating up.

Suddenly, I freeze, one massive fact occurring to me. “I um, I’m not a virgin, by the way- there was this one time, when I was a teen, and I sort of…had this fling with this girl. But um, she found her mate a little while after that and left the pack,” I explain, feeling slightly awkward about admitting this.

Rat nods, stroking my cheek. “I literally had no time to do anything, so I am a virgin. I also have literally no idea how two guys have sex, by the way,” he confirms, and I groan. “Me neither.”

We stare at each other, before bursting out laughing. “Oh no…maybe we can ask Caro and Myles?” He suggests, and I shake my head. “Caro is asexual, and although he knows how it technically works, I’m worried that would trigger him. And Myles literally never dated anyone before so I doubt he knows,” I explain, thinking if I know anyone whom would know, and I wouldn’t mind asking.

I mean, it’s embarrassing enough. We could do our own research, but it would take a while because Rat can’t read, and I can only read one thing at once. And I’m pretty sure he’s getting impatient, based on how he can’t sit still.

“What about your best friend? Would he know?” He asks, and I shake my head with a sigh. “No, he’s straight. Oh! His brother isn’t, he’ll tease me forever for asking him, but it’s fine,” I say with a laugh.

“Perfect,” Rat says eagerly, kissing me once more before getting off his bed. “I’m just going to tell my family goodnight, and then let's go to your room ok?” I nod, really hoping that Atticus isn’t busy whenever I call him.

Rat sticks his head back in the door, and we smile at each other for a moment, before I grab his hand and we manoeuvre our way up to my room. He looks around in excitement at the place, then points to the mound of blankets on the end of my bed.

“How do you not overheat?” I shrug, getting my phone out. “I’m a cold person, I need them or I get too cold in the night,” I explain. Rat smirks mischievously, before removing them and putting them on a chair. “Well, I’ll be keeping you plenty warm tonight, I can assure you,” he says with a wiggle of his eyebrows.

Sitting on the bed next to him, I try to ignore the heat in my face. Calling Atticus, I wait anxiously, wondering how to ask the question. In the end, I decide to just say it immediately as soon as the call goes through.

Like that couldn’t go wrong in so many ways.

The call connects. It’s go time. “Hey Atticus, how does gay sex work?” I know I could’ve handled that way better, purely from how Rat is cackling. And then I realise I definitely could’ve handled it better when the voice that answers isn’t Atticus at all.

“Um, hey Xabien. Atticus is taking a shower, do you want me to uh, help you with your um, question instead?”

I face palm even harder whilst Rat continues to cackle. “Um, I know it’s a very sudden and weird question, but uh…” I fade off, wondering how I tell him we didn’t want to do research because we just want to fuck already.

Well, I’m definitely not telling him that.

“Hey it’s chill, I uh, I get that uh, it’s something you’d want to know? Oh hey Atti, yeah I’m just talking to Xabien, you should hear what he asked me,” he says with a laugh and I cringe even harder.

“Oh hey Xabien! Don’t worry, whatever this mystery question is, I’ll make sure to keep it between you, me and Blake,” Atticus says with a laugh, before Blake says something quietly and Atticus howls with laughter.

“I take it back, maybe I should tell Ceyden, he’d find that fucking hilarious,” he says, and I begin to realise I really called the wrong person.

“Just tell me how it works please,” I say, defeated. Atticus and Blake laugh again, before Atticus says “I’m surprised though, I’m not judging but I thought you were like, saving yourself for whenever you found your mate.”

I clear my throat, smiling as Rat leans his head on my shoulder. “Hm, well I was, and now I don’t have to ‘save myself’ anymore,” I says nonchalantly as I wait for the inevitable scream Atticus will do. It doesn’t disappoint, and I only go deaf for a few seconds.

“I can’t even- holy shit! You actually found- oh my God, welcome to the gay side,” Atticus says with a friendly laugh, and I run a hand through my hair, glad that his reaction was as positive as I expected.

“Ok ok, I’ll fill you in on how it works- Blake stop snickering like that, some of us have the gay awakening later than others, at least Xabien didn’t have a sex dream about a guy the day they met,” he says with a laugh and even I laugh a little; this story is how Atticus introduced his mate to me the first time; ‘oh hey yeah this is my mate, yeah he’s actually technically a human and also the first day we met, he had a sex dream about me.’

I try not to blush too much as Atticus explains the process, occasionally laughing awkwardly with Blake. “Thank you, you were um, very helpful,” I tell them at the end, my face a fascinating shade of red.

“Haha no problem, put the knowledge to good use,” Atticus says and I swear I can hear the smirk in his voice. Rat slips the phone from my hand, gently saying “oh yes, I’m sure we will,” into it, and smirking at me as I blush even more.

“Oh my God oh my God is that him?! What’s his name?!” Atticus squeals, and I can imagine him jumping up and down. Rat settles his head down on my shoulder again, passing the phone back to me.

“Uh, his name is Horatio…you’re coming to the meeting in a few weeks, right? Maybe you’ll meet then,” I say as a strategic way to make sure Atticus and Blake show up. They normally do, but I know Blake isn’t a fan of all the looks he gets for being a human. Mostly human. When he and Atticus mated, he changed a little bit, but he still is practically human, he just experiences the mate bond the same way as werewolves do.

Chatting with Atticus and Blake for a few more minutes, we finally hang up, suddenly feeling very awkward. “So, the one thing I do know, that will be different from what they told us, is um, about uh, lubrication,” I say with a ton of embarrassment.

To my relief, Rat nods, so I’m guessing he must have had some basic werewolf-on-werewolf sex ed at some point in his life. When two werewolves make love, the more submissive one- in this case, Rat, because I’m an alpha, so just…yeah…anyway, the less dominant one will secrete a liquid…I cover my face with my hands just from the embarrassment of thinking about it.

“Cool, so we can just dive right in then?” Rat asks and I choke at his wording. “Please never say that again,” I say with a laugh as he pecks my lips gently. “Agreed, I have plenty of other ways to tease you anyway,” he says mischievously and I roll my eyes, kissing him softly again, before nipping at his bottom lip with a smirk.