The day of the delegation came. Anakin got in the cab and waved at his kids and mother. They waved back as the cab started driving. Anakin was supposed to pick Y/n up, so he gave his adress to the driver. Not too long after that they arrived at the gate. Behind it Anakin saw a beautiful house, almost like a mansion. For a moment he thought the adress was wrong. He called Y/n.

-Hey. - he said in a sleepy voice.

-I'm at your gate. - said Anakin. Y/n groaned.

-I'll be out in five. - muttered Y/n and ended the call. Few minutes later he saw Y/n carrying a suitcase. He put it in the trunk of the cab and got in. - Hi. - he said.

-To the airport please. - Anakin said to the driver. - How are you feeling? - he asked turning his attention to Y/n.

-I want to run away. - answered Y/n. He looked nervous and scared. Anakin wanted to hug him and comfort him, but he resisted the feeling.

-We'll be fine. - he said instead. - I promise.

Y/n didn't say anything about it, he just huffed. Anakin knew that reaction, Y/n didn't have his morning coffee yet. And again he noticed how he remembered all those small things about Y/n.

They arrived at the airport. Y/n swallowed the lump in his throat as he got out of the cab. Anakin and Y/n got their suitcases and paid for the cab. Then they made their way to the departure terminal. After the document check and the luggage disposal they went to the gate for their flight. They waited around half an hour before the gate was opened. Anakin could see that Y/n was doing all he could to compose himself as they got on board of the plane. Y/n sat down and took a deep breath as he put the seatbelt on.

-It will be alright, you'll see. - said Anakin, trying to calm him down, though he could imagine that words didn't mean much in moments like that.

Y/n gripped the armrests as the plane started the run up. When it took of, he did all he could to seem calm, but Anakin could see through it. He put his hand on Y/n's forearm and squeezed it a bit. Y/n looked at Anakin, who smiled lightly, trying to assure him that they will both be fine. When the plane finished the start procedure, the stewardesses started serving drinks. Anakin ordered two coffes for him and Y/n. Y/n on the other hand took out the portable console and started playing some game to take his mind off of the situation he was in. Anakin relaxed when he saw that Y/n got better.

-Here. - said Anakin as he handed Y/n his coffee.

-Thanks. - nodded Y/n, taking a shaky breath.

Time skip

Anakin and Y/n arrived to Amsterdam airport. Y/n was more than delighted to get out of the plane and feel solid ground under his feet. They picked their luggage up and made their way out of the airport. They found a free cab and got the hotel they were supposed to stay in. It wasn't too far. Around ten minutes later they were in front of the fancy building. They went in and headed to the desk. They checked in and went to their room. Y/n opeed the door, then both of them paled.

-There's only one bed. - said Y/n. Anakin nodded. There was no couch or any other place where one of them could sleep.

-I'll rebook the room. - said Anakin and went back to the reception, just to come back few minuted later. - They don't have any other rooms.

-Whatever. - said Y/n. - and slupmed on the bed. - I'm not going to make a fuss over such a trival thing, I'm tired.

-So you don't mind sleeping with a man in one bed? - asked Anakin setting his suitcase on the other side of the bed.

-I don't. - said Y/n.- It wouldn't be the first time anyway. - this time Y/n looked at Anakin, observing his reaction.

-What do you mean? - asked Anakin.

-I'm gay. - said Y/n.

Anakin widened his eyes and looked at Y/n. He felt a rush of mixed emotions. Y/n was gay, so Anakin had bigger chances with him than he thought. But then he remembered that he didn't want a relationship.

-And I will tell you even bigger news. - added Y/n after a moment of silence. He got up from the bed and walked up to Anakin. - I have a crush on you.

-I...- Anakin started, but the closure of Y/n made his body work on it's own. He pulled Y/n closer and slammed their lips together. Y/n kissed back immediately. They kissed passionately, Anakin was so hungry for affection that he couldn't pull away. But he did.

-Y/n, stop. - said Anakin, lightly pushing him away. - We can't.

-Why? - asked Y/n.

-I'm not ready for a relationship. - said Anakin. - You know I have borderline, I will hurt you. I will be clingy, jealous I will drive you insane with my insecurities. I won't survive if I would lose another love in my life. The kids will be suffering too, I can't do it to them. So we can't, it will bring only pain to all of us.

-Ani. - said Y/n, making Anakin's breath hitch. It sounded amazing to hear this nickname from Y/n. - I understand.

-Really? - asked Anakin surprised.

-Yes. - nodded Y/n. - I can't force you. Just remember that if you have any problems, or need help with the kids, just tell me. I'm here for you. - he said caressing Anakin's cheek.

-Y/n. - Anakin scolded him lightly.

-I know. - sighed Y/n and stepped away from Anakin.