EARTH'S POV
He didn't believe me that I was joking. Ofcourse he would not. If I were him I wouldn't believe me either. He just closed the door behind himself and stood in front of my door. I knew because I could hear them talking. Leila asked him if he was ok and he said yes and then went to sleep without eating anything. It was went beyond my purpose. I just wanted to tease him about our 'secret' but it turned as a threatening. He was living in a fear now. Ahh stupid Earth... I needed to convince him that I was not a nightmare. What could I do? I needed to think about it. I cannot move easily so I needed to wait him to come in this room. I tried to sleep with this remorse.
Next morning I woke up with an urgency to go to the bathroom. I tried to stand up with my crutches. I couldn't call him everytime I needed to pee, right? Hardly I reached to the bathroom and closed the door. When I finished my job there I opened the door and saw Arus at my door with a breakfast tray in his hands. His eyes were tired and unhappy. Bags under his eyes were screaming that he didn't sleep at all last night. I felt sorry for what I did one more time.
"So...I see you don't need me anymore to move, right? I am glad to see that I don't need to be here to hold your dick every time you need to pee." He sad with a cold voice.
"Look Arus. I'm sorry. Please believe me that I am not going to tell her anything. I was just teasing you and it went beyond it. I am really really sorry. I promise I will not tell her anything." I whispered him because the door was opened and she could hear us.
"I don't believe you Earth. I don't know you and I cannot trust you on this issue. I couldn't sleep and thought about it during the night. I cannot leave my fate to your hands and wait for my end. I've never been the person who wait someone to decide for my fate or life. I will talk to her and confess her what I did." He didn't whisper. The look on his eyes were dark.
I could feel my blood was drained from my face. I couldn't stood on my feet and tried to reach my bed. I needed to sit somewhere otherwise I could fall to the floor.
"No no no no please don't do that. Oh my god what I did? Arus please believe me. I am just a stupid poor boy. I will not make any harm to you or your marriage. I can do anything to make you believe me. Please Arus..." I was begging him now and his eyes didn't change a bit.
"There is no need to whisper, Leila is not home now. Eat your breakfast Earth. And then take your pills. Leave the tray on the carpet when you finished." He said and then left the room.
Nice...Very nice Earth. It was not a surprise that Sam cheated on you. Who would wanted to be with a stupid as you? You screwed up everything. I didn't know what I did to Sam to deserve to be cheated on but... He didn't even try to call me yet. Did I love him? I was not sure but it was not an empty two years. We were good together. Had fun, laughed, fought, made love to each other. He told me that he loved me. He was GAY!! How come he could cheated on me with a woman? It was not the time to tought my own problems. I needed to prevent him to confess Leila everything. I put the tray on the carpet before I took my pills and grabbed my crutches. It was really hard to walk with them. I reached the door and opened it. Before I got out I peeked the house to see if one of them is there. There was no one. I dragged myself to their bedroom slowly. The door was not closed so I could just pushed it a little bit to see if Arus was there. And saw him at his closet. He was topless and his body was... really really good. Some little unnecessary butterflies took off in my stomach and made some aerobatics in it before they landed again. Oh shit...
"Oh good. What now? Stalking? What was that stare for?" he asked angryly and I woke up.
"Oh sorry. I was just...I wanted to talk to you. The door was not closed so..." Ah Earth please pull yourself together I said to myself.
"Yeah sure...Look I need to go somewhere and I am in a hurry. Please leave me alone so I can change my clothes. Ok?" he said while turning his back to me. His back...Really broad shoulders and strong back. Oh my god what was I thinking now? What kind of pervert was I? I was not horny but...The memories of that night with him and now his half naked body effected me very badly. I could remember he was rough, hungry and wild. I was so exhausted after sex to make a conversation and only looked at his face to remember before I fall asleep.
"You are still here and staring at me. Did you like what you see or what?"
"Arus please let me explain myself. I am not that 'bad boy' kind of person. It was a bad joke. Terrible joke. Please just believe me and don't confess her anything. If you want I can leave your house today. I don't want to be the reason of your seperation."
He sighed while putting on his shirt and looked at me with tired eyes of him. I could see he was thinking.
"It's not easy to trust you Earth. Like what I said, I cannot leave my fate on your hand. I cannot live with doubts. What if he would told her, what if he is a liar, what if... what if... This is a nightmare."
"I know I scared you. I don't know what I did think while doing this but you cannot leave your wife just because of a bad joke, right?"
"Yeah you're right Earth. Anyway..." he looked around and found his wallet and took it. "I need to go now. Leila will be home soon. If you need something tell me now or just go to your room please."
All of the stress I put myself in made me sick. I turned to leave his room but felt dizzy and my knees were weak. He caught me before I fell on floor. I was fainting and last thing I remember before my eyes closed that I put my hand on his chest and felt it slip till his stomach by carressing his chest unconsciously.
I woke up and found myself on my bed. It was dark now and I didn't know how much I slept.
"You're up. How do you feel now?" Leila asked after opened my door with a tray in her hands.
"Yeah better thank you. I don't know what happened to me." I said.
"Arus told me that you took your pills with empty stomach and I should say it is not a good move Earth. You should be more clever than this. You need to eat very well before taking your pills. You know that right?"
"Yes I am sorry Leila. Making troubles for you. I was just not in the mood to eat something." I said honestly. I was embarrassed because I lust after her husband.
"Ok then. Now eat all of these and take your pills AFTER your meal is finished. Ok darling?"
"Yeah thank you. I will eat all of them promise." I said with a shy smile. I was pampered by her and definitely not deserved. This tought made my cheeks blushed.
"Aww you are so cute Earth. Recover quick and tell me the story with your ex, ok?" She said while smiling at me as if she was my sister. I was a terrible person.
I ate my meal and took my pills before I felt asleep again.
At the midnight I woke up and was thirsty as if I was on a desert. I grabbed my crutches again to drag myself to the kitchen. I still couldn't got used to that crutches and it was hard to walk with them. I tried my best to not make any noise. I reached to the kitchen and put some water in a glass. While drinking the water I paused. There was some noises coming through their room. Were they fighting? Oh my god did he confess her everything? What if he did? I felt the sweat forming on my whole body. I dragged myself to their door slowly. I froze at the door. Noises were their voices, moanings and groans... They were having sex. I felt relieved before I felt...jealousy.
It was not right to fell like that. I had no rights to feel jealousy. But I felt. All I could do was dragging myself to my bedroom and collapse on the bed. I must have put my feelings in order and found a way to leave this house immediately. I could not let myself to feel this anymore.
Butterflies in my stomach were now clashing between themselves. To death.
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