Ok so maybe I can't start my story from the end to the beginning but hey, can't blame me for trying right?...
I was living with my parents, going to school which was a few blocks away since I lived on a big hill and I was 16. This is how it all started...
" Are you sure about this mom?"
" of course I am sweetie you look lovely in those slack jeans, like a real stunner"
" mom, no one says, stunner, anymore,"
she chuckles while walking out my room whilst I continue to look at myself through the mirror, this is not me, I think to myself. I go into my walk-in closet and head to the very back where I hid all my good clothes I bought with all the savings I put aside. Call it birthday money if you will, my grandma is the only one who hands me all the twenty dollar bills which I thank her for since she basically paid off all my clothes, the rest of my family hands me presents which by the way, aren’t even worth looking at, I mean don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful and all but if you saw what they gave me, sheesh...
I grabbed my favorite pair of jeans and my crop top sweater and hid them in my bag as I walked back to my full length mirror, staring at myself. Today will be different, I kept telling myself...
Everyone at school hated me for being gay. Yup that's right I finally had the courage to show who I really was, too bad it was at the school where everyone was homophobic.
The only people who actually treated me like an actual fucking human being, were my besties, Bonnie and Beth, my two favorite people in the world, they knew about my sexuality and it didn't matter to them, they still loved me for who I am, and I'm forever grateful for having them as my friends.
" son, you will be late for school"
" I'm coming mom,"
I grabbed my bag and headed downstairs, I quickly waved goodbye to my mom as I left...
Ya see, there's two ways I can go to school, through the forest, or down the sidewalk, usually I'd take the sidewalk path since it's more of a shorter walk, but I've gotten used to the forest now. When I was 9 or 10 I was shit scared of the forest, and I'm not talking about the, oh I can't sleep at night scared.
I’m talking about waking up around two in the morning going out into the forest with a flashlight and exploring, I have a lot of bruises from those adventures, since it was really dark and I could barely see shit, but it was worth it cause I found this amazing spot that's all mine now, it’s like a thinking spot for me, with a perfect rock to sit on and listen to my music.
No one knows about it, everyone just thinks there's monsters or some other shit in the forest but the truth is. Beauty comes from the forest, and the forest is beauty itself.
I reach my destination where I see my thinking rock and hide behind it, squatting lower into the grass as I change out of my mom's choice of clothing and put on the clothes I picked out, after changing I take out my phone to see what time it is and realize that I’m going to be late once again. I raced to school with a few short breaths and tired out legs…
“I made it to school,” I said, about to faint on the floor from all the running, I slowly walked to my first period class with my knees buckling and my heart pounding out of my chest. panting down the hallways as I try to make it to my first class.
And right when I had my hand on the door,
Riiiiiinnnnngggggggggg!!!
" ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!” I yelled out loud as some people stared at me weirdly while others just kept walking, creating hallway traffic to form freely. Great, just great.
“ Mr. Strivf. Maybe next time instead of yelling out in the hallway such godawful language you will come to my class, on time.” Mr. Burger said, obviously disgusted with my behavior.
“ Yes Mr. Burger, I apologize deeply.” I lied. I regret nothing.
He made this unsatisfied groan and turned back to his board in the room.
Meanwhile I try and squeeze in through many people as I journeyed towards my next class, than all of a sudden I heard a familiar nickname being called,
"Watch it freak!,” Chuck said as he quickly put his leg in the way of where I was about to step my foot on. And just like that I fell straight on the floor, with my bottom hitting the floor hard, I whimpered out and, ow, sound and of course Chuck was laughing after that.
This is Chuck. My own personal tormentor. Chuck is who Chuck wants to be, and if you guessed a fucking bully, than your right.
I picked myself up from the ground and looked him dead in the eyes,
" What freak?,”
He said as he pushed me again. Only this time it wasn't enough force to land my ass on the ground.
" that's not my name Chuck and you know it,"
I said, puffing out my chest a little, though it probably looked like nothing was there since I wasn't as muscular as he was. Though I have to admit with his brown hair and dark brown eyes, and not to mention his whole, black is my color vibe, he was kinda hot, but nevertheless he wasn't mine and I wasn't his, at least not according to me.
" what the fuck did you just say to me?,"
He said, stepping closer toward me, his face inches from mine...
I swear if there weren’t any people around. No no, bad Jason, bad. Although, If it hadn't been for his incredible height or being 6'1, I wouldn’t be looking like the prey he would chew up and spit out.
There was nothing sexual about his facial expressions right now. Though, truth be told I've never spoken up to him like this before, I was always scared of what might happen, but I'm feeling lucky today, so fuck it.
Riiiiiiinnnnnnnnggggggg!!!
Shit that was the class is in session bell, fuck I'm gonna be late again...
I was so focused on Chuck that I didn't even notice everyone was already in their class. The halls were empty, only filled with Chuck and me, just as I was about to run straight to my second class I felt a hand firmly hold my wrist, dragging me into the janitor's closet.
I turned around to see who it was and no surprise, it was Chuck.
I backed up against the wall, away from the door and away from Chuck, while holding my hands out just to make sure I don’t get injured by his punches or any physical abuse he would give me.
" hey baby"
He said as he started getting close to me more until he was a inches away from my lips, whispering into my ear, biting and sucking on it,
" what the hell was all that for in the hallways,"
I said trying to give him less access to me, but he grabbed both my hands with one hand and held them over my head, kissing my ear to my jawline before reaching my mouth, inches away just staring at them before his eyes looked straight into mine, god he was hot.
" baby you know I have to keep up my reputation around here. But just for you I’ll say I apologize,"
" damn right you should be."
I said before my lips were reaching towards his, tasting them, licking them, feeling his tongue surge into my mouth, holding all the power to either break or make me. He stops. Which was probably because he needed air but in this case it wasn’t.
" you know baby, I was thinking and I think it's best if you don't respond back to me when I turn into the jerk you met out in the halls again, it just doesn't look good for my reputation either,"
" So you want me to be an obedient dog for you, what next wear a leash around my neck and be told when to sit and stand.” I said, obviously aggravated. I knew this wasn’t a good choice but still, I could never say no to him.
“Well when you put it that way-,"
" There is no other way to put it Chuck!"
I said trying to break out of his grasp only to get in a tighter lock
" baby you know this isn't easy for me, the reason why I'm bringing it up now is so it doesn't happen again, right baby?,"
He said. His eyes growing with more fire in them, he was turning into the beast I met outside this closet. I didn’t want that. I didn’t want that side of him, so I sighed and nodded showing that I was going to obey him and his every word,
why?,
because I loved him…
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