It felt like i was gonna be falling forever

Theres no end

It was really dark

I woke up in a cold sweat.That was a werid dream but ive been having them ever since then.I havent been to school in 1 month.My rooms a diaster.I just feel so empty.I feel hopeless.Honestley i dont know if i ever want to go back to school,its so stupid.I mean they still havent figured out what happned he just was dead.The image of him replays in my mind everyday.It was so normal till then.My mom has been begging me to come out of my room for weeks.I only get out to get food thats it.I havent messaged any of my freinds in weeks.I havent talked to anyone at all in weeks.I mean Whats the point what if they all die just like he did and theres i can do about it.I dont want to deal with that pain so i distance myself from everyone although its not healthy.I just dont know how to feel or what to do so i sit in my room and just sleep to escape the world out there.

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