As you saw, this book isn't a place where I can endlessly forgive whoever I want. For example, I didn't forgive my relatives. Not because they did something, but rather that they didn't yet. Or for what they have done in the past when I was this the good nice kid. 

I wasn't in the mood to forgive anyone today, but remembering you, I thought it might be the time to finally get my revenge. They say getting revenge is the best you can do. But I say improving yourself and moving on is the best revenge. Prove them wrong. So this is for you, my always competitor. 

Ah, middle school again. This is where it started. I think you were my curse as well as my blessing. As you said with your own mouth, you couldn't stand me before knowing me. Then you got to know me. Then you hated me again. For various reasons. For "stealing" your best friend. And then another best friend. For trying my best at everything. And for being able to make it real. For taking your place.  I don't know if you've been hating me for me, or just for the fact that the teachers had another miracle. I'll take it as I remember.

Everybody knew us as some kind of sisters. But I realize just how fake the whole business has been. Then something changed. We competed for grades and I didn't like being a second place. I started growing apart. But I couldn't do it. I always questioned how could you so effortlessly get good grades, and the other of us had to work hard for them. I even thought about a bribe. For the teachers. But I guess that isn't out of the equation. You put some obstacles before me as well. As wishing bad. As influencing my decisions. As playing with my feeling and acting as a puppet master with my relationship. As turning almost everybody against me.

As I said, wishing someone bad affects both of you. The person who wished, and the person for whom is wished. I just guess it affected you more. In the end, I won. The most important exam for all of us, I crushed you. I made you swallow your pride. I proved you wrong. I proved to you that you can't belittle me.

 I got into a most wanted high school, where I lead a happy life. I focused on improving myself. Getting rid of any negative thoughts. Forgiving everyone. Cutting off toxic people. Learning something new every day. Working hard, so I can make both my mom and my future husband proud. Learning a new, hard language. Taking care of myself. Caring about others. Setting goals. And opening up my mind.

I don't know how you've been doing and I would be lying if I said I was interested, but this is goodbye. I won. The best revenge is improving yourself. And moving on. I think I've improved a lot after that, and I won't stop here  . I'm moving on. With you, this is me letting the past go. With you, I can finally say I can forgive anyone. Not because you deserve forgiveness, but for the peace of my mind. Right now, I am far more important than you for me. I'm going to remember everything. Because you were someone send to taught me the hardships of life. I will remember, as a reason for continuing to improve myself, and for reaching my absolute best. I'm sorry I couldn't surpass your grades. But at least I surpassed you at loving yourself. For it seems to me that you are lacking there. And this is far more priceless for me than any of those grades. This is for you, hardship. I forgive you. I would have said good luck next time, but there won't be one. I'm not letting you in my life ever again. 

Another hard person to forgive. I'm grateful for this little heart of mine for being still so pure. I guess, deep down, it still thinks people are fundamentally good and that they deserve to be forgiven. I felt like another dry leaf just took off. Like a flower. 

I want you to do that as well. Try to forgive the person you couldn't. The one you would avoid while talking about forgiveness. Yes, the one you think about right now. I know it's hard, but it's worth so much more. 

And not to forget the daily exercise. I'm sure that reading made you think about your middle school life. Did you like it? If you did, then say you are grateful for it. Most children can't even go to school. But if you didn't, I think you need to forgive someone. 

If you are going through hell, keep going. You escaped there. But isn't time to forgive yourself for going through that hell? And to congratulate yourself, for being able to get out of that hell? Be grateful. You did well today.