I snuggled my face into his chest to hide myself from all the leering eyes. Palace maids and guards were throwing glances at me as loud gasps escaped from their prattling mouths. Some were even whispering things to each other-too loudly if you ask me.

"Silence! Such rash behavior. Do you want me to chop off all your heads?" emperor Meilin commanded while hugging me more tightly into his arms. Everybody silenced themselves and pleaded the emperor for forgiveness with loud wails. 

The emperor didn't take any note of them and outrageously passed by. My feeble hands were clasped around his neck in a tight clutch. I refused to face him for once. This whole day felt so insane and my body was so limp with an overdriven anxiety.

I closed my eyes and let the world go blank. I was too embarrassed to look at the world right now…too embarrassed to look at anything actually. Whilst the emperor didn’t stop at all to notice my tomato-colored face of utter humiliation, I thought to myself=‘the emperor is the most perverted jerk I have ever met!’ But of course, I couldn’t say that to his face now could I? Um nope and that is totally a wrong assumption to be made by any sensible person. 

As I accepted the wall of shame put forcefully in front of me and continued to detest the emperor horribly with my thoughts, a strong spirit of combat rose up from within me. That was when I decided that I had to take a stand against him. I had to put up a fight against him without just doing nothing and accepting whatever scheme he had in store for me.

“STOP THIS RIGHT NOW!” I enunciated, my own gallantness surprising me. I guess I took the emperor by surprise because as soon as I said those words, he stopped in his tracks and stared into the faraway distance. I didn’t let this opportunity go to waste. I kicked and jumped out of his arms but unfortunately had to take a rough blow on my knees. I fell onto the floor with a loud bang. My knees suffered from the crash so I massaged them continually compelling the pain to go away. I stood up gritting my teeth to fight my way through the pain. When I managed to stand up, I faced the emperor with words of anger neatly planned in my mind to spit at him. I didn’t want to waste any more second.

“Your majesty, first off, I am not your play thing nor am I one of your concubines. I am a respectable son of this nation and my father is the general which means I do not deserve such an ugly treatment and shame. We just met! I don’t know for how long I’ve been out after that unruly kiss of yours at the garden, but know this…you will never ever lay a finger on me. I will never be one of your lusty targets and I won’t just stand doing nothing against your games. How could you the emperor even commit such an act!?,” I stopped my verbal retaliations and took a deep breath. I didn’t even realise that I was crying. Droplets of tears were rolling down along my face in thin wet streaks.

 Emperor Meilin looked confounded for a moment. Then he closed his eyes and massaged his temples as if he was suffering from some sort of inner abstruse thought.

“Hm you’re right. I must have been out of my wits. Normally I wouldn’t ever make my first move so forcefully. I always listen to the thoughts and feelings of the other person. So this is the first time I have…I have lost control of myself.

Maybe it was the effect of the wine I had. It was brought to me from Greece by sect leader Xiaolin but I didn’t realize that it was too strong. I think I’m still under its influence,” he said mockingly while fanning himself with a bright red folding fan that appeared in his hand out of nowhere. He continued to fan himself with a boring attitude. Lost in his own pleasure of enjoying the stylish fan, he finally looked at me. 

“So? Then, you may leave. Forgive me for my flirtatious lusty behavior but for some reason, I couldn’t resist you. Something about you made me feel so very lost in my actions and even doubled the effect of the wine. I advise you to leave at once before I lose control of myself again. I’m even feeling a little dizzy now,” he closed his eyes again. 

As much as I hated to say, he really did look pretty guilty. His white hair had turned black again and his eyes had gone completely dark as well. Dark ebony colored hair and black opal tinged eyes. He was back in his normal non supernatural appearance. The cold blooded emperor whose features reflected a dark aureole.

“So, it was just the effect of wine?” I asked rather angrily. To this, the emperor’s gaze turned cautious. “Well, of course. Why else would I behave so savagely? Oh please! It was just an intense kiss. That’s all and I didn’t take away your chastity. Haha. We didn’t even sleep together and I have no record of seeing your naked body. So there’s no problem now is there?” he said shamelessly like it was all some nonsensical funny story. Was this how he behaved all the time?

“Then do you call every person you meet ‘My Empress’ or tell them 'yey! we're getting married?"

 Shit! How was I so foolish to say that! My dumb mouth! Now he would definitely punish me for my timidity. How could I even say that insulting statement!

“Hm… only to the beauties who hide themselves in exterior masks,” he looked at me from over the fan, his vexatious eyes flaring at me.

“So shameless,” I whispered. Was this his true face? How could he be so dead serious and play with my feelings. He really did play with me for fun, didn't he? Being drunk could be a lame excuse.

One time he was all very lascivious and forceful while now he’s acting like it was a clumsy mistake. I never knew the over ambitious highly respected emperor would be a playboy in real life who enjoys himself with beauties and a harem of his own. Guess all the tales were true. Tales of the emperor’s sensual carnal desires spread amongst the people like wildfire but nobody believed in them disposing them as tales meant to tarnish his majesty’s good image. But who knew that these tales actually echoed his true colors.

“You! Don’t you plan to leave?” he pointed the fan towards me, its deep red texture burning into my eyes.

“You are no fun at all. Leave now. The soldier standing over there will lead you the way out of the palace,” he smiled at me with the unpleasant smile villains shoot out when they’re displeased.

‘You are no fun at all’ ‘ Leave now’ his words resonated in my mind with so much harshness. I felt like I was being tossed away and being referred to as a useless nobody. The thought of it gave me a strange reaction. My chest tightened and my mind felt so foggy. I knew I was walking away as he asked me to but as I passed him, our shoulders almost bumping into each other, my heart’s pulsation quickened. Maybe it was just anger.

Anger for being kissed without permission. Anger for being treated as a source of enjoyment. Anger for almost losing my chastity because of irresponsibly bad drinking manners. And I have so many reasons to be angry at HIM!

Yes. This weird feeling was definitely anger.

Anger which was consuming me and finally burning its way into vile hatred.

**Silver’s notes.

You’ll understand what happened to Meilin in the next few chappies! Don’t worry! Their story has just begun! This is the you know, love and hate playing together. Hehe. 

SO!!!I’m back after a long hiatus! I’ll explain to you why I was gone for a long time. After my exams, I was planning to update the novel but I didn’t have a clear plot because I was busy with my exams and studies. So after my exams, I had to take some time off for myself to clear up my mind and body cas practically I was super exhausted from all the exam stress. During that time, I plotted out the story. And then, something went wrong with my laptop. It had to get a new battery too and now it’s finally fixed. So that’s the story behind me taking a ghostly hiatus.

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Good news is, I have a clear plot now and I’m hoping to finish this novel in maybe 2 months.

And I have decided to add some changes to the first mature chapters of the novel cas they are kinda too mature. I’m not gonna change much tho. I’m doing this cas I want to add the sweet bits for later.

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