When we got there the party was already in full swing. Everything was done up and extravagant. That was because it was being held at Darleen Grayson's house. She is like really rich; her family is always the talk of the town. She's a track star, way better than me, and she's also into acting. She hasn't quite decided what she wants to do yet. I guess you could say she and I are sort of friends. The kind of friends who talk and hang out at school, but nothing outside of that.
Darleen's parents were out of town so it was easy for her to have a party there. Not to mention her house is more like a mansion and she has one of those fancy grand staircases that made it just perfect for the party. I swear it looked like something right out of a movie.
I won't go into details of the party, to be honest, there are some things I'd rather not recall. There are only a few things you need to know. The first, I kissed Jade Tate. Second, Jade doesn't know that I kissed her. Third, she thinks it was Archer. Fourth, someone saw us, at least I am like 90% sure. And finally, fifth, it was a complete and total accident.
How did this all unfold?
It was getting pretty late but the party was still going strong. Many people were a little more than tipsy. No one at the party was drinking age I might add. Drinking isn't my thing, let's just say alcohol and Skylar Clifton don't mix.
Anyway! Archer being extra dramatic because if you recall this was supposed to be a role play party, announced that when the lights go off everyone has to kiss someone. He said it was to keep in good spirits. That sounded like my worst nightmare, my first kiss with some stranger, yeah, no. And if we are really being honest, Archer probably only did it so he could kiss Darleen.
Oops, forgot to mention, Archer has a crush on Darleen.
Not Jade.
As you can imagine I high tailed it out of there. I went upstairs and hid out in the library. I was actually in there so long I totally forgot about the whole thing and was surprised when the lights went out. I tried to make my way downstairs, but it was too dark in the library for me to find the door.
That is until the door opened and I walked towards the sound.
"I know you're in here," Jade giggled.
I opened my mouth to say something but before I could I bumped right into her. Then to really stun me into complete paralysis. She grabbed my face and kissed me! Everything just happened so fast. I mean, I should have been a good friend and pulled away. Pointed out I was not who she thought I was, but...
I've never felt that way before.
It was like a shock ran throughout my body. Everything just felt so right. Like all the planets had aligned and shined down on us. They ordained that we were always meant to be. Jade and me, the cosmic couple. I couldn't stop how I felt, couldn't control what happened next. It just happened.
I leaned in and kissed her back. I could taste the alcohol on her breath. I'll never forget the way her lips felt against mine. My heart was going crazy inside of me, doing a tap dance or something. One kiss quickly turned into many more, which led to a make-out session. The way her hands caressed my cheeks, she hadn't bothered to touch the rest of my body, she was too caught up in the moment.
Maybe if she had she would have found out the truth and she would have stopped.
But would she have stopped?
Hadn't she felt what I felt in that moment?
Regardless, when I heard the door open again, I jerked back. Suddenly slapped back down into reality. It all came crashing back down with me. I had just made out with my best friend! The girl who was madly in love with someone else. The girl who I am at least 95% sure is straight. The girl who was more than a little drunk.
I did something I shouldn't have.
I know it was wrong, I know I should have stopped it, but it was just so magical.
Before the lights could come back on, I ran out of there. My heart was beating like a jackhammer. My whole body was trembling from excitement. At the time I didn't know if Jade knew it was me, or what was going to happen next. I was just so caught up in everything.
Till this day my lips still tingle when I think about it. And let's just say I think about it more than I should. I get all worked up and start to sweat nervously. I can still feel her lips against my own, feel her warm skin, taste her sweet breath. Just thinking of it gives me chills.
Anyway, to makes matters worse, after the party as we were going home together, she told me all about her steamy make-out sessions with Archer. Who was actually, me. I was both disappointed and proud at the same time. My ego had been inflated ten-fold as she went on and on about what a good kisser I was. Of course, she had no idea it was me.
Thus, my dilemma.
Should I tell her it was me even though two weeks have gone by? Surely, she suspects something by now because Archer has ignored all her advances and is totally confused by all of Jade's sly comments about the party. In all honesty, I am embarrassed for her, because let's face it, Jade has no shame.
Even if I do tell her, then what? Won't she be freaked out I waited this long to say anything? I could lose her for good. Which is not an option I am willing to entertain. So, I must make a new plan. A third option.
I have to get Jade Tate to fall in love with me.
I need to get her attention away from Archer, who is obviously not interested, and onto me who is interested. Okay so maybe I left out a detail or two. The truth is I have had a crush on Jade since the day I met her. She is beautiful, she is funny, she is everything I could only hope to be.
Being an awkward preteen at the time I pushed those confusing feelings deep, deep, deep, did I say deep yet? Deep down inside of me. I never intended to act on them. Ever! I am an introvert remember and Jade is the queen of extroverts. I always just assumed I would get over my crush one day. That eventually I would grow out of it.
I pushed those feelings so far down that for a moment I forgot I even had them. But when her lips touched mine those repressed feelings came shooting out of me. Like some type of firework or something. I can't just go back to pretending I feel nothing for her, trust me, I've tried.
It's torture being around her and not being able to tell her how I feel, especially when things like this happen.
"I just don't get it, why is he being all shy around me? He is acting like he has no idea what happened between us?" Jade complained.
We are at her house, in her room. She lives right across the street from my house. I can see my bedroom from her window, and she can see hers from mine. Sometimes when she needs to talk to me she'll shine a laser into my room until I come to the window.
That is how I wound up at her house right now.
Per usual, I snuck downstairs and out the doggy door. Then I jumped the fence and walked to her house, she snuck me in through the back door and up to her room, It is one in the morning.
"Maybe he doesn't," I said.
She raised her eyebrow at me.
"Uh, I mean, maybe you kissed someone else," I quickly spat out before I could chicken out again.
"No way, I followed him up there. I saw him go in there," she says sure of herself.
Is Archer the one who saw us?
"How can you be sure? The lights were off," I point out.
She smothered a pillow into her face and groaned.
Now or never! I should just tell her now. Okay, here goes.
"Where were you when the lights when off? Who did you kiss?" she moved the pillow and smirked at me. As if suddenly realizing she had no idea what I had gotten up to at the party.
The question made me choke up. Gah! I wish it wasn't so hard for me to just say what I want to say. Just spit it out already. Jade, I kissed you and I'm in love with you. Get it over with. Instead, I turn into a babbling fool.
"I was in the bathroom, remember?" I laughed nervously.
I could feel the nervous sweats coming on.
"Right... you don't feel me. Why are getting all nervous for? Come on, tell me, who did you kiss?" she crawled to the edge of the bed to tease me.
I am in my usual spot on the floor.
"No one!" I got defensive.
"Liar," she crawled over to me on the floor and got right in my face.
My heart started racing. Here you go, ladies and gentlemen. Here is what happens when I try to talk and hold a conversation like a normal person.
"I was, and you, you see. The walls! So dark. I mean she has a really big house. Like wow! Talk about rich. You know that house must cost a fortune. That bathroom, I mean did you see it? Because I didn't, I mean I did! Because I was in the bathroom and you were in the library. Hehe."
Kill me now.
"Wait, how did you know I was in the library?" she cocked her head to the side.
Crud!
"Um, you told me. Before, remember? When you were talking about Archer and the kiss. You were slightly drunk; you know you really shouldn't drink. It's not good for you. Imagine your liver when you get older. Yeesh, am I right?"
"Right..." she narrowed her eyes at me.
I'm sweating badly now. Curse these athletic genes!
"So you didn't kiss anyone?" she said skeptically.
"Nope," I nodded like a dumb idiot.
"Wait, you're nodding, is that Skylar code for yes?"
"No!" I nodded again.
"Now I'm just confused. No, as in yes? Or no as in no way I'm telling you?"
"Of course I would tell you if I did anything because we talk all the time. Who else would I tell? My sister? Ha! She stole my phone charger you know. That brat. Now I have to get a new one. She is always stealing my stuff. Like a little thief, because that what they do, thieves steal. Like whoever stole your kiss, because that's what happened, it was stolen. Not that I stole it, why would I steal?"
She looks at me for a second in confusion before she burst into a fit of laughter.
I wish I could just be normal.
"You are so adorable when you get all nervous. You know that? I was just teasing; you don't have to tell me if you don't want to," She playfully pushed me.
I forced nervous laughter.
"You're hilarious, but back to the real issue. If I didn't kiss Archer then who the hell did I kiss?" she moved to sit even closer to me.
I opened my mouth to say something but like always she beat me to it.
"I mean I did think the lips were a bit soft, the face too. Maybe I kissed a girl. Ew! Can you imagine?" she laughed.
"Yeah..."
"No, there is no way. I know I kissed Archer. He has a soft face. I just have to get his attention. One way or another I will get Archer Dung to fall in love with me." She said in determination.
In summary,
If anyone is willing to put me out of my misery please let me know. I live at why am I a loser lane and go to I wish my best friend would notice me school. I'll be the one waiting to die. Thank you, that is all.
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