I see nothing, I feel nothing in this empty void. My own fear has come to fruition, to feel nothing and have no control over myself. But I hear a clicking sound each second.

I see I'm dead. But, I can still think and hear, is this the work of my soul or ki which dissipated into the air after I died? No, I don't think so. This is just, death. What a huge disappointment, to feel nothing after life, but to hear this clicking sound for eternity. No wait, I can still feel hunger, and right now it's screaming for food, I also feel thirst. Is this the eternal suffering after death? The only thing I regret in my life is that I failed to be strong enough to protect my family. I already failed by ripping apart my "family" when I was born.

My mom Ariel, with beautiful red lushes hair, with green eyes, and with a body that anyone would envy, ran away without me, by the age of two, from my father. She was a victim of kidnapping at the age of 23, tortured and raped for three years. She ran without ever looking back at me as I had my father's blood run through my veins. A sinner's blood. She saw an opportunity to never see us again, and leave me to fend for myself, waiting for death. That is, what I always thought. 

Until at the age of 24, after being a king for 2 years I started to look into my past. I read documents after documents and found out that my mother tried to get help for me, for us. Ariel was someone who cared for everyone, even for me who had the blood of a sick man running through my veins.

But she was killed once she was able to get to the authorities because "father" pulled some strings behind the scenes and was able to mark her death as an accident. As we had the blood of an old duke running through our veins.

I later found the documents of Joseph with an extensive record of everything he did. They knew everything yet they never did anything! I later proceeded to ask an elder in the kingdom, a master of ki, to show me the past for me to confirm everything that happened. He put his palm to my forehead and chanted a mantra to make me fall unconscious.

Joseph was a disgusting man, at the age of 57 he had already murdered 13 people without being caught. He already had 49 rape and kidnap victims which he sold to illegal slavery to profit from. My mom being the last victim, the 50th victim, Joseph kept her alive for his sick enjoyment. He later got me at the age of 59 after accidentally leaving Ariel, passed out in the torture chamber clutching her stomach to protect me, the unborn fetus in her stomach.

She endured hell, pain, and torture while carrying me. Once Joseph returned he was sickened to see me, lay in my mother's protective arms. He later went on to proceed to beat my mom, holding me in her arms for dear life. But because my mother was so beautiful he quickly stopped and left us for dead in the chamber.

As we were left for dead inside the dark blue chamber, my mother was able to regain consciousness and feed me. We were inside for 3 days with my mother malnourished, both of us close to death. She later regained consciousness after 4 hours, passing out while feeding me.

She felt that she didn't have enough energy in her body so she crawled towards a knife laying 3 meters away. A knife stained in blood and rust with a black edge. She proceeded to crawl with me in her arms, scratching up her elbows and knees reaching for the knife.

She later slit her wrist on the vein and put it up to my mouth, for her to bleed, for me to eat. Joseph later got back to check on us, if at least I was dead, but what he found was a mother's love and compassion towards her child. Joseph got curious as to why Ariel was so protective over me, but when he saw his toy getting close to death he started to tend to her wounds. So that he may play with her further.

One year later, my mom was still getting abused, raped for Joseph's twisted "fun". And after I was born, Joseph started to take precautions for this abomination to never happen again, so he started to punch and kick my mother's stomach, so there is no chance that a fetus would never be able to survive. But Joseph started to go against me now, he has started beating me. But, my mother protected me, put herself in between Joseph and me. Even though fire, acid, poison was hurled against me. She protected me through fire and hell.

Two years after my birth, my mom noticed that during my last birthday, 15th November. Joseph's cautiousness was relinquished, he became a lethargic man, as he knew that Ariel would be with me the whole day. Ariel took the time, for a whole year, to look for an escape. She sought a small spacious enough for her to crawl through. On the 15th November, 90th Astral year, was the day I never saw her ever again.

I woke up by a large bang after reflecting on the past with my mother's love, a sound from the eternal suffering clock in the void. What was that? How many bangs has it been? 1, 2? It feels that this is a pattern. I point out, feeling the grave starvation for food and water. No, it's a timer for something. A countdown? I feel the correct answer looming closer. For days? Months? Even years? I'm so hungry and thirsty, this is going to drive me insane. 

Let's calm down, calm down Orion, and count these loud bangs. 1, 2, 3. BANG

4, my head! it hurts! 4 bangs have already happened. Let's keep these bangs in mind. Please, I have to!

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5, bangs, I'm so hungry that I might die in the afterlife.

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6 bangs.

9 bangs. I feel like this is a pattern, with an equal interval between the bangs which gets louder and louder. But how long? For, how long have I been here? I manage to think before almost crying after food and water. I need to control myself and recollect my thoughts. These bangs come with a determined time interval, which means that time still flows. But at which rate?

I began to count what the interval was between the loud bangs.

1, 2, 3, 4... 3601... 5153... 9723... 12611... 17565... 31354... 69420... 79355... 86386. A searing pain soared into my consciousness as the loud bang appeared. 86386, I repeated in this formless space. 86386 is close to 86400 seconds, which corresponds with a day. I have already been here for 10 days!? It already feels like an eternity. I think to myself as the imaginary growl for food appears in my head. Hah, I'm going insane.

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20. As each 10th bang brought searing pain to me I slowly became insane in this isolated space. With no one to see, no one to speak to. Nothing to feel in this isolated void. No warmth, only starvation, and thirst.

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30. PLEASE MAKE IT STOP! I tried to roar into the empty void. I'M HUNGRY!!!! FEED ME! I WANT FOOD!!!! HELP ME, HELP ME!!!!

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42, HELP, HEEEELP, IT BURNS, IT BURNS AAAHHH. HELP HEEELP, HELP ME! STOP, STOP, STOOOP.

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65, STOP IT, DON'T TOUCH ME!

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100, "PLEASE MAKE IT STOP, JUST MAKE IT STOP... Please stop... PLEASE STOP!!! PLEASE STOP!!!!"

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125, "AUGHHHHHH. STOOOOOOP," I yelled into the void. "DON'T HURT THEM, DON'T HURT THEM!"

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174, "Forgive me, forgive me, forgive me, forgive me, forgive ME, FORGIVE ME, ROGUE. IT'S NOT MY FAULT. IT'S NOT MY FAULT!"

It's all your fault, Orion, it's all your fault. IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT THAT WE DIED! IT'S YOUR FAULT! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! They continued to chant until their eyes and throat started to bleed, blood profusely pouring down from their dark eyes and blood squirting out their throat as they continued chanting.

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214, at this time, I have lost all emotions, I was just an empty shell floating in space, frozen in space. Wishing for the sweet relief of death, such warmth of the true death that I seek. What we seek. "Stop it, stop it, stop speaking with me, ROGUE STOP SPEAKING!"

You caused all my pain, you deserve this.

"STOP IT!"

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272.

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"275 already? 275 bangs, 275 days already, please make it stop. JUST MAKE IT STOP!" I roar, breaking the imaginary ice around me.

As if God heeded my prayer in this lonely place, things started to tremor giving me immeasurable pain. The void started to radiate a brilliant light that of a star. Is this the time for my actual death? Finally, salvation, I shall reunite with you in hell, Lily. Beyond the light, I hear the shouts of joy with a pitter-patter sound in the background. I began to cry as I thought I saw you once again.