“I have done nothing to Coyrah. That honor goes solely to you fuck ups. I have only ever protected, cared for, and been here for her and her alone. I ask for nothing in return. She wants rest. I give her that. She wants away from the pain that you all seem to love inflicting on her and I give her a place to escape to. What have you ever given her? And don’t try the whole ‘I gave her life’ bull shit. We stopped buying that shit long before you even died. So what is it that you have to give her?” I said. She looked stricken. Another win for me. I was on a roll. Too bad this still wasn’t getting me out of this hell and on to the real task at hand. Addison stood up then.
“That is enough Coyrah.” He said very firmly. I laughed in his face.
“How many times do I have to say it Fuck Up. Coyrah is gone! I am not her.” I said. But got nothing from him.
“Coyrah you are still there I know it. I can feel you there. You’re right I have not ever asked you what it is that you want. I have been selfish thinking only of myself. But my coming in here had nothing to do with me. I came in here for you. I will stay in here for the rest of time if that is what you want. But I will not leave you here alone. You can palm me until you can no longer lift your arms but I will not leave. I have screwed up. I do not deny it. How can I? You have not yet lied. But we all make mistakes. That is part of being human. Life is painful sometimes and you have had more than your share of pain that too is true. I can see why you would want the peace of a sort of death. I have never had to endure the pain that you have. I cannot say that I know anything of it. I know though that you are far stronger than I am because of having lived through that pain. I know that the only way you could do so was by having this dark version of yourself. But is this really what you want? To excite only in the shadow of the darkest part of yourself? What is it that you really want Coyrah?” He said. I really wanted to hit him again. So I swung at him again. This time though he caught my fist and pulled me into him. He turned me so that my back was to him and his arms were a cage around me.
His warmth septed into me and caused Coyrah to stir again. This was stupid he was playing with her. He didn’t care for her. No one but me did. I was the one that had always been at her side and had seen her through the really bad shit that this piss ant couldn’t even begin to understand. I had gotten her through everything. The death of her mother, the constantly being hunted, the torture because she was the daughter of Posiedon. He was nothing, he couldn’t give her what I had already given her.
“She has everything you could give her and more because I don’t demand that she give me anything in return. Everything you would offer to her would come with conditions. Sure you could give her a home, if she would raise Atlantis then she could have a home there. Sure you would protect her, but first she would have to give you something. I don’t ask her to give me shit. She has peace, a home where none of you that only want things from her for yourselves can get to her.” I said. I tried to elbow him in the gut. But he squeezed down tighter on me then.
“I didn’t ask you. I want to hear Coyrah tell me what it is that she wants.” He said. I kicked out at him. I scored then and his grip loosened but he still didn’t let me go.
“There you go again. It's always going to be about you and what you want. I told you what she wants and I am giving her those things. You have nothing to offer her that I don’t freely give her already. Sucks to suck asshole but you lose now let me go.” I said.
But it was almost to late. Just like it had in the street just the other day his touch was calling Coyrah back from the peaceful place I gave her. I could feel him pulling her back up. I had to brake his grip on me or he would call her fully back just so that he could hurt her again. He turned me in his arms and got a better grip on me this time. He looked deep into my eyes. I could see that he didn’t care if he was to be lost for all time to the depths of my eyes. He was going to get her back if it was in fact the last thing he ever did.
“Idiot. Look away. Look away now damn it.”Coyrah screamed at me. But I didn’t do it.
“It’s his choice. Let him be lost in my eyes. If he is stupid enough to look that long into them. At least then he will never be able to hurt you again. You can finally have your undisturbed rest at long last. Why are you fighting this?” I said in our mind back to her. I was confused as to why she was in fact trying to fight me and look away from the idiot.
“Damn it DC I said look away. He may be an idiot but I don't want him lost forever. I will not let you do this DC not this.” Coyrah said out loud. Damn it. The idiot actually smiled. But sad day for him even though Coyrah had enough juice to fight me a little bit she didn’t have any light left to fight me fully back into my box. Her light was spent. Yet he seemed to realize this and he did something I never could have seen coming no matter how long I lived.
Addison kissed us. But more than that as he did he poured our light back into us. I could feel it. Not just our light but his love of US. He didn’t just love the light in me but my darkness too. DC was pissed but she had nothing. With my light returning to me she was losing her hold on me. DC had kept me safe that was true and she had been there for me always and she would always be but so would Addison. I could taste it in his kiss. I couldn’t stop myself as I returned his kiss with that same passion. I pulled back just a bit so I could really look at him.
“Gods DC really did a number on you didn’t she?” I said a bit breathlessly. He looked deep into my eyes. I could see the swelling already setting in. But unlike DC I had no power in this place.
“It was nothing I didn’t deserve. I am just glad to have you back. But who exactly is DC?” He said. I laughed.
“DC is my dark side. Dark Coyrah. Someone once told me I made her because I needed her to survive and so she was a personality that I made to do the things that I couldn’t or wouldn’t normally do. DC has been the one to see me safe through everything to this point. She is a bitch but everything she does is about protecting me. I knew all my life that I was too soft to make it on my own so some part of me made DC so that we could survive.” I said. I saw him put it all together then and understand that as long as I lived DC would be there always.
“I see. She is forceful but I am thankful you have had her to this point. I won’t lie. DC is not my favorite part of you. But I will never try to do anything that will have her being the only one in control but I do love you both. She is a part of you and I will do everything I can to prove to both of you that I really mean everything I have said here. I will not give up on you. I will try to make sure that I never hurt you again in this way. I will make mistakes but I never want to be the source of your pain again. I am so sorry for my role this far in it. Tell me true please. What is that you want Coyrah?” He said. I smiled at him. And gently put my hands on either side of his face and looked into his eyes.
“DC doesn’t lie. I have only ever wanted a home, to be safe, and to be loved. Though DC doesn’t feel love the way you and I do, she does care. She just only cares about me and protecting me, and making those that hurt me pay for the pain they have caused me. I have only wanted the simplest things in life. Which is why DC gets so pissed that everytime we turn around I can’t seem to ever get those things.” I said. I could feel my mother there and knew that she was hearing all this.
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