I am worried about you. I hear you spend all of your days doing nothing but studying. I know you mean well and only want to do your best. I am proud of you for your dedication to learning. But you truly need to take a break, go experience life more. Even if it’s just for one day. There is more to life than what you find in books. Some lessons can only be learned through experience, rather than by reading about them. Yes, you may learn spells from books, but you cannot simply cast them immediately. Practice, and the experience that comes with it, is required.