If there is anything worse than a love triangle, it's a love square! How the heck did this even happen? Alright, who's pulling my leg? Come on, I know you're out there somewhere.
"Darleen, I..."
"I'm sorry, that was stupid." She quickly pulls away.
"No, I—"
"I know, you like Jade. "
I nod.
"I'm sorry," her face turns bright red.
"So... you like me?"
"Yeah, I sort of do," She smiles for me.
I feel my heart skip a beat.
"Thank you, uh, for telling me," I say.
"I just thought you should know there are other, better, more responsive fish in the sea. Some even right here, right in front of your face."
"Oh, uh... right. Thanks for pointing that out..."
"I ruined it, I'm so sorry. I just, I'm not good at making the first move. I get that you like someone else. Look, can we just pretend this didn't happen? I don't want things to be weird between us." She says.
"Okay."
"So, we're still friends?"
I smile and nod.
She smiles too.
"Right, well I should, you know," I reach for the handle to my front door.
"Right, of course. Um, see you at school then."
"If I don't get expelled."
She pauses in her steps.
"Do you have my number?" she asks.
"No."
"Can I give it to you?"
"Sure," I hand her my phone.
"Just in case. I don't want to lose touch with you. I think you're pretty and stuff."
"And stuff?" I tease.
"Shut up," she giggles and playfully pushes me.
I giggle too.
She smiles at me and then leans in and kisses me on the cheek. I feel my face turn an even brighter red. She pulls back slightly and our eyes lock, she glances down at my lips and I glance down at hers.
I don't know why, but I really want to kiss her. It's like the invisible hands of lust hold me in place, preventing me from leaving. I mean she is really pretty, and I've never kissed anyone but Jade. I wonder...
She leans in slowly, I meet her halfway and we kiss.
A real kiss.
I close my eyes and lean into her; she wraps her arms around my waist and pulls me closer. I drop my phone and wring my hands into her shirt. It's like my brain has shorted out or something. One second regular sane thoughts were going through my head, the next...
Everything feels so hot and heavy. My lips hungrily move against hers. She pushes me against the door and wrings her hands into my shirt. She tastes like strawberries. She feels so sturdy and warm.
To be honest, I have no idea what is happening anymore, but it feels amazing. I've never felt like this before. This is all so new. To think someone like Darleen Grayson could like me. Just regular, plain, boring Skylar.
She pulls back and our lips gently break apart.
No matter how hard I breathe I can't catch my breath.
She is the same.
"Wow, that was... wow." She smiles.
I just nod like a dummy.
"So does this mean I stand a chance?" she asks.
I look into her sea-blue eyes, my heart on the verge of going into cardiac arrest.
"Darleen... we shouldn't, I mean I was just... I didn't mean to,"
"Shh," she puts her finger on my lips.
I stare at her.
"I'll see you tomorrow," she pecks me on the cheek one last time before walking backwards to her car, never breaking eye contact with me.
Tomorrow? Wait! The track meet! I totally forgot about it. She distracted me. As soon as she's in her car I snag my phone off the floor and move to run inside. That's when I see it, Jade watching me through the window. I swear my heart stops.
I run inside and right into my sister Oli. It's obvious she was spying on me through the window. She saw me kissing a girl! I am a deer in the headlights.
"Don't tell mom," are the first words out of my mouth.
"Okay, but I don't think she would care. I mean... I don't care that you, you know, like girls. It's okay. Just so you know," she says before running upstairs to her room.
I sigh in relief.
I go to my room and despite my better judgment look out the window over to Jade. Immediately a laser blinds me by shinning right in my eyes. I have to cover my face. After I count to three I move my arm and look over to Jade.
She looks very alarmed. Her face is a mixture of astonishment and anger. My stomach falls out onto the floor. I can't believe she saw me kissing Darleen. I can't believe I even kissed Darleen!
Why am I a big freaking idiot?
Now Jade thinks I like Darleen!
And I don't!
It was just, I mean she was just, and I was just... okay so things happened! I don't know what they mean. I was caught up in the moment. Doesn't mean I like Darleen Grayson; I was just curious. I blame the horny teenager biology.
I walk back downstairs and over to Jade's house. Before I can even reach the handle on the door, she swings it open and pulls me inside. I stumble forward as she drags me upstairs to her room.
She pushes me so I sit down on her bed then slams the door shut behind her.
"What was that!?" she demands.
I feel my face heat up and look down to avoid making eye contact.
"You're gay?"
I shrug.
"Why didn't you tell me!? Skylar! I feel like such an idiot. I am so sorry. This whole time I've been calling lesbians lesbo's and gross. I had no idea. Please don't hate me," she begs.
I look up at her in confusion. Wait... does that mean she's okay with it?
"Skylar, we are best friends. You can tell me anything. It doesn't change anything between us."
"Really?" I ask.
"Of course not. You should have told me." She sits next to me and grabs my hand.
"I didn't know how. I thought you would freak out." I admit.
"I am freaking out! I mean, how could you keep this from me? I thought we told each other everything. I can't believe I didn't figure it out sooner. No wonder you freaked out when I asked you about the party. You freaking made out with Darleen Grayson! Are you two secretly dating?"
"No! We were just messing around. You know, like teenagers do. I don't like her. I mean I like her, but not like, like her like her. It was nothing, just a few kisses between friends. For practice."
Why!? Why am I like this?
"Practice?" she eyes me, not convinced.
"Duh, I mean how else would I be ready for the real thing?" well, it's all over now. Might as well start picking out a headstone.
No way she believes any of this.
"So, you practice like that with anyone?"
Wait, what?
"Only the people I feel comfortable with." In too deep! Abort mission! Abort!
"Are you comfortable with me?"
Losing altitude! Abort!
She moves closer to me, interlocking our fingers.
I look into her jade green eyes. Maybe this is it, maybe this is when I should tell her how I feel. I should tell her she is more than just a friend I would use for practice. That when I look at her my heart beats so loud I can hear it in my ears. That when she holds my hand, part of me melts on the inside. That for the past few years I've been madly in love with her because she is the most amazing person in all of existence.
"Jade I—"
She cuts me off by smashing her lips into mine.
A rainbow is set off within me. Everything inside me just unravels and falls to pieces. If my body were to be cracked open rainbow glitter blood would pour out of me.
I close my eyes and lean into the kiss. It's just like the first time, but even better. Now she knows it's me she's kissing. She kisses me again and again, slowly moving her hands to my face. I turn to face her and she crawls on my lap, straddling me. She holds me just like she did that night, her thumbs running across my cheeks.
That's when I realize, she remembers the feel of my lips! She is seeing is I was the one she kissed that night. It feels just like that night, too much like that night. Mega Crud!
She pulls back softly a conflicted and confused expression on her face.
I open my mouth to say something, but nothing comes out. I just stare wide-eyed at her.
She stares at me in silence before moving her hands to feel my face. Slowly running her fingers over every inch of my face. I see the realization dawn on her face. She lets her hands fall to the side and narrows her eyes at me.
"It was you?" her voice squeaks.
"Jade I can explain," I put my hands on her hips.
"Why didn't you say anything?" she gets off me and pulls away.
"It was an accident, you caught me by surprise. I didn't know what to do! I just freaked out. I thought you would freak out too. Especially because I'm not... straight. I know what I did was wrong, I should have said something. I was just scared," my voice cracks. "Please, don't hate me. I'm sorry."
"This whole time you knew..."
"I'm sorry."
"You should have told me."
"Jade, I'm sorry." I get up to comfort her.
"I wouldn't have been mad, you just ugh! You can't just," she takes a deep calming breath. "Never mind."
"I'm sorry. I'll go." I move to leave.
"No," she grabs me by the wrist.
I turn to look at her with tears in my eyes.
"Look, I'm not mad you did it. I mean we were at the party; we had a little to drink. It was dark and things got heated. I'm mad you never said anything. This whole time I thought... it doesn't matter. Just promise me you won't do that again."
"I promise. I'm sorry."
"Come here," she pulls me in for a hug. "You don't ever have to feel like I won't accept you. You're my friend Skylar. I'll love you no matter what. Just don't lie to me okay?"
"Okay," I bury my head in her shoulder.
"Are we still friends?" she pulls back to look into my eyes.
"Of course," I smile.
"Good. Also, you're a pretty good kisser." She flicks my nose.
I feel my face heat up then we both just laugh it off.
"Sorry for freaking out on you," she said.
"Sorry for making you freak out."
She giggled and kissed me on the cheek. I could feel the redness in my face spread down to my neck.
"Anyways, you should probably head home. You have a long day tomorrow."
"True, um you coming to the meet?"
"Obviously, who would get to bother you while you sulk in the stands?"
"Guess you're right," I giggle.
"Go on, go get some good sleep now that you have this weight off your chest."
"Okay, I will. Goodnight," I kiss her on the cheek.
"N-night," she blushes and quickly turns to avoid my gaze.
She's so cute.
I wonder...
Is there a chance she likes me too?
Comments (3)
See all