☄️ Asteria ☄️

We did it again after several days but he told me to use the blindfold again.

I'm sitting on his lap this time as we made out. 

Kissing is amazing.

"Ah--"

I felt his hand wander down my back.

"Ah--"

His touches felt so hot.

I got accustomed to Cyrus' body temperature.

Without it.

I think I'll feel lonely.

I feel him rubbing his semi hard-on in my lower half.

"Huff"

"Huff"

"Ae, you're getting wet. What's wrong?" he said as he licked my chest again.

"Do you want me to touch you?"

"...--"

I just nodded in response.

I wanted him to touch me.

I just wanted him to touch me.

"Then you don't need me to rub your womanhood?" he said as he spread my feminine area open which made me shake.

"Ah"

I threw my head back in ecstasy. 

"Mn"

"Cyrus, you're so mean..."

He kissed me.

"Hey, tell me."

I couldn't figure out what he looks like right now.

"Touch..."

"Touch me..."

I feel him smile through my skin.

*thud*

He laid me down into the bed softly and he grabbed both of my legs and squeezed it together once again just like the first time we did it. 

I felt the necktie come undone. 

Ah, the necktie...

For the first time, I saw his needy expression which caught me by surprise but he quickly covered me eyes again using his hand, preventing me to see his face. 

He fixed the blindfold then he kissed me as he squeezed my legs together as he kissed me deeply. 

He thrusted into me hard which made me moan loudly. 

"Ah--"

"Ah--"

"Ah--"

"Ah..." 

~ ☄️ End of Smut ☄️ ~

I just finished taking a shower as I stared into the screen of my phone while blushing.

We made out multiple times after that.

*Fshhhhhhhh*

Right now Cyrus is taking a shower in his bathroom.

But Cyrus still thinks I get embarrassed even now.

So I wear a blindfold every time.

Even though I'm fine now...

I thought as I fiddled my phone with my fingers. 

In fact, I've come to really like making out with him.

I want to try a lot of things without wearing a blindfold.

I blushed at that thought. 

Wow, I'm so dirty.

Cyrus will be put off by me.

I said while hiding my face behind my hands.

"What are you looking at, Ae?" he asked as he walked out of the bathroom and drying his hair.

"Cy--Cyrus." I said stuttering.

He sat beside me on the floor by the bed. 

"Ah, I wanted a new smartphone case." I said while looking up at him. "I was thinking about which one to get..."

"Ah, me too." he answered. "Then let's go look at them next week."

He said then kissed my neck which made me blush.

*thump*

*thump*

"Y-yeah."

I hope he doesn't hear the loud beating of my heart.

"What brand is your smartphone?" he asked which I replied instantly.

*ding*

He got a message.

I leaned in to see who's the sender. I don't know why I did that but my body just acted on itself alone.

I don't know how to feel or react by the time I saw the sender of the message.

Irene: Information About Class Reunion

Calling all graduates,

*thump*

Silver Leaf Academy 

"A class reunion..."

I lowered my head and started sweating profusely.

It's okay. It's for high school. 

"Ahh." he said while reading the message. "Even though we just graduated..."

"They sure are hasty..." he said.

"You're not going?" I quickly lifted my head my spirits lighting up.

"Yeah." he answered as he took off his eyes from his phone and looked at me. "I have work too,"

"And if I have time, I want to spend it with you." he said.

I blushed.

He smiled at me.

"Ahh, if only we could stay like this forever..." he said as he leaned his head on my shoulder and kissed my neck which made me feel kinda giddy.

Maybe I should get a job too...

Although not much time has passed since we started dating.

It seems like I've forgotten how to spend time with Cyrus not around.

~ ☄️ ~

"I'm home."

"Ae-ae you're late today again." I jumped in surprise as I saw my grandfather pop out from kitchen.

"U--um, the assignment I had..." I said flustered.

"Is college fun?"

I paused.

I fiddled my fingers for a minute before answering my grandfather.

"...yeah." I answered, my heart fluttering.

He patted my head. "Then that's good."

I wanted to cry at that very moment.

Please make it so that Cyrus doesn't remember what happened during high school.

~ ☄️ ~

"Ah, this might be good."

I said pointing at the black case. "But it's a little expensive..."

"Really?" he asked then I saw him grabbing his phone from his pocket and looked flustered at the screen of his phone.

"Sorry, I have to take a call."

I remained silent.

I saw it by accident.

"Irene"

~ ☄️ ~

Flashback: During high school

"Gyahahaha!"

"Why the hell are you alive?"

End of Flashback

~ ☄️ ~

"Why can't you come, Cyrus?"

"Irene, don't call me just because of that." he answered.

"I mean, it's your fault for acting so cold." I heard her answer him.

"Why aren't you going to the class reunion?" she asked.

"I'm busy, and I told you I had something to do." Cyrus answered as he leaned against the wall.

"Is there someone you don't want to see?"

"No, of course not." he said smiling.

"That's true." she said flustered. "You get along with everyone."

"Well I'd understand if it was for junior high."

He didn't say anything else.

"Alyria... Was it?"

No. 

"She was excluded from the group all the time. Right?"

No. No. 

"Even if we did a class reunion for junior high there's no way we'd invite her."

No. No. No. 

"It'd be awkward, right?" 

"..." he remained silent yet again, making me nervous even more.

"Ah, do you remember her? Alyria." she asked.

I placed both of my hands on my mouth as I feel my breathing hitch.

No. No. No. No.

"Her name is Asteria." Cyrus replied. "I haven't forgotten her."

I felt this small black thing creeping behind my back.

*thump*

...

*thump*

...

*thump*

"I was such a horrible person to her back then." there's sadness in his voice.

No. *thump*

"That I can't apologize enough for what I did."

I feel my body getting weak every second that passes by, this small black thing from high school getting bigger every passing time.

He hadn't forgotten at all.

I feel the small black thing growing bigger in size and eating me slowly but wanted to swallow me whole.

Cyrus did remember.

~ ☄️ ~

I placed both of my hands on my face as I hunched.

"Ae-ae."

Why?

I lifted my paled face to look at him.

Why did he get close to me when he hated me so much in high school?

"... Who was it from?" I asked weakly.

"A highschool friend." he said smiling "He's someone you don't know."

...

You're lying.

"I won't get a case" I said as my voice cracked. "today."

"I see." he answered with an expression on his face that I had never seen before. "Then I won't get one either."

~ ☄️ ~

"Ae-ae." I heard my grandfather called me behind the door. "Ae, baby. What's wrong?"

Why

Why

Why?

I asked as I hid under my blanket so the black thing wouldn't get to me.

Why

Why?

I kept on asking over and over again.

To bully me again?

To laugh at me for liking him...

The memory of him as he looked at the sea below us whike smiling flashed on my mind again.

"Ae-ae, baby. I have to go on a business trip in China for a couple of weeks. I'll be back, please take care of yourself." he paused.

"Cheer up baby, please smile again because grandpa wants to see you smile again. I love you baby, I'll miss you." he said.

"I love you too grandpa and I'll miss you. Have a safe trip." I said my voice cracking but I tried my best to sound happy, I just failed miserably.

"Bye baby." I heard the tires of his luggage rolled on the floor of our hallway as it grew faint then the sound of the front door closing softly afterwards.

I thought my mind will be able to forget my problem about Cyrus but it just kept on haunting my mind as I grasped the blanket on my bed as if my life depended on it.

No.

Cyrus' not that kind of guy.

I said snapping my head out of the blanket as I looked at my hands.

He wouldn't have had made love with me in the first place.

If he had made love with me.

He can't laugh at me anymore.

Then why...

"I was a horrible person to him back then"

"that I can't apologize enough for what I did."

Cyrus apologizes a lot.

I stared blankly at the ceiling of my room as I laid down on my bed.

Is he with me because he feels bad?

After all, Cyrus is kind to everyone.

Cyrus didn't like me at all.

He regrets what he did back then.

So he sympathized with me and went out with me.

That's why when we make love with each other...

The reason why he won't make love with me if I don't wear a blindfold

I started trembling uncontrollably.

Is because he doesn't want to see an ugly and weird girl feeling pleasure.

"Huff"

"Huff"

A lot of tears started dripping from my eyes. My breath started getting heavier. 

"Huff"

The more it makes sense, 

I stared at me trembling hands.

The colder my body gets.

It wasn't by coincidence for the person I used to like to go to ths same college as me and to like me despite of me being ugly and weird.

For us to go out with each other...

Since I believed that the feeling was mutual and felt confused.

I wonder how he felt when he looked at me.

I got my cellphone from my pocket and started typing my message to Cyrus.

Let's break up.

*tap*

Sorry for being so sudden. Let's_

*tap*

*tap*

"Ah..."

Sorry for being so sudden. Let's break_

"... --"

*tap*

Sorry for being_

I can't...

I pressed backspace for a couple of times and started typing back the words all over again.

...Type well anymore.

*tap*

*tap*

I want to break up with you._

*tap*

...

*tap*

*tap*

As I thought, it's impossible for us to stay together._

*tap*

...

*tap*

*tap*

Thank you for everything._

*tap*

...

*tap*

*tap*

I had fu_

For who knows when, I stared blankly at the screen of my phone for how many hours.

~ ☄️ ~

"Ae-ae, can you come over today?" he said looking at me before he could touch his plate but I just stared at him blankly, lost in thought. 

In the end, I couldn't say it.

I couldn't put it together in words. 

"Ae?" he called my name which pulled me back to reality. 

"H-Huh?" I said, "What about your class reunion?" 

He just looked at me questioningly, "I told you that I'm not going, didn't I?"

"Besides" he looked at me sheepishly. "Tomorrow's your birthday, right?" 

He leaned in close to me and whispered, "Let's celebrate."

I blushed.

~ ☄️ ~

"Wh--wh--" I said flabbergasted. "This is..." I said caressing the black phone case in my hand. 

"Yup." he said as he flashed me a cheeky smile and stuck out his tongue at me playfully. "The truth is, I did that all for today."

He's so cool...

I thought as I blushed intensely and holding the phone case that he gave me on my chest.

"Look at this." he stood up from the floor and walked towards the light switch and turned off the lights.

As soon as the lights went out I saw my phone case glow and there's this beach with a sunset in the middle of it.

It looks really beautiful and realistic.

It made me stare in awe.

"Do you like it?" he asked. "Yes, very much." I answered.

"Should I leave the lights off?" he asked me. 

"No, you can turn it on. I want to see your face." I said, in which he gladly obliged. 

~ ☄️ ~

"I haven't celebrated my birthday."

Oh! What am I saying? I shouldn't let him know that.

"--with someone other than my family before." I added quickly.

Wait, isn't this even sadder than the one before?

I blushed, embarrassed. I stared at the strawberry cake right in front of us. 

"Really?" he asked. 

I nodded shyly, I blew out the candle after making a wish.

"I feel bad for your family." he suddenly said, that's why I turned to look at him confused. "But I'm glad I get to have you all to myself."

I removed my eyes from him and looked straight into nothingness.

...

Everything, 

...

Everything is a lie.

He turned the air conditioner on using a remote and I didn't notice the tears flowing from my eyes.

He looked at me shocked.

"A--Ae?" he asked confused. I lowered my head.

"I'm happy." I started. "This is the happiest I've been..."

I let the tears run down my face as I smiled happily.

"...Ever since I was born."

He looked at me surprised.

"Thank you, Cyrus."

Even if everything's a lie.

Even if he's lying to me... 

I can't help but feel happy.

I really can't break off our relationship myself.

I like Cyrus.

And I like him more than before.

Not only has my heart changed, but my bkdy has already changed as well.

"Cy," I said tying his necktie to cover my eyes. "Please..."

~ ☄️ ~

Kissing is amazing.

I thought as he slowly unbuttoned my shirt.

Even if I'm not loved by him.

I can feel this good just by knowing that the person I like is touching me.

If Cyrus is going to lie to be kind, then I'll pretend not to notice.

"Ah" 

"Ah" 

I moaned out as I felt him licked my chest.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for making you do something unpleasant.

Without eve looking at his face, 

I know that he's wearing the same expression on his face that I could never figure out.

Cyrus, you're very incorrigible. 

One day when Cyrus can't bear it anymore, he'll say that we should break up and I'll accept it.

He started thrusting in between my thighs hard and fast as I felt his sweat dripping from his face and into my body. I hugged him tightly as I cried into his arms. 

I hope that won't happen until far into the future.

~ ☄️ ~

"Cy, can I take a picture of you?" I asked as we both laid on his bed, only his blanket covered our naked bodies.

"Sure, but..." he said glancing at me from my phone. "Let me take a picture of you after this."

He placed a hand on his face as he looked at me smiling slightly "A picture of you naked."

I sat up from the bed because of surprise. "N--No, I didn't mean it like that." I said feeling panicky, "I don't really care about..." I continued on blabbering nonsense. 

"Really?" he asked laughing as he listened to me amused at my reactions.

*snap*

~ ☄️ ~

I stared at the photos of him on my gallery, one photo of him with his hand on the side of his head and smiling while we're still on bed naked, and one candid photo of him drinking coffee as he reads a book about business.

I have to treasure this a lot.

I said as tears started running down my again.

One day, I'll have to live with only the memories after all.

I thought as I was looking at the picture that he took of the both of us when he brought me to the sea that day.

I hugged the pillow on my bed as I stared into the window and stared at the bright and orange sinking sun.

Even if I can't return to the days when he wasn't with me, I can keep on living as long as I have that. 

☄️ Cyrus ☄️

Unlike back then, this time I won't mess it up.

Flashback: From the first time they met again in college.

Today for sure.

I'll call out to her...

I thought as I walked right behind her as she's preoccupied 

Asteria

Asteria

I've always wanted to apologize to you.

"So Ae, I have no idea that you're studying here too." I said as I stooped down to look at her.

End of Flashback

I have always liked Asteria.

~ ☄️ ~

In the beginning, I simply couldn't get bored of looking at her.

Although she wasn't always smiling, her eyes always looked like they were. 

They made her look like she was smiling even on the inside. 

Flashback: During high school when the first time they spoke to each other.

I blushed as I watched her wipe the blackboard and thought that, 

She's cute. 

End of Flashback

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