POV- Enzo

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Devastation, that was all I felt. She was gone. Natalie, if only I had just stayed and helped you fight off that rogue. It is all my fault you are gone. You must hate me now. After all you have done for me, you only got paid with your death. I did not have nearly enough time with you. WHY? Why, does everything bad happen to those I care about! I am nothing but bad luck.

Staring at Natalie's body fueled me with guilt.

*Flashback 1*

"Enzo! Enzo, come try the cookie I just made with mommy! They're so good!!," Laughing she held a cookie towards me. The cookie was so good. "You make the best cookies Natalie" "Hey what about me you little cookie monster" "You make good cookies to mommy but sisters are better" With a giggle, Natalie ran over and hugged me.

*Flashback 2*

"Natalie? Why does Daddy not like me?" "What do you mean, Daddy loves you a lot, he just doesn't show it." "Do you love me?" "Yes, I love you so much that I will kill anyone that hurts you" "Hahaha, I got the best sister in the world."

*Flashback 3*

"Natalie, what happens to us when we die?" "The moon goddess takes us into her arms and guides us to the afterlife where you hang out with all our ancestors." "Am I going to die?" "Yes, but not tell you're very old. Everyone dies and some point." "When I die, I want to be buried right here" "Enzo, when I die I want to be cremated and laid to rest right under this tree. I also want you to be the one who puts me here alright." "Alright" "Promise" "I promise"

(End of Flashbacks)

I have had so many great memories with Natalie. Natalie has been there and saved me so many times. But, yet, when she needed me the most I was not able to save her. The moon goddess must be so disappointed in me.

Nate must hate me. I can not even face him. I could have saved her but, I didn't. The only thing I can do now makes the journey back home and put her to rest under our favorite oak tree. Natalie, I am so sorry. If I can go back in time I would. I hope that fulfilling my promise sets things right.

I am going to take this journey alone. I don't know how I am going to tell Lycos, but I hope he understands. This journey is something I need. This journey is going to be my road, my path, my way to heal.

The pack members put Natalie's body in the furnace. Wet drops began to hit my cheek.

Natalie, I will miss you and love you until the end of time. I know you are safe. I know you are happy and I hope one day we can meet again and live a happy life together. One where we don't have to fight the world around us. I promise you that I will continue on living just as you would have wanted me to.

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POV- Lycos

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When Enzo woke up he was told about Natalie. He was as devastated. To be honest, even I was devastated. Natalie was a dear friend, a sister and the closest thing to a luna this pack has had in a long time. She was so excited when she learned she was going to be the one teaching Enzo how to be a luna. I still remember how she screamed and jumped up and down promising she wouldn't disappoint. I knew she wasn't going to disappoint. I can not believe we lost her. Everything is going to get harder from here and I don't know how we are going to do this.

And Nate, poor Nate. I don't know what I can do to help and I feel so helpless. I am an Alpha god damn it, I should know how to help him right now. But, I can not even approach him without having a breakdown of my own. I should have know..., I should have prepared better. I wished I never had that stupid festival. If only...

Everywhere I walked, every time I closed my eyes I can see her. I see her doing tasks, laughing, and hanging out with people. I know she is not there but I continue to see her. When I walk past my door I can hear or voice threatening me. I feel as if I am getting dragged into the ground and being swallowed whole. I lost someone. I was supposed to protect and keep everyone safe and alive, I couldn't even do that. I am a failure as an Alpha. I am so disappointed in myself.

I want to go to Enzo and make myself feel better but I can't do that. I don't get to feel better. Enzo won't even look and anyone right now anyway. He is taking Natalie's death harder than anyone else. I sometimes go to check on him only to find him laying on the bed staring at the ceiling unmoving. He barely eats and refuses to move. He only stirred when I told him about the funeral. I don't know if he went or not because only family was able to be there while the body was cremated. Goddess only knows what he is feeling right now. Even as his mate his other half, I have no idea how to help him. Goddess, help me. I am such a failure.

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Pov - 3rd

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Despair floated throughout the halls of the once joyful pack. Lycos and Nate were feeling so lost and helpless and for a while so was Enzo. Things change though and Enzo has found a purpose and a path that he believes will help heal his already broken soul. But, to do this Enzo must take a difficult path back to where it all began. Will this journey help him or break him some more?

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One day, the world stopped

Without any warning

Spring didn't know to wait

Showed up not even a minute late

Running faster than that cloud of rain

Thought that'd be enough

Guess I'm only human after all

I'm in a world of pain

Prompts me to press the dust-covered rewind

Dancing off-beat lying on the ground

Like an echo in the forest

The day will come back around

As if nothing happened

(Parts of lyrics from Life goes on by BTS)