Who am I without you?

A girl who’s scared and always blue

Closing my eyes, leaning to the side

Pretending you’re there, my head on your shoulder, your hand in mine

I don’t know how not to love you

And believe me, I don’t want to

I know you make mistakes as often as I change my socks

But I don’t really care

I’ll always be there

Maybe I shouldn’t be

That’s what everyone says to me

Why are you with someone who can’t keep his head on straight?

I don’t know, I say; this is not a debate

He’s the only light in my darkness

Even when I feel helpless

He is always there to hold my hand

To pick me up when I can’t stand

He’s the only one who understands

Why sometimes I cry in the middle of the night and can’t seem to stop for no apparent reason

Why my mood changes every few seconds like my body is the earth and my moods are the seasons

And while it makes him sad to see me sad, he can deal with that

As much as it scares me that he might not be able to

He might one day feel it’s too much to deal with and leave me for a more stable life

Somehow I believe he won’t

Somehow I believe he loves me

Somehow, I think, unconditionally

Which would only be fair

Because I run my fingers through his hair

After a night of crying over his lies

And I’m still here

I’m still in love

With a boy forced to be a man

A man who makes mistakes

Mistakes that make my heart break

My heart, which beats for him

And will, time and time again