Who am I without you?
A girl who’s scared and always blue
Closing my eyes, leaning to the side
Pretending you’re there, my head on your shoulder, your hand in mine
I don’t know how not to love you
And believe me, I don’t want to
I know you make mistakes as often as I change my socks
But I don’t really care
I’ll always be there
Maybe I shouldn’t be
That’s what everyone says to me
Why are you with someone who can’t keep his head on straight?
I don’t know, I say; this is not a debate
He’s the only light in my darkness
Even when I feel helpless
He is always there to hold my hand
To pick me up when I can’t stand
He’s the only one who understands
Why sometimes I cry in the middle of the night and can’t seem to stop for no apparent reason
Why my mood changes every few seconds like my body is the earth and my moods are the seasons
And while it makes him sad to see me sad, he can deal with that
As much as it scares me that he might not be able to
He might one day feel it’s too much to deal with and leave me for a more stable life
Somehow I believe he won’t
Somehow I believe he loves me
Somehow, I think, unconditionally
Which would only be fair
Because I run my fingers through his hair
After a night of crying over his lies
And I’m still here
I’m still in love
With a boy forced to be a man
A man who makes mistakes
Mistakes that make my heart break
My heart, which beats for him
And will, time and time again
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