After Ryker had dropped me off at home, I walked in to see my mom and mother sitting with my father.  

"I allowed you to be gay and I even gave a very nice boy my blessings, but he tells me you chose a boy named Ryker who acts similar to the one in our old town." He looks at me not saying anything as my mother looks scared and my mom bored. 

"Yes, father I have disobeyed your wishes, but I love him, and he loves me. We understand each other so well," I whined as I lowered myself on my knees. He began to laugh and stood up from his chair. 

"Love? You love each other but he beats you that's not loving, your mom had that sickness and I fixed it and I will fix you too." He walked toward my mother and grabbed her by the neck as my mom left and came back with all her belongings smiling. 

"Get rid of the virus to find the cure is what my father says." I burst into tears as my mom pulled herself away from them and grabbed me tight. 

"I'm going to get you back if you need anything I'm still here." He ripped her away from me and pushed her out of the house and slammed the door.  

"You would obey me she is not your mom I don't care if she gave birth to you that woman over there has been slaving away to keep you happy and healthy as she did nothing." He left the room as my mother came in and sat next to me smiling.  

"Do you want some hot chocolate with sugar just how you like it or just some marshmallows?" She asked like her husband just did not kick someone out of the room. 

"I just want you to leave me the fuck alone!" I ran up to my room in tears, locked my door and moved my dresser in front of my door. I could not breathe at all, it was like somebody was squeezing my lungs, it was getting dark I could not see everything was blurry. I became frantic. I was feeling numb. I wanted to feel something, I was becoming cold as my shadow loomed over me. "Where is it?. Where is it?" I threw stuff around until I found my lighter, I wanted relief I want to feel the scorching heat I deserved it im sick and disgusting why would anybody want me. I bent down in the corner of my room and flicked it on. I held it close to my legs and the tension in me was finally relaxing. I closed it and covered it up so Ryker would not be able to find it. I heard my window move then a shadow appeared and panicked. 

"When you didn't answer your phone, I knew you were doing something you weren't supposed to but burning yourself that's not what we do." Ryker came closer to me, and I saw a first aid kit. I burst into tears embarrassed he seen me this way. 

"Hey, it's ok sometimes we all have slipped the important thing is we try even harder, so it doesn't happen again." He applied ointment on my burn after cleaning it with water and wrapping it up. "See all better now." He stood up and took the lighter from me. I watched as he searched through my whole room and taken any lighters or sharp objects out of my room and bathroom and placed them all in a bag. He threw it outside and came back and sat next to me. I laid my head in his lap as he massaged my hair and sang to me until I fell asleep.