Autumn:
Unbelievable, remarkable, perplexing .... despite my knowledge of this situation.
I have a mate ? I cant just push her away,maybe I could..no stop it, stop thinking like that. That's what got you into that mess in London.
Nobody and I mean nobody wants a repeat of that.
Lets just say that there was a reason That I left London.
I could have stayed, mom could have found someone else to cover the u.s but I just had to go and get my heart in a tizzy and had to move back here.
three years ago I was transferred to a school called crest hill preparatory academy. It was very posh, had a good sports program( not that I played any) I was assigned to a girl named Cali nickson. Moms said that they got word that there was a new werewolf in this school. And I of course was tasked with guiding her through her first transition , and bringing her to my moms school for supernaturals. After months of telling her about who she was and befriending her , she transitioned. It went smoothly and I was set to start on a new mission soon. And I brought Cali to the school, after two weeks I was set to leave. Cali didn't want me to..
" Autumn you cant leave !!! " she said with tears brimming her eyes
" Cali I have to theirs nothing for me here I have a job to do.."
" wrong you have me, I'm here And I need you "
" no You dont, and I cant stay here I dont even have powers, and I'm not a werewolf like you"
she seemed to think long and hard before she spoke
" you have to stay because your my mate and I need to make sure your safe "
Those past months being with her made me closer to her and we both grew to like each-other. I Knew that it couldn't last but In that moment I felt hope because she offered me a solution. A way to be with the person That I love. My moms agreed to let me stay at the school because I was Cali's mate.
At the time I had no idea that Cali had lied about me being her mate, I should have known really I mean sure I loved her But I didn't have that pull like mates have towards each-other.
I guess it was the guilt or the disappointment that I wasn't her actual mate that caught up to her and made her how she was .
In those following weeks and months she had begun to feel the pull to her actual soulmate and it made her mad that it wasn't me. I guess that I was the only one for her to take her frustration out on because she did.
She would get mad at me all the time telling me that I was a waste of time and saying that she made the wrong choice. She basically just treated me like crap. She would always pull me back in right as I was close to caving , saying that the stress was to much for her and that she stupidly took it out on me.
I always believed her, and I always forgave her...
It took me a while to realize that the Cali that I loved wasn't there any more. But when I did, I knew that I was done putting up with her crap.
I went up to her one day after school,and did what I thought I would never have the guts to do.
" Cali I need to talk to you" I said with a week voice.
At the time I would always talk quietly and could never meet anyone's gaze when speaking to them.
she huffed and turned her head to me
" Ok so talk" I was always bothering her when she was doing something. That was one of the things she always reminded me. That I talked to much and that anything I said was a waste of time.
I didn't speak for a while when I felt her grip my chin and force it upward to look at her.
" I said talk " she said with a melicous tone
I stood up straighter and with little pride and confidence, said..
" I'm breaking up with you, the love that I feel for you is gone. I know that your my mate but I cant go on like this"
the fact that she was my mate is what kept me in the relationship and made me have to deal with all of her hurtful words. That's why what she said next broke my heart.
she sneered " what ever , your not my mate any way."...
and then she walked away...
A year and half... I stayed in that dreaded relationship for a bloody year and a half , for nothing.
she wasn't my mate, she didn't even care about me,she lied to me. And I didn't see through it, I believed everything she said to me.
Make no mistake I didn't break up with her because I was sick of the lies she was telling me about myself. That I was a waste of space and that I couldn't do anything right, that my birth parents were appalled by me an that that's why they got rid of me .
I believed her , every word she said, I hated myself I really did, And That's why I couldn't do it any more.
after I broke up with her I left the school and just stayed with my moms for a year. They refer to this year as my " rejuvenation" year. I spent it regaining my confidence and convincing myself that all the lies Cali spread were just that, lies . ( it takes more time than you would think).
I now have my confidence back and my old self back,
But despite what I try to tell myself, this situation was too similar to Cali.
Even though I know that river is in fact my mate. I'm scared that the same thing will happen , but this time there would be no real way out , because she WAS my mate.
And I know that river wouldn't hurt a fly and that she is everything that I would want my mate to be and more( despite me only knowing her for a day)But that's how Cali was when I first met her too.
And There is no way that I am going through that again.
So instead of trying to get over my fears like I always do, I lead with them for the next few months and just stick to being friends with my mate, no matter how futile It may seem.
After leaving river's house:
Now that river knows about who she is I have to tell my mom's
Its always my job to report back to them when I find out information and other things.
This time though I also had things that I needed to know. It was there turn to answer some of my questions for once.
I took the bus back home, me and my moms lived in a nice town that was relatively close to the school that they owned.
Sometimes Ginny or Jess would stay at school overnight if there was work that needed to be done.
If Oliver weren't in the picture I'm sure that they would be home a lot less. Well that and them checking on me constantly making sure that there isn't a repeat of the Cali fiasco.
They were skeptical when I said that I was ready for another mission at the beginning of the year, they thought it was me trying to avoid my feelings and use something else to forget them.
It took them a lot of convincing for them to let me start a new mission. When they found out that river was a supernatural they knew that there was no one more fit for the job. And they let me have it. Which I was super happy about.
After so many years of doing this it was weird not having to force my way into peoples lives, I actually made new friends on my own with out an alter er motive....
Ok yeah nvm that's a lie , Last year was awful I was going to a normal school and was just their to learn and make friends. I did learn of course but I didn't make an effort to have Friends. I wouldn't know how to maintain a genuine friendship. The only real friend that I have ever had was Cali( and that didn't go very well). So needless to say its nice doing this whole mission routine thing again .
When I finally get to my house and open the door I'm greeted my younger brother Oliver .
" hey sissy where were you ? "
" I was at my new Friend rivers house "
His face lit up and he started jumping up and down .
" you have a Friend !!!! yay I bet she's really nice !!!"
I laugh
Oliver is the nicest 7 year old that I know ,I love him with all my heart .
My moms adopted him a couple years ago when he was 3 . He fit right in and has been apart of the family ever since .
" she is really nice and I'm sure that she would love to meet you !!!."
He shakes his head eagerly " yeah sissy you better ask her soon !!"
" of course Ollie , but for right now I have to go talk to mom and mamma about something "
" ok awi, goodnight"
That's what Ollie called me when he was three because he couldn't say my name and it stuck .
" goodnight Ollie"
And with that he runs off into his room . Probably to play with his toys for a little bit before moms inevitably make him go to bed .
I walk into my moms room and see my moms both on their bed . Mom (Ginny ) was sitting criss cross doing paper work, looking very focused . mamma ( Jess ) was leaning against the bed frame, tucked under the covers,with a book in her hand .
I didn't want to interrupt their quiet time but it had to be done .
I gently knocked on the door and walked further into the room .
" mom, mamma "
They both looked up from what they were doing with a surprised expression on their faces . They were clearly very invested in what they were doing and didn't notice that I was there .
" yes sweety " mamma said with a sweet but gentle smile .
" i think it's time that we talk "
Moms both looked at each other and back at me . Mamma had her hand on moms and squeezed it gently.
" yes honey we do " mom said almost as if she knew that I had tons of unanswered questions .
Though with me being adopted ,powerless,and not knowing who my parents are , I guess it's natural that anyone would think that I have a lot of unanswered questions .
Authors note: sorry it took so long for an update ( writers block ) I really I hope you like this chapter. I know that it wasn't very happy go lucky but it dives in deeper to autumns past which I think is important. Anyway have a great day !!!
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