Bella’s pov

It's been three days since Beatrice's been in this school and every second has been torture

There was just something about her that drove me fucking crazy, maybe it was that stupid smirk she always had on her face

She was intimidating. She was gorgeous, and it was freaking me the fuck out

I'm not gay.

I never questioned myself before she came here, so her presence wasn't that thrilling for me

I've never wanted someone so bad

And I hated myself for it

I'm disgusted by the thought of even being gay, it's all I was thought growing up. My grandmother was the only person I had when I was younger. My father was always working and my mother was always away on her pointless business meetings to another damn country

My grandmother basically raised me, we were one. She taught me everything I know now, that includes the dislike for the gays

I had no idea what this feeling was, I was fighting myself everyday to control it but it's so hard

Her eyes, God her eyes made me weak. She makes me melt when she smiles and I hated every part of it

I have a boyfriend.

Who's always groping me. But that's normal right? Men want to be an alpha, they need other men to know what's theirs. I just wished he wasn't that rough. It's not like I could break up with him, he's the quarterback. It's destined to be.

The cheerleader and the quarterback

It's the way it's always been. Not the cheerleader and the new girl

Speaking of which, I should probably meet her so we can work on this project

I walked to the parking lot to meet Beatrice, my eyes met the girl. She was leaned against her car-

Can we talk about that for a second? How the actual hell did she have a fucking Ferrari. Who had that kind of cash to give their daughter a car like that to drive to school?!

As I got closer, I noticed a girl tangled between Beatrice's legs. The girl had her Twigs she called fingers on Beatrice's waist. What the fuck was going on? I felt a rush of anger wash over me

Beatrice's head tilted back laughing at something the bitch said, you've got to be kidding me

"Hey, you. Yes you, scram before I tell everyone that your father works at the ice cream shop downtown" I spat, the bitch trembled in her socks and ran off like a wounded deer

"You really mean you know that?" Beatrice said

"I didn't do anything" I shrugged

"Are you kidding me? What's your problem, she didn't do anything to you. There's nothing wrong with her father, it's a job that pays" she said, her eyebrows furrowed and a disgusted look landed on her face

"Listen, she can stay home and do that gay stuff. We're in a parking lot and you should know better" I rolled my eyes

"Gay stuf- ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW" She screamed

"Can you keep your voice down, there's no need to yell" I said

"I'll yell if I fucking want to. You, Bella have some serious fucking problems, there is literally nothing wrong with being fucking gay. I'm FUCKING gay, do you see anything wrong with me?!"

"Yes, you're a maniac" I chuckled

"Shut the fuck up" she spat. Excuse me?

"Why don't you fucking make me" I said, who does she think she is

I instantly regretted my words. Before I knew it, I was pinned against the car door. My hands on either side of my head. Beatrice's soft lips crashed down on mine. For the first time, I felt something.

The fireworks erupted in my stomach, I felt the hair on my neck stand up. A tingle ran down my spine.

Her lips were soft and delicate, they fit so perfectly with mine. I didn't fight, how could I? This felt amazing. My knees buckled under her touch but she held me in place, I felt weak. She made me weak.

Her body was pressed against mine, trapping me from struggling out of her grip. My breathing became ragged, I felt the heat rise through my body but Beatrice pulled away. I felt bare

Her eyes locked with mine, I noticed her pupils were fully blown. I'm sure mine was too

"Now get in the car before I fuck you right here." she said in a raspy voice

I swallowed a lump in my throat when the words left her mouth. She pulled herself away and got into the driver's seat. I stayed in place trying to make sense of what just happened. I just kissed Beatrice Amon. 

And I liked it. Goddammit I liked it.

I shook my head and ran to the passenger seat. Beatrice started the car and pulled out of the parking lot.

I turned to face her, Beatrice focused on the road not paying any attention to me. I turned back to face the window, my fingers touched my lips that were still tingling.

How could I let this happen?

I kissed a girl and liked it

What does that even mean?

Am I gay?                             

There's no way right?

I've dated guys before, I never found myself attracted to another girl before Beatrice. But I've never felt that before-

Ugh it's too confusing.

As my thoughts raced, I hadn't noticed we were driving for half an hour. We came to a halt at a tall white gate. An elderly man waved at Beatrice before buzzing the gate open

As the gate parted, my jaw dropped.

Holy shit

Beatrice drove up to a mansion-

No, a fucking castle.

This place is huge

Does she live here alone? I recalled her saying her father wasn't with her. Maybe she was with her mother?

Beatrice parked the car and we both got out

"You live here?" I questioned

"Yep" she said popping the p

We walked to the door, a woman around our age let us in. The inside was even more gorgeous, the stairways were elegant. A golden chandelier greeted me the second I stepped foot into the house

"Beatrice....... I wasn't informed that you were having someone over" the woman said

"Well I guess this just adds to me not being responsible" Beatrice said blanky, the woman's face was now filled with guilt

"Listen to me Olivia, you WORK for me, I've been too nice and allowed you to treat me like someone below. You don't show me any respect and you just think I'm an irresponsible teenager. It's gonna change today Olivia, whatever I say, you'll do without questioning, do you understand?" Beatrice said, her fists were clenched

"Yes Miss Amon" the woman said, her head hung low as she walked away

"Come on," Beatrice said as she walked up the stairs.

We went to her room and all I could say was wow. Her room was bigger than my living room. I stared in awe as I admired my new surroundings

"You don't mind if I get changed do you?" she asked, I shook my head and she walked to the built in bathroo-

She has a built in bathroom?!??

I sat on the sofa in the room, Beatrice came out of the bathroom with shorts and a t- shirt in her hand. My mouth went dry as my eyes trailed up her long creamy legs. My eyes store a quick glance of her chest.

My fucking God she's gorgeous.

"So, where do we start" she smiled and slowly pulled the shirt over her head, she made her way over to the sofa and sat on the opposite end

"Um, maybe you can go first" I said as I pulled my notebook from my bag

"There's really not that much to know about" she chuckled. Is she being serious right now?

"Who's the woman downstairs?" I asked

"My father's assistant" that makes sense

"What happened?" I questioned, Beatrice pulled herself to the center of the couch

"Meh, I was being a little dramatic, I'll apologize later. But she just... Thinks I'm young and irresponsible, she's literally like 2 years older than I am" Beatrice shook her head

"So it's just the two of you in here?"

"Not exactly, I have a bodyguard but you can't see him" she chuckled. Is she lying?

"Are you lying to me?" I asked

"No, I'm not supposed to say anything but I can't lie to you" she said. She had a bodyguard? Wow

"How can you have a bodyguard, is your father a part of the government?"

"No, but he's the best of what he does"

"Is he the mafia?" it's the only explanation

"No" she chuckled, dammit

"Where are you from Beatrice?"

"Hell"

"It's a simple question, you don't have to joke about it"

"I'm not joking" I sighed. Totally.

"How about, I ask you some questions now?"

"Lay it on me" I smiled

"Siblings?" she asked

"No I'm an only child"

"Do you have any pets?"

"I do, his name is Buddy. He's a Siberian husky and it's exhausting to keep him clean" we laughed

"I've never had a pet, maybe one day I'll meet buddy" she smiled

"Now, are both parents in your life?"

"Yes, but my mom is usually away on some trip and my dad is the Principal, when he's not at school, he's away to some meeting since he's running for senator" I said

"So you're lonely?" she questioned, I was, wasn't I? I'm alone inside

"If you're gonna be bold, then yeah I am. Most people are too scared to even talk to me aside from Zack and Joanna. I usually just go with the flow to keep it that way, even if it meant making them cry."

"That's not an excuse to make someone feel bad for themselves, the words you say to someone can affect them for the rest of their lives Bella" she said, I ran a hand through my hair. She was right

"I can't be known as the nice girl, they'll have my head on a stick, I worked hard to get on the top. I'm not gonna let that be taken away from me just because a few people couldn't handle a few remarks"

"Bella, are you listening to yourself right now? You sound fucking naive"

"what did you just say to me?!"

"See, you can't even handle me calling you naive. How do you think those kids feel when you tell them worse?" Beatrice said

Oh-

She has a point. Damn.

"Most kids aren't that brave to speak up to you, some are weaker than others. Some even take their lives" she said

I felt a ping in my chest, the guilt washed over me. I never realized how serious this was. I knew I was a bitch, but I never realized how much it hurts the people I'm a bitch to

"You've got to work on that Bella, I want to see the best version of you" she smiled, my heart swelled

"You're really sweet, you know that?" I said, her grin got wider

"So I've been told" she chuckled

"Are you okay?" she asked

"I am, you just opened my eyes" I smiled weakly

"Glad I can help" she smiled

"Do you wanna watch something? I think Netflix has some new stuff. I spent the past 3 days doing nothing but binging shows" she said walking over to the bed and patted a side for me to join. Do I really want to be on her bed?

Yeah I do, I walked over and placed my back against the headboard. Beatrice laid in bed, her head propped on her arm

"What's sexting?" she asked out of the blue, I almost choked on air.

"What?"

"Sexting, that girl in the parking lot said she loves sexting and she gave me her number"

"For someone that brave to sext she sure seems to be a scared little bitc-"

"Easy now" Beatrice warned

"Fine, sorry. Sexting is like, dirty texting. You tell each other what you want to do to them, how bad you wanted to take them. To have their hands all over you" I said, our eyes locked. Beatrice's eyes left mine to stare at my lips and return back to my eyes

I couldn't handle this, It was killing me inside. I wanted to reach over there and kiss her again. Her eyes were taunting me, those lips just begged to be kiss

I grabbed her shirt and pulled her body to me, I connected our lips.

A warm glow spread across my chest. The heat ran through my body once again. It was just our second kiss but I knew I would be addicted.

The butterflies erupted from my stomach, Beatrice's hands were on my waist, her touch felt like fire to my skin. What was I doing? It felt so wrong but it felt so right.

I had to stop, I just had to. Ugh but I really don't want to.

I pulled back, my chest heaving heavily. I shut my eyes tightly trying to come down from my high. I didn't have to balls to look her in the face

"Hey, look at me" her fingers were on my skin, she raised my head up to face hers

"I'll take you home if you want to," she said sadly. I nodded

"I'm sorry if I crossed any line, I shouldn't have assumed anything between you and your boyfriend yesterday. And I shouldn't have kissed you like that today in school. I'm sorry" she said, I bit my lip nervously

"Let's go" she tilted her head to the door, I got off the bed and walked to the door, Beatrice came down the stairs with her keys and almost nothing on, was she gonna drive wearing shorts and a t- shirt?

I got into the passenger seat and she started the car. Beatrice drove me back to my house, I waved her goodbye when I got to the door

I locked the door and went straight up to my room throwing myself on the bed with thoughts racing in my mind and a mix of emotions.

I had the greatest kiss of my life today and it made me rethink my whole life. There was no one I could talk to about this, I had no idea what exactly I was feeling but it becoming overwhelming to not act on

My phone vibrated in my pocket, I pulled it out to see a message from Beatrice. I quickly opened the chat

Beatrice: btw your lips are my new addiction. Sweet dreams Princess

I'm so fucked.