"Did you wait me that long? I'm sorry, I'm sorry. "
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It's been half decade since he disappeared. No one knows if he's dead or still alive. But still I'm here waiting for him because he promised that he'll comeback. I guess it's mind over matter to me.
Everyone give up to wait for him and slowly they left. What's their reason? "Promise are meant to be broken." I know but if no one will believe in him then I will, since he promised to me not to them.
Day after day, week after week, month after month, and year after year. I almost forget to go to my house because every second, minutes and hours are important. Anytime he can be here.
After I waited I saw him so now I chase. I chased him because I knew that there's new, but it's still him but I don't know how to accept what I've learned.
Amnesia. He have that, some says he got into accident and all of his memory where erased. That's why I decided to chase him.
"Morning, love. Are you okay?" I asked him casually. He looked at me like I'm a stranger to him that makes my heart aches.
"Good morning, Jimuel. Are you okay?" Yes, there's someone that I think who replaced me to his heart. I saw how genuine his smile while answering.
Every day I had to kill myself in order to see him good. I've got myself depressed but that didn't matter because it's only him matter.
"It's driving me nuts, I really don't know who's the real girlfriend of patient 3 of room 201." That's Alex, yes his name is Alex but I don't know why she's calling him Jimuel.
"It's actually Anna, beh. It's been forever since they become couple, they are the couple I envied the most. I really don't know where that Gina come from and being antoginist of their love story." T-that's too much. Did they know how many years I've waited? Did they know our story? To call me the antoganist.
That week I didn't go to hospital. I can't do it anymore, how dare them to talk to me behindi my back. They just judge me without looking the background story.
I'm done. I already make myself look pathetic.
"Gina, what are you doing? Do you think Alex will comeback to you, if you do those things? You wish, he's not coming back to you anymore. He's mine again, he love me again. How would he going to look at you? Pathetic." She's Anna, our bestfriend. We've been best of friends since kindergarten but she left with no goodbyes. I know she's the love of his life, I just make it me because I stayed but I think it's not enough. He's into her again just like before so what the use now, right.
"Love, I love you." I miss those lines.
"Promise no matter what happen I'll comeback, okay. So wait me please." That's his last word to me. We didn't do a break up but for some reason I think that's not necessary anymore.
"You said you promise but now you're happy with her again. Anna's right, if she didn't left, you'll never look at me. Why I'm being like this? I'm fooling myself and becoming the worst because of you." Now, my final decision is to die. What's the use of this life? There's none.
No one is there for me, just him. I'm an orphan, no one trust me because I'm a former thief. Anna, Anna is not nice to me either, she's just nice to me when Alex is around.
I'm ready to jump when someone hug me from behind. I can't help but to cry like a child because I know who is it. I now feel it, I'm home.
"Shhh... you'll turn into ugly woman if you're not going to stop crying." It's so like him. I wish this isn't a dream. I want to feel his warmth, warmth that can make feel I'm home.
I don't want to make myself hope more to those dreams every night. So please self you need to wake up.
"Shhh... I'm sorry I've made you cry again." I can't believe it, is this really true? He's really crying.
"Did you wait me that long? I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
"I-i want to wake up please let me go." I tried hard not to stutter but failed.
He turn me around and kiss me. I can feel so much love and passion. It feels surreal yet still feel unreal.
"Still silly as always. You really can't figure out what's real and what's the dream, don't you?"
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