My 'friend' is not always kind,
in fact he's often very unkind.
Spitting words of hate into my mind
as if these thoughts were mine.
But they are not,
they couldn't be.
I wouldn't think such things.
My 'friend' is considered
a mental disease.
He squats inside
occupies my mind.
Everyone tells me
he isn't me,
as if we are separate
entities.
But you see
we are, whether I like it or not
combined to this one body and soul.
Together entwined forever enshrined.
Sometimes he makes me want to die
but other times I feel more than alive.
I feel so much happiness I want to burst,
like popping a balloon and all my happiness
will be released into the world.
You may not understand,
why I'd choose to defend
my 'friend'.
But he has stuck with me
to the very end.
He's been there
when no one else was.
I know he can seem all bad,
but I choose to find the silver linings
hidden within him.
He brings me joy,
a mind full of creativity.
A mind that can sit here now
writing this poem.
Without him I simply would not be me.
I could focus on everything bad he's caused
to happen in my life, even when he's attempted
to drive me to suicide.
But that would be wasting my life
So I choose to find the light,
the good inside of him and,
well, me too if I'm honest.
My 'friend' is Bipolar.
He is both
Ying and Yang,
Darkness and light.
So you see without him
my life just wouldn't be right.
- Erin 29th June 2020
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A poem about my experiences with Bipolar and trying to find some joy in the dark.
TW there is one mention in this poem about how my Bipolar drove me to attempt suicide. The poem is not graphic nor references this in great detail the poem itself is about finding the good, in essence it is about as everything in this series, recovery and examines my journey towards that, including accepting my illness for all its good and bad because there is some good despite what I used to think or others may think.
A collection of uplifting poems with a focus on mental health & recovery. A lot of these poems document my own feelings & journey to recovery. I also tackle the stigma surrounding mental health. This collection is here to provide some positivity in a world full of negatives. It is here to remind you that recovery is always worth it.
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