M A L I K
Summer break was half way through and I couldn't be more happy.
In all honesty I thought I'd spend the time avoiding my family and staying home bored out of my mind.
But Calvin changed that.
We started talking more after the night he found me sleeping outside. That turned into us watching movies together every chance we got. He said he loved how I talked to the TV as if the people in it could here me, but I thought it was plain embarrassing.
But I liked the way he made me feel around him. I was comfortable and felt protected and taken care of. Also the flattering of my heat and fire on my skin when we touched accidentally was more than welcome.
He made me happy.
Something I never felt before with anyone else.
I knew from the first moment we laid eyes on each other that he was different.
I was falling madly for him but I doubt he'd like me.
I mean I've seen the guys he likes. Small and adorable which I was far from with these muscles. Most guys felt intimidated by me so I dated girls mostly but when I guy actually liked me the expected for me to top which I didn't like, I was a bottom through and through.
I wish I could tell him but I know how it would end so I'd rather settle for just friends.
C A L V I N
These past few weeks have been heaven.
That's is because of my baby boy.
He's so cute.
The way he'd blush when we touched. How shy he'd get when asking for me to do something. How adorable he'd look when he'd fall asleep on the couch when we watch movies. How he'd subconsciously hold on to me in his sleep and move away embarrassed when I woke him up.
I had to fight the urge to kiss him and even take him right then and there. I didn't want to scare him off by rushing things but the more we spend time together the more I just want him to be mine. So I can love him and protect him even though he looks like he could handle anything I know he's a big softy at heart. I love that about him.
I can't take it anymore.
So tonight I'm going to ask him to be my boyfriend. I'm very nervous I think I might shit myself. I've never felt this magnitude of feelings for anyone, even Jack.
No. Don't think about him.
Tonight, it's not about him it's about my baby Malik.
I had everything ready to go when he knocked on my door. The smile he gave me was the best thing I had seen all day.
Tomorrow was my day off so we planned for him to sleep over. Hopefully in my arms while I kiss him.
Things were going as planned. We had dinner, played some video games and now we were sitting with one blanket watching some movie I had watched before but I didn't mind Malik looked happy watching it and that's all that matters.
We sat at opposite ends of the couch our legs touching. But all I wanted was for me to crawl over to his side and give him kisses all over that beautiful face until he's a giggling mess then hold him all night.
I'm so whipped.
I need to calm down.
So I sat there and watched him. How his eyes moved with the characters, how his face lit up when he laughed. Fucking hell.
"Malik," I said still not taking my eyes off him.
"What's up?" He turned to me with great difficulty, he didn't want to stop watching.
"There's something-" I didn't get to finish my sentence there was a knock on the door. Who ever it was sure knew how to time. "Just hold that thought." I said making my way to the door. Honestly, I wanted to tear who ever that was a new one. But they didn't know so I'll try to keep my anger down.
When I opened the door I was met with a very nervous Jack. I rolled my eyes and proceeded to close the door but he stopped me.
"Don't please hear me out baby please," he begged pushing his way in my house. My anger was boiling. He stopped on his tracks when he saw Malik on the couch. They both just started at each other.
"Baby..." Jack called me, before I could respond and tell him to stop calling me that Malik looked hurt and got up.
"I'll just leave," he spoke sadly, I followed him.
"Don't go please there's something I need to talk to you about."
"It's okay, maybe later this seems important," he said looking past me to Jack who had made himself comfortable. I just wanted to kick him out.
"Just please don't sleep I'll come by I promise." I rushed out before he could close the door but I'm sure he heard me because he just nodded and left. I turned to face Jack, the sooner he say whatever this is the sooner I get back to my baby boy.
"So what do you want?" I said coldly standing in front of him.
M A L I K
I had to get out of there as fast as possible.
He was back, his boyfriend was back and I don't think I could have just sat there. It hurt so badly. I know his not mine or ever could be but that didn't stop my stomach from turning into knots and my heart from shattering.
I hated it.
I know Calvin told my to wait for him but, I doubt he'll come by. I don't think he priorities me above his boyfriend.
I sighed and made my way to bed and sat there letting tears just flow while I felt stupid until I finally slept.
C A L V I N
"I just wanted to apologize baby, but I came here and find another guy with you." He said looking angry crossing his arms over his chest.
Can you believe the audacity on this guy?
"You're a fucking hypocrite." That's all I had to say to bring him down a few notches. He looked guilty and sighed sadly.
"Look I'm not here to fight baby-"
"Stop calling me that and get to the point!" I hissed, he was beginning to get on my nerves. I would much rather be with Malik than having this pointless conversation.
"Okay," he shifted uncomfortably he could feel my anger, "I'm sorry for being a shitty boyfriend, even before...," He trailed off, he could even say he cheated, bastard "I was being unreasonable when all you ever did was love me, I truly sorry I screwed things up." He looked at me with teary eyes.
"Look, don't let this eat you up okay, I forgave you a while ago,"
"Really?" He asked all excited.
"But, we're not getting back together, what you did hurt me so much, after everything we had been through, for you just to betray me like that... Anyway what's done is done, I forgive you but I don't want you in my life anymore at least leave me in peace."
"Okay," he said sniffling getting up to leave, "thank you for forgiving me and hearing me out, I hope you find happiness." He said lastly then left.
What he didn't know is that, I had already found it. My happiness was right next door thinking I was getting back together with my ex.
I need to change that.
I made my way to his door and knocked on it. It took me a few more knocks before he opened it. His face was red from crying and eyes were puffy. He had a sad look on his face he looked surprised to see me. I did the only thing that came to mind.
I hugged him.
I wanted him to feel me so he knew it was really me standing there.
"W-what are you d-doing here, what ab-"
"Hey," I said softly cutting him off, I pulled away enough for me to see his face, "his gone . Can we go in and talk, there's something important I want us to talk about."
He nodded and led me further in the place. I may have been here a few times but we mostly spent time at mines.
He sat beside me looking down on his lap playing with his fingers nervously. I cupped his face which made him look up at me even more nervously now.
"Malik, be my boyfriend."
He looked so shocked he almost fell over the couch.
"But what about-"
"You need to stop that, I'm here with you not him, he's a none factor in my life. I want you I choose you, so will you be my boyfriend?"
"Are you sure, I thought you liked s-smaller guys," he's so adorable.
"I may have in the past before but now everything I want and need are right in front of me."
He lunged himself on me and I laughed slightly at his adorableness, kissed his neck. He sighed in relief.
"Of course I will. But I'm a bottom." He said as if it was something horrible. I smiled at him.
"It's okay, I'll take care of you." I assured him.
I cupped his face once more and brought his lips on mine and kissed him.