P1. Leaf of the First Observer

1. [ You are your own shadow,
not letting yourself move forward,
holding yourself back.
So, the sun of your next morning is not rising.

2. [ A student you are,
searching for the truth,
The lies you hear (connected to)
will be your truth, if you believe.]

3. [ Oh father you failed, the half of my previous being,
Yet the sense enlightened me
The justification of things empowered me
The right or wrong, there never was.

4. Peacekeeper, don't interfere
unless you are needed.
The Justice is not you,
but what you are about to do.
All that is 'just' will be lost
if your stand is out of balance.

5. Oh mother, you returned
yet leaving still is your routine.
You always liked to laugh such upset
You could have just asked to be helped.
I can not forget your choosing
That was never us.

6. Truth, that is an absolute
not a part of your play
Questioning, your confused intellect
Observing, what you have to say
Death, is an absolute
not what happens after you die.
order, is not an absolute
ahead, chaos seems to lie.
Mockery that was given
with your laugh and dance of lies,
There i was the absolute truth
as i was with me
saying you, good-bye.

7. The first is Fynema
the beginning of self
who lays emptiness to harvest existence.
The end will come
when the blueprint will be formed,
And the Fynema will be summoned
to end it all.
The layers of existence
there(then) will be more
Your new formation will be categorized
Only with your core.
Your believe, my believe
whose believe is best
In truth, no longer required
but equal to the rest.

8. A little beautiful boy
with a heart full of joy
cried inside me everyday
with fear, in my childhood.
The memories can never be lost
will stick with all my cost
May be i was the pain itself
I could have changed if i could.
then the sky was not blue
the shadow was not black
the colors were more colorful
now everything is just sad.
The hope is still shining
will it turned if i sleep?
My thinking is no more black and white
The more time goes, its more deep.

9. with your regret then guilt
the anger follows
with all errors and addiction
the balance hollows
The solitude, then depression
the day becomes night
All those friendship you had
seems no longer bright.
Fear imprisons you
makes you its bitch
All you had learned
seems as real as a witch.
All the horrors, more than you can encounter
they are here, just because you said 'no'
Welcome to existence
Is it precious or nothing but a show?

10. Beauty evolves precursor
the second conscious thing
the same soothing beauty
twice, he had never seen.
He tries to create a sequence
Death follows, everything fights
But the beauty, he once witnessed
does not make him any kind.
All he have is his power
and an army to set a bait
The big beauty will be coming
not so distant, not so late.
The ugliness is the truth
and what a beauty never does
It seems when beauty appears
nothing else seems to last.

11. And i was there
like any other human
noticing my ignorance
lies and theft.
The bird of fire will rise again.
- i said to myself
with a hope that i had left.
the bird of fire where it is now.
the bird of fire where it has gone.
The possibility arise
was it ever here?
the bird of fire
- is all i know how.
I was walking, in the last sunlight
slowly there, everything turned dark.
something inside was speaking
with all pain but clear
glory to your heart.
everyone will leave
until what truly yours
Now wait for a speck of light
a morning with your host.&
A morning that i promise
will be me, now what is you
the future from the valley
the valley with three of you.

12. Find your own way, find your own faith
Find your own rules to follow
A set of rules can save you,
The others are not you.
The savage you are
the animal within you
The human you are
All you make most are mistakes.
Sometimes you succeed
with mistakes or without it
Sometimes you fail
when more mistakes are made.
Out on the shore
Almost round, the earth is big
The bigger is the universe
This knowledge Leaf is my gift.

P2. Second leaf of Prayer

Where you felt the mockery of your heart
A girl just smiles with out a cause,
You and your brother should never be in opposite teams
With enough humiliation, there will be a monster lost.

You should have guessed, your father would become a lie
 And everything your fake mother would be a shell
You should have guessed, your teachers would have been that low
And every thing you deserved was none at all.

You showed them your kindness
In return they betray
You showed them your respect
In return they don't say.

In real world they eat you
they lead you to your doom
And you find the absolute truth
One that leaves no room

In the name of Fynema
The powerful of beings
 all my glory and powerful thoughts are given

Oh great fynema
The first of all things
Please give me your Essence and make me your equal.”

P3. Third leaf of Existence

“When your father gives you the sign that he is not your father anymore,
When your mother abandon you exactly the moment of your need,
You realize you are still a kid and all your friends are just the people you know,
You feel that if everybody dies today, it will be nothing to this big universe;

You can imagine yourself as big as the universe
You can think yourself as powerful as any God
But in your mind it always appears,
‘What will become of me or what will i eat today?’

You can become the king of the world
Or even spit on any ancient grave.
You can do everything all you want
But the thing you forget, we all are born and die the same.

Now close your eyes and see.
 the rise and fall of the ones before you
Do you think you have led better lives than them?
The same things that they did before you
You are just doing it with some layers.

The first was Fynema, the first thought of emotion, the beginning of all layers, to add everything layer by layer, to harvest everything just to end it to feed itself.

The second was precursor, who had seen Fynema and wants to see her again, for that he will do anything and move on from his previous life like a bird creating his next nest.

The third is phoenix, who falls just to rise again and again, give you the thought that practice makes a man perfect but in reality it doesn't because for human, mistakes are always there, even if they know nothing, anything or everything.
This three are human, beyond that is God.”

P4. Fourth Leaf of Believe

1. The voice was there, deep in my thought
The existence of the first conscious, as good as it got.

The name was repeated, The first, maker of laws
Laws that formed the universe, with all good and bad cause.

The effect is the now-universe
It has to be coded from the start
With general observation and logic
You can know it in your heart

 2. Your truth is where, more of you agreed
Your lie is where, more of you make it false
And yet the liars survives, Until the last one evolves.

3. A hero, may be he is to you
For others he can be a villain
So be always open-minded
Think and prosper upon what you gain.

 4.  The passing of first knowledge, starts somewhere from you (human)
You heard it from someone, then someone else heard it from you.

The knowledge then goes forward
Some of you make it more
Then someone else gets more ideas
Then begins an organized lore.

5. All the chaos slows down, temporary order comes into effect
Being alive and on sudden confusion
Your worshiping some God is set.

You question, when you get needy
You believe only to survive
With your all contradiction
You settle on, what you think is right.

You are here because somebody else have willed (will to have sex or other methods)
Your confusion drives you to know
Your ignorance makes you settled
Then you have very little to show.

Your pride gets in your way
You don't want any mockery
Your guilt makes you believe you deserve it
Your anger makes you feel sorry.

 6. Can you fight for what you don't believe?
Can you focus on what doesn't interest you?
Is it torture simply just to exist?
Then you are ready to be the who.

Do what you like, enjoy the moments you get
Experience, experiment, observe or disobey
Like or dislike, follow order or bring chaos
Everything is justified and everything is okay.

Predict and be smart, don't let others decide your true fate
Others are not you, even if they are your kins
Be nice when you are needed, they think love is a thing.
Be prepared or you will regret
In this world everything is a hint.