It was incredibly shocking, indeed. These were the only words I had found to express the feelings I had felt when they announced their names. The sun had begun to fade away for a few minutes now. After they had announced their human identity, the darkness was gradually taking over the light of the day.
"Hello everyone..." I finally said, feeling intimidated by their identity and the fact that we were all in the same class.
"No need to be so shy, we don't bite! We like to show our fangs but we never attack one of ours!" Said Sylvie in a reassuring voice and what looked like a smile.
"At least you're caring, not like someone else..." I said, glaring at Andy. "Unless some whose name I will not mention... Just follow my stare to understand" I added once again, wanting Andy to react.
"I needed a way to get you here. If I had left you, you wouldn't have come on your own." Argued the Alpha as if it was obvious.
"I'm sure that he never really hurt you... Or at least I think so. I think he can't do anything bad to you, it would be impossible for him to..." Started Sylvie before being interrupted by a warning grunt and a stare from her leader.
"If I didn't want to follow you, it's because I had my own reasons." I said, without paying attention to the wolf's remark. "I already have enough problems like that so if, in addition, he learns that I am here with you... I don't think he will appreciate it. I'm wondering what I'm doing here. I'm trying to escape from both of you and I'm on your territory at..." I started to nervously speak, my mind all over the place.
I suddenly stopped speaking, understanding the huge mistake that I had made by hinting at Raven in front of Andy. I turned my gaze away which was still looking at the red wolf. I had time to read in his pupils a sudden interest for this conversation. I was really talking too much and always when it wasn't necessary. Was I that stupid or clumsy? I think I was. I wanted to bite my tongue but I restrained myself as I wasn't in my human form at the moment. It was better not to play with my fangs, this could really hurt.
"Did you really say 'if he learns' and 'both of you'?" Andy asked me, interested.
"Of course not, you imagine things." I replied, sweeping a lot of snow with my tail to try to show my annoyance.
"I confirm what Andy said. You said both." Added Roy as to confirm what I did say to Andy.
"You misunderstood, that's all." I retorted, grumbling at him and not wanting to admit that they were indeed right.
"In that case, could you tell me what Raven's nauseating smell was doing in your room?" Grumbled the pack leader, anger shining in his amber pupils. What did he come to do at my home? When did he visit my bedroom? He had no rights!
This time, my eyes stared at him once again. Rage was shining in the depths of my blue eyes similar to the color of the ocean. He had gone too far on this one. I could understand that he entered my house to pick me up, even if I didn't like it, but to go into my room and search for clues or something else about my family or myself, I couldn't tolerate this. Him and I weren't close, I wasn't his boyfriend and I absolutely wasn't a part of his pack. I abruptly rose, lifting the snow piled up around my body at the same time. I sat facing Andy, planting my claws in the almost melted snow of the forest. My eyes stuck in his eyes and he could easily show all of the anger that I was feeling at that moment.
He had also straightened himself on his four red feet thus dominating me from his height which was much more imposing than mine. He had relaxed his aura that I usually loved and hated at the same time but, strangely, it didn't affect me this time. It was surely because of my anger that had repelled that power that usually put me on the ground, ready to obey him.
"You don't have the right to look into people's lives as you please! Who do you think you are, Andy?" I yelled, still in my mind.
"Your Alpha." The red wolf said in a calm voice as if it was obvious.
"Let me be clear with you. I didn't submit to you. I'm not a part of your pack so stop trying to take decisions for me." I articulated to give strength to my words and to show him how serious I was.
"It wasn't really the feeling that you were showing us earlier." He chuckled in a voice more and more hoarse as if it was funny.
"It wasn't me. It was my wolf. I would have never done that!" I said, taking a step toward him.
As soon as I did that gesture, he straightened up a little more without giving me a look. He had started grumbling more threateningly than ever. I had apparently reached the limits of his tolerance and I was crossing it right now. The rest of the wolves were looking at us with worried looks, not knowing if they should intervene or if they should let us. The pack seemed to prefer the second option, thinking it was too dangerous and suicidal to interpose with their Alpha. Especially with how angry he currently was so they discretely left us which made me a little nervous but I decided to ignore it.
"Don't play with me like that, little wolf... You know very well that you would lose." Andy affirmed in a breath, without giving up his position of dominance.
"Don't speak to me with that tone, cub... You know it has no effect on me." I growled, without submitting or giving up.
As soon as these words left my mouth, I thought that he would throw himself at me and scatter pieces of my body all over the floor but he didn't. His lack of reaction left me surprised. I didn't expect him to react like that, without showing me some distinctive signs of a real threat. Instead, he took a few moments to look at me, from top to bottom. He seemed to be thinking of something. I could see from his wandering pupils and he seemed lost in his thoughts. It stirred my curiosity but I couldn't let myself be overwhelmed by my feelings, not this time.
I had to keep my anger towards him to show him that I wasn't his little wolf or his private property. I felt my muscles tense over the silence that had grow in the minds of all the wolves present in the clearing which was bathed by the rays of the growing moon.
"When was your first transformation?" Finally asked me the red wolf in a calm voice.
"Why does it matter to you?" I questioned, the hairs on my neck had risen at that question. I wasn't expecting that. I expected him to get angry and attack me.
"Answer, that's all." He said to me, without bothering to give me more explanations.
"It's been four days that I was transformed. It was the night of the full moon..." I breathed, losing all my means under the reaction of Andy.
"Do you know who was the wolf who bit you and if he has already come to see you?" Asked me the Alpha.
"I don't see why I should answer you." I muttered, not meeting his eyes anymore.
"Was it Raven? If it's him, it would make sense that his smell was in your room." Said the pack leader.
"You annoy me so much with your stupid questions! I don't see why I should answer you!" I exclaimed as I turned around, determined to leave.
"That's what I thought..." He said, more for himself than for me or his pack.
Was I so transparent? I was annoyed. I didn't want to tell him about Raven's adventure at my home and now he had found my little secret by himself while I was trying to keep my distance from that subject. I took the path that Andy and I had taken to come here but I was hesitant to leave this place where I felt safe. I took one last look over the white fur of my shoulder before letting my paws guide me to my house. I wanted to stay to learn more about them but the leader of the pack had me too exasperated and too upset.
Besides, he didn't try to stop me and a part of me was disappointed. I really didn't understand why, it was such a strange feeling. I let my nose guide me thanks to his sense of smell which was so developed. I remained attentive to every rustle of leaves, each movement of small animals that lived in the forest. My tail was low and almost touched the ground. Same for my head. At this moment, more than ever, I felt the weight of my new body weighing on me. I needed help for my problems and for the part of my wolf that I didn't know perfectly yet.
Four days that I was in this situation and, as if that wasn't enough, I already had other problems to manage than my sudden transformation. Two wolves, surely as powerful as each other who followed me wherever I went. Andy was already seeing me as a full member of his pack and Raven who didn't want me to approach his rival. Thinking about that, if that big black wolf was learning it, I was going to spend a bad moment if we ever met again. A familiar smell came into my nose as I finally approached my house. It was about time.
I was wondering if my mother had already returned and if she was worried for me. Thinking about that, I accelerated my pace. I did not want her to worry for me. I stopped at the edge of my garden to look at the interior of my home but nothing. No presence and no smell were noticeable. Before going through the door leading to the living room, I transformed myself. I hated this feeling. The pain was so strong at that moment that I really wanted to scream or faint not to feel this anymore. My legs finally changed into fingers, my nose shortened to leave room for a nose rather well drawn.
My pupils only returned to their normal size at the same moment that the quick pulsations of my heart began to subside. My cheeks were red, again and again. It was because of the change that costed me way too much energy for my taste. I looked at my completely naked body. My clothes couldn't survive the transition from my human form to my wolf form. My mother was going to have a fit when she would know that my entire wardrobe was to be renewed. I went through the door of my house, making sure to lock the door behind me.
No human outside could have seen me naked, it was too dark now to see anything. I was thankful for that. The moon had been hidden by deep black clouds during my return journey. I was exhausted and knowing that tomorrow was another day of high school didn't improve my condition, on the contrary. I put my hands on my hips, my mother would surely be coming back from work soon now. When I put my palms on the skin near my belly, I couldn't stop letting out a grimace of disgust.
It was time for me to take a shower. Walking in the snow and in the mud wasn't really visible on a moving wolf but it was very hard to hide on my naked human body. So I headed for the wooden stairs. I climbed the stairs four to four before carefully closing the door of the room behind me. Once in the shower, I took all my time, enjoying the caress of the hot water on my skin that allowed me to rest my mind. I closed my eyes, letting the hot water run down my face and the shapes of my body, making me feel a little more relaxed than a few minutes ago.
Half an hour later, I stopped the water from running. I was surprised to hear that a really heavy silence had settled into the house. A shiver ran through my body so I hastily dried my hair after putting on some clean underwear so I could get some rest in my bed.
I had been sleeping most of the day but the events that happened today had completely washed me out. I passed the brush one last time in my hear and suddenly stopped my movement. The bathroom door which was in my back had cracked slightly. This was showing me that a person had entered the same room as me.
My heart was pounding, who could it be? And what if it was Raven who found a way to enter my home once again? What if it was Andy who came back to clear things up? What if, when turning around, I found myself facing a wolf whose eyes would be full of anger? Slowly, very slowly, I started to turn around. I was scared and I was wondering which one of the two could it be. I was already thinking of a valid explanation to say to one of the two Alphas if they were to be in front of me. I let out a hiccup of surprise, letting my panicked face crumble.
Once that I was in front of the unknown person, I was able to release my breath which I had been holding since the door made a noise. I put my hand on my chest as if it would help me stay in control. I was so happy not to be facing a wolf. The person in front of me, watching me, looked worried while seeing myself. I must have looked completely horrified. I approached her to hug her, I wanted to reassure her. She hugged me back. I felt safe and the pulsations of my heart resumed to a regular rhythm. I was calm, once again. I wouldn't imagine how lucky I was that I had returned before her.
I couldn't see how I could explain her that I had become a werewolf just four days ago and that I already had two dominant males at my heels. A few moments later, I freed myself from the maternal embrace of the one I cherished so much more than my own life. After putting a kiss on her left cheek to wish her a good night, she watched me slip away toward my room. I couldn't repress my shaky walk even though my mother was watching every little single thing that I did. Did she suspect something? I had no idea and I would rather not know about it. I already had too many worries and emotions for today.
If I could avoid adding a huge problem to this already huge list, I would do it without hesitation. I went under the covers of my bed, immediately feeling the heat spread over my skin. After turning off my bedside lamp, I turned around several times in my bed, trying to find some sleep but it seemed impossible. The fright that my mother had inflicted on me had not helped at all. I had to calm down. Andy and Raven had done so much damage to my mind that I was wondering if, at that moment, a werewolf wasn't spying on me in the shadows of my closet.
This idea made me shiver. I had just managed to scare myself without the help of anyone. It was beyond my strength. I had just found a way to feel uncomfortable in my own bedroom. From now on, I stared at the furniture I had mentioned a few seconds earlier with a worried eye. I ended up finding sleep and it was filled with nightmares that were the more frightening ones than I ever had. My dreams were all about the same topic. The lack of freedom, death and especially a new feeling. It was a sensation that I couldn't ignore and that I couldn't name. It was too vague for me.
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