The sun was just and setting and you were sitting next to me. You with your pretty face and perfect life. And then there’s me with my ugly face and a life that isn’t perfect. You I was jealous of you. I knew I shouldn’t be but I was. But it’s not like I could help it. It was a habit of mine.

     As the sun finally set I let my thoughts settle and I relaxed. I looked at the stars sparkling in the night sky. Then, you sat up, you said you should go. I didn’t want to to leave me all alone, but I didn’t want to force you to stay either. So, I just said goodbye.

     I was alone now, alone with my thoughts. No one to distract me from the horrid things I would end up thinking. Even if we didn’t talk while you were laying down next to me it was enough to distract my mind. Now you were gone.

     I decided to go back inside. It’s better than getting eaten alive by mosquitos.  So I got up and went up the wooden steps to my back door. I twisted the knob and opened the door and went inside. And somehow, I managed to silence all the thoughts that were in my head and sleep.