Things are really hard for me right now.

What do I do?

Dad's sick and unconcious in the hospital. His liver is failing him fast.

I wish I had more time with him. Go fishing again like we used to when I was little.

Or just hang out and have more time.

He's my best friend.

I wont leave his side. I know it wont be long, and I'm scared. I don't know what to do.

I look at my dad and tears fill my eyes. How will I get through this alone?

Mom passed when I was born and it's ALWAYS been dad and I.

I left for college a few years ago to study business management, when dad fell sick.

He never told me. I kept contact weekly with him. Why would he not tell me!?

Dad's company was to be passed to me and to be honest... I'm not ready.

"Liam?" Dad's lawyer Mr. Chase stood at the door. He's been at dad's side since I was young.

I guess you could say I consider him an uncle.

"Hey Mr. Chase, what's up?"

"Can you step out for a moment? I need to go over a few things with you."

"Sure." I stand up and head out the door looking at my father over my shoulder.

"I'm really sorry to have to go over these things with you at a time like this,

but it needs to be done.

Robert wanted me to prepare you for the board meeting that's to take place after the event of his passing.

I understand things are complicated for you right now,

however,

Robert has his demands in place for you and for his funeral.

You only need to take a break and get through this.

If, in the event, you need anything.

Either myself or Robert's sectreary Ms. Kim are here to guide you through it all.

I'm sorry bud. He's the best guy I've ever known. Its' going to be hard on us all."

He pats my shoulder and turns to leave when I hear:

"CODE BLUE TO ROOM 104. I REPEAT CODE BLUE TO ROOM 104"

It hit my heart like hammer. That's dad's room!

I see the nurses and doctors running towards me but I can't move.

My body is frozen from the pain.

My mind is foggy and I feel like I cant breathe.

This is it. My dad's going to leave me.

I'm stuck in a trance which seems like forever, when the doctor and Mr. Chase put their hands on my shoulder.

"Liam?"

Tears are falling steadily. I look at Mr. Chase, "Make the preparations for dad."

He nods and turns to make some calls.

I look at the doctor, "Give me a few to say goodbye"

"Sure thing. Take all the time you need."

I walk into the room and see my dad lying there.

No more machines beeping.

No more tubes going into his body.

He looks peaceful. As if he's asleep.

I sit in the chair next to his bed and hold his hand.

The tears are never ending.

I close my eyes and lean my forehead to his hand.

I say my peace, in hopes he'll watch over me and give me strength to get through this.

How much I'll miss him and still need him.

After awhile I stand and kiss his forehead.

I whisper, "I'll see you again one day. I love you dad."

This time, I don't look back as I leave the room. I'll break down further.

"Mr. Chase can you please drive me home?"

"No problem. Let's go bud."

The drive home takes 35 minutes.

We live up on the hillside with a beautiful overview of the city.

It's a big beautiful one story modern home.

5 bedrooms 2 and a half baths with a garden and a pool.

Beautiful wrought iron gates sround the property.

Dad and I picked this house a few years before I left for college.

Well now, I guess it's just me now that lives there.

As we pull through the gates and up to the front, I thank Mr. Chase and let him know I'll be in touch.

I get out and stand there as I hear the car pull away.

I stare at the front doors. My heart is racing.

I know the pain that awaits me the moment I walk in.

The one person that will no longer be here with me.

Strength. I need strength.

I put one foot in front of the other and slowly walk up the four step that lead to the door.

I unlock the door and breathe deeply as I turn the knob and enter.

The lights are sensored as I enter and turn on.

Silence.

I set my bag down and slowly walk towards my room.

I want to sleep, to get through this night and figure things out tomorrow.

On my way to my room I come across the door to my dad's office, and though I know I shouldn't,

I open the door and walk in.

Shit.

I smell my dad immediately and I'm reminded of the memories and the pain soon follows.

He's gone.

He'll no longer sit at his desk and call me in here.

The pain is hitting me harder, and tears are falling without even blinking.

I can't breathe!

I clutch my chest where my heart hurts.

I need air!

I turn and run down the hall and back out the front door.

At this point I'm full on sobbing. It's finally hit me.

A breakdown.

I walk down the stairs and stop. I can't take the pain.

I fall to my knees. I need my dad. This hurts so much.

I close my eyes and try to control my breathing.

I can't. I feel like I'm going to pass out.

I open my eyes to try and ground myself back to reality.

Instead...

I open my eyes to this gorgeous man thats crouched in front of me.

Staring at me with longing.

All I heard his say was:

"Hello... My love."

Before the darkness surrounded me.