Probably because I had lived with it all my life. I repeated my silent walk as I finally began to believe in Raven's story. Arrived on the doorstep, I observed for a few moments my mother tidy up the shopping she had just done. I shook my head. The same smell from the day before emanated for her, from the house. The smell was even more persistent now. My throat was dry, my eyes stung and I knew that I couldn't stay calm.
"Did you meet someone, mom?" I ended up asking.
Her reaction arrived immediately. She stopped dead in her tracks, turned away from me. I couldn't see her face but I didn't want to face the reality. I approached, leaning against the back of the sofa. My mother had ended up turning her head toward me. She smiled as if nothing had happened but, with the smell that she was giving off, I could feel that she wasn't comfortable.
"I don't see what you're talking about, darling." She finally said.
"Lies..." I breathed.
"Come on, stop making up stories!" Answered Celine. "You know that you are and will remain my only baby."
"Tell me... From what disease did dad died?" I asked, watching her reaction.
This time, she tensed, her eyes became hard and she dared to cross my eyes. She gasped in surprise when she saw my wolf eyes. Hers had changed too, they had taken an amber color. I had no doubt, it was the same eyes as the female of the other day. My heart sank and I felt myself falling apart. I had trusted her and I suddenly realized that I was wrong. I felt betrayed and rejected.
"Why do you want to know that right now?" She asked me. "You never wanted to know, you always told me that it didn't interest you."
"How dare you hide that? I thought there were no secrets between us." I hissed, feeling angry. "You could have told me the whole truth! You should have confessed that you were an Omega and that dad was an Alpha and that I had brothers! You forgot me, you completely erased me. What were you thinking?! How could I be so naive? Raven was right. You're all weak... You, Andy, the pack... Everyone..."
"Don't go after her or Andy or your pack... Ethan, I think it's time to tell you the whole truth." Interrupted an unknown voice near the entrance.
I turned my head to see a man who shouldn't be older than my mother. He had brown hairs and emerald green eyes. He was finely muscled and his large size gave no doubt about his origins. The smell was suffocating me, it could only come from him. He was the source of this perfume of male Alpha. Hatred then crossed my body, it came from my mind and the one of my wolf. I hated the person in front of me. The coward who had ran away. The coward who hadn't protected his family and who had made me lose almost everything.
"You don't need to tell me the truth, I already know it by heart. You should know that a charitable soul revealed it to me. The person in whom I had the least trust told me everything while my loved ones left me in the dark. It's normal, don't you think 'dad'?" I snickered, sarcastically.
"What Raven told you isn't the truth. Listen to me, Ethan." He shouted, taking a step in my direction.
"Don't approach me!" I said, taking a step back before looking at him disdainfully. "I should consider you as a member of my family yet I hate you more than anyone else."
It was easy to hear a growl escaping from the back of my throat. I was on the verge of losing all control over myself. Betrayal, resentment, hatred... What powerful feelings. It was the first time since the beginning that I didn't feel any pain. It was probably the intensity of my psychological injury that prevented me from feeling anything. It didn't take long before I found myself in the living room as a wolf.
My lips rolled up, a threatening grunt coming out of my mouth. My blue eyes were fixed on my father who didn't move. He remained motionless while my mother approached me, without fear. Mother or not, if she took another step, I wouldn't stop myself from biting her arm that she was stretching in my direction. I had so much hate in me that I no longer made the difference between what I had to do and what I had to stop myself from doing at all costs.
Her right foot rested on the floor and my reaction was instantaneous. I tried to catch her hand in my mouth but a violent blow sent me over the couch where I fell heavily on the glass table that broke under my weight. I got up, shaking my head and I jumped on the couch to take a little more height. My hairs bristled, I kept my head up in front of the animal form of my father. I jumped on the ground to find myself at the same height as him, well he was still higher than me by at least twenty good centimeters. I was about to jump on him when a new, more familiar, more friendly smell caught my attention.
I turned my head brutally without erasing that threatening face. In front of the door leading to the garden was the one that allowed me to dream without being afraid of having nightmares. Andy, or rather his wolf, stepped forward, glancing at my parents.
"Ethan, calm down. I think you should listen to what they have to say." Mentally began the red wolf with amber eyes.
"Don't joke about that, Andy. What do you want me to do? Drop it?" I said, raising my voice.
"Exactly." Said the Alpha.
"I had forgotten that you were on their side. After all, you too had hidden this from me..." I grunted while turning to him.
The target of my anger had changed. My ocean blue eyes pierced his eyes. I walked dangerously toward him, he grunted and unveiled his fangs to warn me that I shouldn't cross the limits otherwise he wouldn't answer no more. I didn't want to attack him, my mind couldn't do it but my body moved by itself. My wolf, yet lover of this wolf, couldn't bring himself to leave this treason without punishment. I stopped in my movements when words interested me. I was sure it was a conversation that I should have never heard.
"Andy, we're going to arrive soon. We will surround the house. Should we make some noises?" Asked a voice, recognizable in a thousandth, Roy.
"Shut up, you stupid wolf! What if Ethan heard us? We are done." Growled Jack.
I glared at the Alpha who stepped back to block the way out. I turned around and saw that my father was guarding the main entrance. I grumbled, they wanted to keep me trapped here... I was pissed but I was much more disappointed with the behavior of the one I trusted the most. So many people had disappointed me today, I wondered who I could still trust. I turned my eyes slightly to the left and saw the big window.
"Ethan stay here. I think you really should listen to what they have to tell you..." Whispered the red wolf with amber eyes in a calm and soft voice.
"Go fuck yourself, Andy!" I exclaimed.
On these last words, I began to run and, at the last moment, I threw myself on the window that broke. I fell heavily to the ground before getting up with difficulty. I shook myself. My wounds from the day before were mostly still present but I didn't feel them anymore. I was shaky but I still started to walk to reach a very special place. I could already see that Andy would run behind me. I couldn't distinguish others paws to know if the whole pack was following me. I could only make out the distant sound of the paws of the pack trying to catch me.
My nose was wet, I pushed the movement of my legs to their maximum knowing very well that my Alpha would soon catch me if I didn't give everything that I had right now. The wind in my ears whistled, the dirt was stuck to my claws when they left the ground. The smell of the forest was present like the roar of the wolves behind me coming closer and closer. I began to wonder from where Andy's pack was going to come. I was trying to take the narrowest paths to slow down the pack leader. He was bigger than me so he would have a harder time following me.
It was at that moment that this smell that I wasn't used to smell came to take an important place in the forest. I was approaching the territory of the other Alpha. The air became more and more rare in my lungs. I slowed the pace before stopping at the border of the two packs. I turned, before me stood the red Alpha with amber eyes, the pack was going to come soon to swell the ranks.
"Ethan, come to me.." Whispered the Alpha.
I knew he was scared. He didn't want me to do what I had in my head, he wanted me to come back to him. That was what my mind was asking above everything else, the comforting fur of the one who animated my heart but my wolf had decided otherwise. He had been deeply hurt. Surely he had taken everything on him to not hurt me. My throat was dry, my nose was hot and my ears flinched.
"Don't think that I'm giving up on you. You've always been more than a friend to me..." I said.
"If you make this choice, never again I could forgive you. Be aware of that..." He answered in a nervous voice.
I tilted my head before turning around and joining Raven who was smiling triumphantly at his rival. Nobody had seen it happen, even me, I thought I was going to walk alone but I was wrong, once again. I growled at the black wolf who gave me a bad look. I should probably stay calm. A noise then came, sounding like a thunderclap. My body froze, it was the sound of a shot. I turned around as Andy crumbled to the ground, closing his eyes on me. Blood was flowing around his body as some wolves of his pack went in pursuit of the opponent while others were already trying to heal him.
I wanted to rush to see him, I wished I could help him, hug him, appease him, encourage him but now it was too late. Raven was pushing me toward the end of his territory. I turned my head toward the birth of the noise. The hunter was aiming at me, our eyes crossed and he hesitated. Then, on the order of my new Alpha, I had to start running but I had no trouble guessing who this person was, it was Jeremy. A bad thought passed in my head. If Andy had received a bullet, it must surely be a silver projectile...
I followed the black wolf, my head down. The questions were becoming more and more numerous in my head. Was I right? If I wasn't gone, could all this have been avoided? Could Andy have been saved? Was he OK? Was he dead? What was going to happen now? I might never know it or maybe one day in the future. I hoped the future would give me an answer sooner or later. I plunged into the darkness of the forest that before was bathed in light, my heart had gone from white to black but something remained intact. A flame that would never extinguish because I had gave it to someone.
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