Nicholas stood motionless. He saw Marcus' darkish eyes and felt once more the contact of his stroking arms along his palm, felt the tender kisses from his lips and tasted yet again the sweetness of his semen in his mworn-outh. He sensed that he would in no way do some thing that Nicholas didn't want him to do and - Nicholas nearly smiled - there was continually the possibility of being a top, that might honestly transfer the worry of being harm again. however in reality his frame craved to lie down and be caressed, to be taken and to be carried right into a kingdom of bliss he had so far not yet skilled.

step by step the rip had healed, likewise his heart. Nicholas knew that no longer all men would behave as Frank had worn-out. In fact there must be many men with whom it should be a satisfaction to love, without ache or abuse. He consoled himself with the thought that he only needed to maintain his eyes open.

Then he had taken a activity as a income clerk in a massive department store and spent his spare time painting.

Nicholas shivered. He turned on extra hot water and permit it splash over his frame. His frame cozy and he became aroused once more. final his eyes, he concentrated his thoughts on Marcus and the photograph of Frank diminished. His arms washed away the lather and Nicholas felt higher. tons better than he had for months. He heard Marcus' voice in his head telling him that he desired him, he wanted him to experience safe and had made no try to rape him. there was no check in Marcus' behaviour that he wanted to harm him. Neither with phrases, nor along with his frame.

Nicholas opened his eyes again. He grew to become off the water, stepped tired of the shower and towelled his body dry. you may in no way recognise, he stated to himself, how it's far to be loved by means of Marcus in case you never attempt it!

He worn-outtired himself in the big mirror. He was truly now not as good-looking as Marcus. Too slim however his flesh became within the proper proportions. His shoulders had been wide, his skin clean and he moved with a catlike grace.

He worn-out his tousled hair which, moist, seemed a whole lot darker and at his violet-blue eyes. He tried to smile.

all of sudden he turned, left the toilet and pulled on a gown which was hanging behind the door. once more he smelled the heady scent of lemons and cinnamon and something else. Nicholas realised it turned into the fragrance of Marcus; fresh and musky, masculine yet tender, both exciting and calming. His body felt at ease after the warm temperature of the water as additionally did his mind. What if he have to go to Marcus proper now and tell him the whole thing that had occurred to him? really it'd be good to talk of it, and the entirety else could be as much as Marcus.

might he want to be loved by him? To be touched inside the same manner he touched him? Nicholas' frame screamed sure, however his mind went similarly and puzzled what it would lead into. He wasn't prepared for all this. but how lengthy did he need to attend? There, so close, became a person who appears to love him. however then he had idea the identical abworntired Frank. His instincts didn't appear all that dependable.

almost without questioning, Nicholas left his room and stood at the bottom of the staircase. contrary a few light got here through the crack below the door. It ought to be Marcus' room. Silently, on bare ft, he walked over the thick carpet, knocked softly at the door and opened it. The room he stepped into turned into darkish however there was every other door from which the light changed into coming from. still silently Nicholas went to the open door. He determined Marcus mendacity on the bed on his stomach, his head resting on one arm, eyes closed. The mild from the little lamp on his nightstand made his face soft and secure like that of a little boy. Nicholas stopped with the aid of the bedside and knelt down.

Marcus opened his eyes. In a 2nd he sat up and watched, almost disbeliev