Chapter 5 

    The beautiful flowers around me fill the air with a pungent fragrance, almost like a perfume. I think I’m outside, the sun is scorching. The air is thick like I am inside some kind of forest. I open my eyes and look around at my surroundings. There’s a blanket and a spread of food laid out perfectly. Muffins, cheeses, meats and crackers lay on a large plate. There’s a creek to my left, making a beautiful sound. The birds are chirping, like they don't have a care in the world. It’s so peaceful that I don’t even notice, Nathan is here too. He’s coming out of the creek. Completely. Naked. My ears begin to heat up and my face flushes. What is he doing here? The sun reflects off his skin perfectly. He looks almost godly. 

    He walks closer and closer. Before I can think about how amazing he looks, I realize that I am also butt ass naked. I pull the blanket out from under the picnic, ruining the food, and cover my body. Compared to his beautiful, carved body, I am no match for him. Before I know it he’s right next to me, gazing down into my eyes. I can’t believe what's happening. I can see his manhood and everything that comes with it. God. I don’t know the first thing about sex. That's what’s happening right? 

He leans down to me and lifts the blanket off of me, leaving me vulnerable. I want this to happen. I’m ready. He looks into my eyes, then trails them down, looking at every part of me. I shudder thinking about what will happen next. He then takes his hand and grazes his fingertips along my chest, across my stomach, and down to my wood. He isn’t touching it though, he just pulls his hand back up and holds my face, slowly leaning down. I close my eyes, waiting for the kiss. 

“Connie.”  I feel his breath as he says my name.

 “Connor!” I jolt up and realize what’s going on. Alex was saying my name. “Connor, what’s wrong? You’re crying. Are you okay?” 

“I’m crying?” Why am I crying? Alex sits down next to me and doesn’t ask again, just sits. I cry into her shoulder, missing the feeling of Nathan being next to me. I wanted him to be real. I want him to acknowledge me. I want him to love me. He doesn’t even know how bad his friends are to me.

“Why don’t we watch our movie huh?” I nod and click play on the remote. The dream was surreal. It really felt like he was touching me. I guess the thick air and flower smell can be explained by Alex being in the shower, but it really felt like he touched me. I felt his breath.

About an hour passes and we’re halfway through the movie, when Alex asks me if I’m hungry again. Of course I say yes and she heads downstairs to the kitchen to ask Venus if she’ll order pizza. Alex yells for me to come, so I get out from under the covers and go down.

“What kind of pizza do you want from dominos babe?” Venus asks as she goes to the website on her computer, pulling her card out of her wallet at the same time.

“Chicken Alfredo please.” I smile. Alex asks for the same and Venus orders the delivery. “Thank you sis, I love you. We’re gonna head upstairs and wait for the pizzas while we watch our movie, just leave the tip on the table for me. I’ll let you know when they get here.” Venus leaves a twenty on the table and we tread up the stairs. We finally get to my room and snuggle up on the bed, awaiting our pizzas. 

About thirty minutes later the doorbell rings. I pause the movie and grab my phone as I get off the bed. “I’ll be right back.” I say to Alex before closing the door.

I grab the twenty off the table and open the front door. The delivery driver makes light conversation about our pizza choice, saying he’d never had that combination before. I hand him the money and grab the pizzas. I sit our pizzas on the counter. I take my phone out of the pocket of my soccer shorts to text Venus that her pizza is on the counter. I then realize that I have an unread message from an unknown number.

Unknown- ‘I’m sorry’