"Russell? What... What are you doing here?" I asked fear in my voice; a shiver went through me as I remembered all the bad memories.
"I... Mmh... I came here to apologize..." Russell mumbled as he passed a hand into his light, short, blond hair, looking anywhere but me. I frowned, waiting for him to explain why he was apologizing and why he was there. "I'm sorry for bullying you... You know, now high school is over and I thought about all these years and I realized that I was too harsh with you.. But I was stupid... And really confused..." He mumbled, whispering quickly the last part with a slight frown. He seemed in deep thoughts.
"Why?" I asked in a small voice. He may be the man who bullied me all this time, the one who made my life so hard that I almost killed myself, but I wanted to know why he did all this. I wanted to understand, I needed it, then I would be able to really move on and forget this part of my past.
"I... I may have had a small crush on you..." He murmured as a slight blush appeared on his cheeks making him look vulnerable and cute.
"W... What?! H... How? I... I don't understand..." I stuttered, eyes wide in shock. Wow, I really didn't expect that!
He opened his mouth but he was cut off by Jamel who began to cry a little. I looked at my baby and I stroked his cheek gently, trying to calm him down so he could go back to sleep.
"Is... Is it your baby? So, the rumors were true?" Russell asked behind me.
I nodded without looking at him. What was I doing with Russell? He shouldn't be there. I heard some noises and felt him behind me, his hot breath on my neck.
"He's beautiful... Just like you. What's his name?" Russell asked me in a whisper which made me involuntarily shiver.
"His... His name is Jamel..." I mumbled silently, looking at him from the corner of my eyes. I couldn't understand why his comportment toward me changed that much.
Once Jamel was sleeping peacefully, snoring quietly, I finally faced Russell.
"What do you want Russell?" I asked in a frown.
"I... Mmh... I was wondering if... Do you... I would love to be your friend." He blurted out, biting his lips worryingly.
"Why? Why now? I really can't understand you, Russell." I told him with a frown.
"Michael... I wish I could erase the past. I was stupid and you can't imagine how much I regret what I've done..." He sighed looking at the colorful floor.
"I really want to believe you but... I need time, okay? It just... So many things happened... I need a break..." I murmured, looking at Russell right in the eyes.
He only nodded and left the room quietly, giving me a last smile. If someone would have told me that Russell would come and tell me he's sorry about everything he did to me, I wouldn't have believed it. But now...
For the first time, I smiled. It was a real smile, not a fake one as I used to do. Maybe my life will be better from now on. Yep. Maybe. With these thoughts, I made my way toward the kitchen, the smile still on my face.
"So, what happened?" My mother asked me with a marvelous smile.
"Nothing... He just... I just heard what I wanted." I replied, giving her a true smile.
♂+♂=♥
*Three years later*
"Jamel, come here! We're going to be late!" I screamed as I was waiting in the corridor of my house. Yes, my house. I moved out a few months ago in a small cozy house, not too far from where I was before.
Jamel rushed toward me as fast as his little legs permitted him. "Mommy! Where are we going?" He asked me, a finger in his mouth as I took him in my arms.
"Are you hungry? We're going to eat something. Daddy will meet us here. Alright?" I asked as I kissed his forehead and passed a hand through his short, blond hair.
"Yeaaah! I want a toy! Please mommy!" He asked in his cute baby voice as he gave me a puppy look. I nodded with a bright smile and put him on his seat, making sure to put the safety belt.
My sister Yasmine was healed and even if she was walking a bit strangely since the accident, she was fine and this was the most important. As a birthday present, Yasmine and my mother paid me driving lessons so I could be free.
I began to drive, being careful not to have an accident and stopped to McDonald.
"Here we are! Come on, dad is already waiting for us!" I said as I opened the door, letting Jamel get out before locking the car. I took his small hand into mine and we walked toward the welcoming building.
"Hey buddy! Did you miss me?" Russell asked to Jamel, a big smile on his lips as he took him in his arms, hugging him before coming closer to me. "Hey, are you alright? You seem lost in your thoughts." He asked me, eyeing me suspiciously as he waited for my answer.
"I'm fine... I don't know why but I have a weird feeling... But I guess it's just because I'm tired." I said, trying to give him an honest smile. He smiled back and leaned to give me a kiss which I returned happily.
Yep, I forgave Russell. He wasn't the worst into this story, okay, he bullied me but after thinking about it, Casey was worst. He took my virginity then left me like an old sock, then he left me again when he learnt I was pregnant... Yep, definitively worse than Russell. This one helped me a lot during these years. Firstly, he apologized, then we became friend, he helped me with Jamel and we began our relationship two years ago. After one year of relationship, we finally decided to move out together. If someone would have told me that I would end up with him I would have laughed but I'm glad it happened.
We enjoyed our meal, laughing time to time and speaking with Jamel happily. I tried to ignore the bad feeling I had but it was becoming more and more important.
"Are you ready to go?" Russell asked as he took Jamel in his arms. I nodded and took his free hand and we left the fast-food restaurant.
"Do you want to go to a circus? I'm sure we could have a great time!" Russell asked as he began to drive.
"Oh yes!! Please, please, please! Mommy, I want to see the Lions! Please, please, please!!" Jamel asked, bouncing up and down on his seat from excitement.
"Of course!" I replied with a small laugh.
Suddenly, we heard a big noise and I saw an enormous truck which rushed right ahead. Russell tried to avoid it but it was impossible. The truck collided with our small car which made the windshield and the windows explode.
"Mommyyy!!" I heard Jamel's scream as I was expelled from the car. I landed on the ground, stunned from the impact. I had pieces of glass on my back and my legs. My eyes went wide when I saw that the car caught fire.
I got up so quickly, ignoring the way my body hurt and the way my vision was blurred. "No!!!" I screamed as a fireman hold me from behind.
"Sire, you can't go. It's too late. I'm sorry." The fireman said in a whisper.
"What... What about my boyfriend? What about my son?" I asked as my legs gave out.
"I...Here's my mate... Hey Martial! Did you have time to save the others?"
"I... Well, I had time to pull out a little boy but.. I fear it's too late, he lost too much blood, and he took glass on his stomach... We have to go to the hospital. He may never wake up but there is a small possibility.. And I didn't have time to save the man... I wanted to but... He was almost unconscious but he wanted me to save the boy before... I... I'm sorry."
I sobbed uncontrollably, clenching my fists so hard that my nails entered into my palms, blood was coming out of it. Why was I alive? Why couldn't I die with them? Why me?
This isn't fair.
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