There is no lecture in school today because of a public holiday but I told Lara that I will see her today so I am going to school. I walk to the living room and I see Tunde arranging some papers. " How did you enter my room"? I ask and he shows me the key.

"I picked it yesterday when I was going." He says.

" Why?” I ask.

" I don’t know what you might do if I leave the key with you. I thought you might go out to buy more cigarettes by yourself or probably go to her place without a disguise. “He says and I frown.

" I am not stupid.” I say and he smiles.

"So, did you later call her yesterday" he says jestingly

"Mind your fucking business, asshole". I say and he giggles.

" I wrote some songs last night, check it if you are done with what you are doing." I change the conversation and I give the music book to him.

"OMG, this is a hit. As In ... .when did you write this, was it after or before you called me, last night?”

"I wrote it while I was waiting for you to come,"

But this song is different from your regular songs, this is purely a love song.” He widens his eyes suddenly, covers his mouth like he remembers something and he looks down on the book, then to me.

“This song is fucking for her. You can’t tell me shit. You are thinking about her while you write this piece. OMG, this is so perfect.” I do not answer him, I walk inside instead. Tunde Is right. I pen down everything I have been going through since the day I saw her picture on Sade's phone till our last meeting. I wrote down everything I want to say to her, everything I want from her and all the things I am willing to do for her if she accepts me into her life. I do not want to admit the fact that I cared for her before, but after I read the song I wrote over and over again, I realized that the effect she has on me is undeniable . I need to admit it if I want peace of mind. Jeez, She is everything I want in a girl. She doesn’t dress like the girls I am used to, but it doesn't matter. The way she dresses fit her perfectly. I burn for her and I will do everything possible to make her mine.

I haven't heard anything from Sade since that night, her birthday night. She doesn’t call or text me and I don't even remember to call or text her either. I pick up my phone and dial her number but she doesn't pick it. I call her again and she picks it at the last ring.

"Where are you? I ask.

" I am at home." she mumbles.

“Which of the houses? ”

“Abba.” Abba is the name of her father's estates. There is one in Ogbomosho and another in Lagos.

"What are you doing today, lecture free day. Can I come and visit you? She says and I reject her offer immediately for two reasons. Firstly, because of my promise to Lara. Secondly, because I am still so embarrassed to see her, I don't want to face her yet. All the nuisance I constituted when she came to my hotel room on her birthday night is still fresh in my memory. I call her now because I feel bad for how I talked to her that day. Even though I was drunk, I still believe she doesn’t deserve the shit I said to her.

"Why?” Sade asks. Tunde walks in and he sits down on the bed.

"Tunde and I are going out and it is an important event, I will call you when we come back.” I lie and Tunde shakes his head. She replies to me with "okay, no problem" and she ends the call.

" Liar, '' Tunde says and I smile.

" By the way, I want to tell you that I have an appointment today. Do you have anywhere to go today?” Tunde asks.

"You can go wherever you want to go. I want to enter school but I won’t stay long. I will call you when I come back". I say and he nods. I do not ask him where he is going because I already know. I am sure he is going to meet the girl I saw her with on Sade's birthday. He is more of a player than I am, even though he won’t admit it. He doesn’t ask me why I am going to school and I appreciate that. Even if he does, I am not sure I will tell him.

When I am ready to leave, the thought of calling her to know when she will enter school comes to my mind and I pick my phone. I dial her number but she doesn’t pick it, I call her again and it is the same. I assume she is in the bathroom because I don't want to ruin this good mood because of a negative thought. I wait for a few minutes and I call her again. she picks it this time and my heart jubilates. We exchange greetings and I am happy like never before to hear her voice again. I ask her when she will enter school and her answer shatters my heart. She says she is not entering school. I ask her if I can go to her hostel to see her but she tells me she is in a friend's place. Though she agrees to call me when she gets back to the hostel when I ask her to, I am still broken. I want to ask her if I can go see her at her friend's place but she hangs up on me before I say it. I have the same feeling as yesterday, a rejection feeling. Why does it seem like she is avoiding me, why didn't she allow me to finish and hang up the call by myself? I was the one that called, it was my airtime but she was the one hanging up the call on me. I start getting afraid. “What if she doesn’t like me? What if what she feels for me is just a fandom likeness? What if she doesn’t like me the same way I like her? What if she rejects me? What if I am not her type? Oh God, how will I continue my life?” my stomach churn at the thought and I rush to the toilet to ease myself.