Now that you’ve died what am I to say

You were crazy, insane, and diagnosed schizophrenic

I’ve always loved you, but now I hate you too

My resentment and discontentment for the situation that you contributed towards is all too real

It keeps me up at night, at times it makes me angry, and at times it makes me weep 

There was no reconciliation, there was only an ocean of apathy that divided us

Even now that you are gone there is no peace in this cold war

I know you never loved me, and I know you never cared, I know when you looked at me you didn’t see me, but I saw you.

While everyone else was in denial, I saw you for what you were, and I accepted you and your demons 

I didn’t deify you as a matriarch, or placate you like a fool, I respected you the best I could and I had hoped the eventually you might’ve understood the reason, but you never did, and now you are gone. So what can I say besides how filial grandfather.