Chapter setting: Modern AU

Song Jian and Chen Hua were going to spend the weekend in a spa out of the city; neither him nor Fang Jin were going to have exams or big class works soon; he didn’t have any special plan that weekend, and Fang Jin wasn’t going out in any family meeting. 

“So, is this gonna be the big weekend?” Wei Li asked with amused eyes.

Lei Ying looked at him confused. They were having lunch together, speaking about random things. He just mentioned his both “adoptive parents” going out that weekend, so he didn’t understood what he meant.

“The big weekend?” He took a sip of his juice, incredulous. 

“Yes. Are you and Fang Jin going to have sex?”

Lei Ying almost chocked on his drink, coughing several times. Wei Li had to pat his back, worried, until he stopped coughing.

It wasn’t strange Wei Li asked him that. Lei Ying had some… talks with him about the matter, as he was feeling ready to go a further step in the relationship with Fang Jin. And he had everything already! Wei Li went with him to buy lube and condoms, and explained him what to expect and what to do. Communication, patience and just relax and enjoy the moment! He caught it! 

But all his attempts to make something else with Fang Jin ended in… nothing. 

It was as if Fang Jin was trying to avoid that matter, but not as if he was disgusted by it, but as if he was trying stop himself. Lei Ying knew Fang Jin wanted to sleep with him, he could feel the hunger in his gaze. And not only in there! How many times did he feel something poking him on Fang Jin’s trousers after hot kisses? He still remembered the day they both were out of Lei Ying’s building, in a hidden side, Fang Jin kissing, licking and biting his neck while they both were rubbing against each other. That thing that Lei Ying was feeling against his thigh wasn’t Fang Ji’s phone, he was very sure. And then, Fang Jin stopped all of the sudden -as always-, took Lei Ying to the door of his home, kissed him one more time and went. 

As if he wasn’t about to catch on fire after that.

“I didn’t think about that.” Lei Ying replied.

“Oh… I thought that maybe it crossed your mind. You know, house alone, free responsibilities weekend, and all of that.”

“Do you think he would want to…?”

“Are you joking? I know that gaze. It’s the same gaze I see in Tao Qiang’s eyes when I’m about to spend a week without being able to walk.” 

“Yeah, but… He didn’t want other times, and I don’t want him to feel pressured.”

“The other times weren’t good moments nor places to have a proper first time. Or do you want your first time be in the hidden alley next to your building, with all the garbage in there and where anyone could catch you both?”

“Honestly? At this point I don’t even mind if it’s in the middle of the campus with everyone watching. Arg! Sometimes I think I’m going to explode, Li-ge. Because he… he keeps doing these things, like the bites in the neck, his hot a fast breathing against my ear, the hands going on my back, and pressing his thing against mine, and… and when he squeezes my ass, oh gods— I’m going to lose it if we keep doing all of this and stop one more time.” He covered his face behind his hands, about to scream.

“See? That’s why I think that the other times weren’t a good moment and that’s the reason why he stopped. He wants that intimacy with you. But! It doesn’t matter what I say, you have to speak with him. Communication is the key!”

“Communication is the key.” He sighed, nodding and putting his hands down again. “If I had a sweet every time you tell me that…”

He actually didn’t need a complex excuse to call Fang Jin to his place: the light on his desk stopped working, as the light bulb burnt-out. He told it to him just because they were having a casual conversation texting. Not even an hour later, Fang Jin was ringing the bell. He didn’t expect him at all!

“I was passing nearby, it’s not a problem.” 

Of course, as nice as always. Lei Ying greeted him with a kiss and let him in. As Fang Jin wasn’t received with the murder gaze of Chen Hua, he asked about him and Song Jian.

“Oh, true! I didn’t tell you yet: they are going to spend the weekend in a spa out of the city.”

Lei Ying’s plan had been telling him that later and ask him to spend the two nights with him, as he was afraid of being alone at home -and it wasn’t an excuse at all-. At least after having a good, long nice bath, check mentally all what Wei Li told him, check one more time he had his brand new lube and condoms -how in earth were them going to disappear- and wear his best clothes -and underwear-. But before he could prepare himself mentally and have a proper “attack plan”, Fang Jin was already leading to his room.

Well, change of plans. He was used to that. Adapt, adapt!

“Thank you again, Fang Jin. I really appreciate you came for that.” He said, standing against his desk while he saw him changing the light bulb.  

“It’s nothing.” He smiled, just a tiny little gesture.  

Confidence! Wei Li told him that confidence was something sexy. 

“So… You said you were free this weekend, right?”  

Lei Ying kept repeating himself he could do it. He wasn’t shy at all, but it didn’t mean he couldn’t be nervous. Moving slowly, he pushed Fang Jin -who was wondering what was happening- back until they reached the bed. Lei Ying pressed a bit stronger then, making the other sit on the bed. 

And it was then when Fang Jin caught what was happening, just before he felt Lei Ying sitting astride on his lap.  

“Lei Ying…” Fang Jin swallowed hard while Lei Ying embraced his neck. 

“...Would you… like to make me company?” 

Lei Ying brushed his lips against the other’s while talking before kissing him. At first it was a soft kiss, tender and warm, but soon it started to become more passionate and deep. Lei Ying felt the strong grip of Fang Jin’s hands in his hips, while he himself was trying to be as closer as possible to him. He didn’t notice it, but at some point he started to let out tiny moans in the kiss, rocking his hips slowly. He only realized that when he felt Fang Jin growing under him. 

Lei Ying bit softly Fang Jin’s lower lip before the other started to lick kiss his neck, mixing the kisses with lick and bites. Lei Ying moaned, moving his head a bit to expose better his neck.

But then, Fang Jin stopped.

“I have to go.”

He couldn’t believe it.  

Lei Ying looked at him still with hazed eyes, his face red and his breath faster than usual. Fang Jin made a gesture for him to get up, but not daring to look at him. As Lei Ying wasn’t moving at all, he tried to stand up so the other would move, but Lei Ying refused to let it go that time. He reacted embracing his legs on the other’s hips, so if he tried to walk away it would be with a koala-Lei Ying.

“Fang Jin!” He said, exasperated. Not exactly because the other stopped, but because he didn’t understand why. “What happens?”

“I remembered I have something to do.” Fang Jin said, still not looking at him. Apparently the door was very interesting now, as he didn’t take his eyes off of it.

“And that “something” is not fucking you boyfriend?” He said straight, frowning his eyebrows. Finally Fang Jin looked at him, kind of surprised. “What is happening?” 

They both felt silent then, Lei Ying waiting for an answer and Fang Jin trying to put his thoughts in order. It was after some seconds that Lei Ying sighed.

“Fang Jin, what happens?” He asked again, but with a soft voice. He caressed his cheek tenderly. “Look, if it is because you don’t want to do it, you don’t have to make any excuses. You can tell me! I can wait. And if you never want to do it at all, it’s fine! I’ll be with you anyway, you don’t have to be afraid. I don’t need sex for being in a relationship with you. But… I need you to tell me, because- I’m confused, I think I’m receiving some mixed signals, and I don’t want you to feel pressured to anything, and-“

“It’s- It’s not that, Lei Ying.” Fang Jin said fast after realizing how he was making him feel. “I’m sending that signals. I- I want to go further with you.”

“So… why do you stop?” He asked, even more confused. “You can tell me, I won’t be offended if I’m doing something wrong. I need to learn! Sex is a process and-“

“I don’t want to disrespect you.” Fang Jin said before Lei Ying could keep thinking he was doing anything wrong. 

Lei Ying blinked twice, looking at him as if he was looking to a green monkey- something weird and unexpected. 

 “…Excuse me?”

“Lei Ying, I…” He took a deep breath, slowly. “I know Song Jian and Chen Hua talked to you about this matter, in private, apart of the day they spoke to both of us about sex.” How could he forget how his shushu said subtly he would cut Fang Jin testicles if he touched him in any kind of dishonorable way? “And I know Chen Hua put some pressure on you about this matter. I… I don’t want you to feel you owe me this. I don’t want you to feel pressured to have sex with me.  I don’t want you to feel bad when you are with your own family.”

“Ok, first of all, I don’t feel pressured at all. It was me the one who started everything the other times!”

“Was it?” Fang Jin asked, arching a brow. Lei Ying gave himself some moments to think, and after reconsidering it, well… 

“Right, maybe the both of us. I understand you could feel like I was trying to make whatever you wanted. But I wasn’t, I promise!” He said, fast. “And secondly, feel bad when I’m with my family? Why?”

“I… When we are with them, you avoid any contact with me, as if you were… embarrassed.” Obviously he wasn’t going to kiss passionately Lei Ying in front of them, but Lei Ying barely looked at him the few times the four of them were together! “I thought that if you don’t have their approve to move forward, you wouldn’t… do anything. And obviously they wouldn’t approve any of intimate contact until marriage. I didn’t want you to feel bad with them.”

“Wait, did you think it was because I’m embarrassed of anything I do with you when they are not in front of us?”  

After Fang Jin nodded, Lei Ying exploded in loud laughs, bending himself a bit and pressing his forehead against the other’s shoulder. The taller was completely confused with that response.

“I-I’m sorry, A-Jin, I… Oh gods.” He dried a tear that was falling from his eye because of the strong laugh. “It wasn’t because of that! It is because I try my shushu doesn’t kill you instantly!” 

After some seconds, Fang Jin opened his eyes wide. 

“Oh.” 

“Believe me! I have no problem at all in kiss you in front of them, or holding hands, sitting together… Whatever! But my shushu would behead you in the exact moment I laid my eyes on you in a too affectionate way. I wasn’t doing that because of me, I was doing that for you! For you to have the things easier with Chen Hua!” 

Lei Ying laughed again, all of that was just surreal. He remembered one more time what Wei Li told him always: ‘communication is the key’. He was so right! Fang Jin was trying to avoid going further because he thought he could be coaxing him and because he thought he would feel like disappointing Chen Hua and Song Jian, and he himself thought he was doing right trying to make the less contact possible with Fang Jin in the presence of the other two so Fang Jin could avoid any confrontation with Chen Hua. 

“I’m sorry I made you feel this way, Lei Ying. If I knew I was making you think you were doing something wrong-“

“I know, I know. My A-Jin, you are so sweet.” He kissed the other’s cheek tenderly. “I’m the one that have to say sorry for making you feel I was embarrassed of being affectionate with you in any way in front of them. It would never feel like that about you, Fang Jin, never!”

“You don’t need to apologize.” Fang Jin smiled to him, being then the one kissing the other’s cheek.

“Well, after we spoke about all of this and everything is clear…” Lei Ying embraced one more time Fang Jin’s neck, smiling cocky. “…would you like we have our first time, Fang Jin?” 

The answer didn’t come with words. After Fang Jin pressed his forehead against Lei Ying’s for some seconds, caressing his cheek, they kissed again. But that time it started already passionate and wet, both looking for making the kiss deeper, moaning in each other’s mouth. Lei Ying stroked and gripped Fang Jin’s hair, resuming the movement of his hips, feeling Fang Jin gasping while his hands supported him by the hips, helping him to move. 

It didn’t took long until Fang Jin moved them both, leaning Lei Ying on the bed and him going on top of the shorter. One more time, his lips landed on his neck, more bites and licks landing there and here while he felt his breath going heavier. Lei Ying’s hands caressed his torso over his shirt until he reached the end of it, taking it off then with urgency. Lei Ying’s nails scratched him a bit when when he let his hands go under the shorter’s t-shirt, going up his body, stroking him. He didn’t even take it of before landing on one of his nipples, sucking it and letting a little bite on it.

Lei Ying shock under Fang Jin, a loud moan filling the room. His legs were still embracing Fang Jin’s hips, rubbing his crotch against the other’s bulge while his hands caressed his back and landed again on his hair, gripping it slightly as he felt how he attacked his other nipple. Without waiting more, he himself took his own trousers off along with his underwear, a bit clumsily. Not even a second after, Fang Jin’s hands embraced him and squeezed his ass.

“Oh gods-“ He heard himself saying, filling as if he was going to catch on fire in any moment. “Y-Yours— I—“

Lei Ying didn’t wait for unzipping Fang Jin’s trousers, sliding them down with his legs, doing the same with his boxers. When he felt Fang Jin’s cock and testicles against his, hearing him groan next to his ear, he almost came on the spot. 

“Holy— Fang Jin—“ He moaned when they started to rub against each other, arching his back a bit. Only after some long seconds of rocking his hips he remembered something. “W-Wait— Fang Jin, wait—“ The other stopped immediately, looking at him worried. “Don’t worry, it’s just—“

Lei Ying reached for his nightstand, opening the second drawer and taking them the bottle of lubricant. After breaking the plastic that surrounded the tap and opening it, he put some of it in his hand and let the bottle next to them.

Then, he reached down and stroked both of them together, coating their members with the lube.

Fang Jin moaned at the same time as him, hiding his face on the other’s neck while Lei Ying rolled his eyes back, his hips jerking a bit for the sudden rush of pleasure. Both of them resumed the swaying of their bodies, moving back and forth. Lei Ying was embracing him with with hand while the other hand was busy jerking them both, felling Fang Jin embracing him by his waist with his hands on his ass, squeezing it, laying his weight on him.