How we actually broke up? It's all because of the big fight we had one year ago.

He became more and more occupied with his job at that time. I can't barely remember when is the last morning message he sent. The number of phone calls also getting less and less. Even I called him, nine out of ten times he is busy.
I am getting more and more unsettling. Until one time, I got a terrible fever, I felt every bone in my body is aching. I messaged him. One minute, two minutes and ten minutes. No reply. I sent another message, after one hour, still no reply. I finally called him after three hours. He answered and said he is in a meeting; he will call me back afterwards.
I felt I can't control my anger at that moment. I shouted to the phone 'meetings, meetings, I don't believe you have so many freaking meetings that you don't have anytime for me! I am dying here, and you don't even care!'

A dead silence came after. He didn't speak, I can only hear my crying over the phone. Before, if I cry, no matter what happened, he will apologise and try everything he can to make me happy. But this time, he didn't say anything, just the horrible silence lingering around.

I slammed the phone. After several minutes, I received a message from him. 'Sorry Queenie, I am under a lot of pressure, the job is making me crazy. You will need to take care of yourself recently. Please don't let me worry.
I threw the phone under the bed and didn't reply. I was waiting, waiting for more signs of apology and regents from him. If he truly cares about me, he will do something, or maybe he will take the next flight come to see me.

I waited till the second day, I sent him a timetable of flights. After a while, I got a call from him. He told me he is really busy, there's no time for me at the moment. I got really mad, shouted 'if you can't make it this time, then never!

He seems try to explain more. But I hung up.
I was also a bit busy at that time, I am about to graduate. I am occupied with the essays and several job interviews. So I ignored him several days on purpose. I didn't reply to his message. After a while, he barely sent me anything. We were on this long silent term.

After my graduation ceremony, I could go see him. But I was still angry. So, I told him I am busy about finding jobs, there's no time for him. I was just waiting for him to apology and tell me that he still loves me and cares about me. If he says he misses me at that moment, I will be on the next flight over to see him. But he didn't. He just said fine, he can understand.

My heart was frozen by his coldness. I decide to punish him. During our silent war, I posted several photos of me with other guys. I am waiting for him to get jealousy and then he will call me to ask me to explain everything. But nothing. I kept waiting and waiting. At the end, we broke up. I kept thinking if I wasn't that stubborn and aggressive, it should be our wedding now.