It's just after two in the morning when I sneak back into the house, hoping that father didn't notice I went out or isn't still awake. If he did or is still awake, I'm screwed.

I've snuck out plenty of times to know where the squeaky floorboards and stairs are. The house is quiet, which can be a good thing, but also a bad thing. I had just opened my bedroom door with a squeak, hoping he wasn't home. But the universe wasn't on my side, it never is.

"Savanna, where have you been!" My father's voice slurred as it boomed down the hallway.

I could just walk into my room and pretend to be sleeping, but if he did check to see if I was there he would be able to tell I lied. My punishment will be even worse than what he already has plans for.

Walking into his room I see him on his bed, looking at me, waiting for me to answer. Before He could get any madder I answered him.

"I was at Hailey's house working on a project that is due when we come back from break. We were so engrossed in it that we lose track of time, she just dropped me off.

Father never gets too mad when it's about homework, but I'm scared he can see right through my lie. At least if I am in trouble, it won't be as much.

Raking his eyes over my body he tells me "come here, beautiful."

My heart drops as he tells me to do that. No, not tonight. Not again. I walk over towards him, for if I don't listen it will be so much worse.

As I get close enough for him to reach out and grab me he pulls me towards him by my waist.

He sighs, "I love you so much, but I know you weren't working on a project. I called her mother, and she told me that you guys were out at a friend's New Years party. I was going to go easy on you, make love to you. I know you're still sore from the other guy, but since you lied to me, go get ready. And meet me back in here in ten minutes."

I got on the navy blue lingerie set he gave me for Christmas, knowing it's the one he would want me to wear. It's bra top was see through, and barely covered anything. The lace thong that matched also didn't cover much, or provide comfort. I quickly pulled my blonde hair down from it's ponytail and brushed it. Not wanting to hear him complain and punish me further for taking too long I head to his room.

When his eyes look over me I feel so repulsed that this man is my father,this man who forces me to to this, to do these type of favors.

"Come to daddy kitten. You have been a very naughty girl, and need to be taught a lesson. Get on the bed and put your bum in the air baby."

Doing as he instructed, I get on top his queen size bed. Before I know it he is groping my arse. Then all of a sudden his hand left only to come back down hard as he smacked my arse a few times, before he left from behind me to grab something else.

"Why is daddy punishing you kitten?" He called out from his closet.

Because he is a sick bastard was on the tip of my tongue, but I cought myself before I could say that to him. Instead I answered "I snuck out, and then lied to daddy."

"And sneaking out and lying are against the rules, kitten. You know that." He was right behind me again, putting the blindfold over my eyes. Before he started to tie the rope around me, keeping me in my current position. He then handcuffed my wrists to the headboard in front of me. He then spanked me with a whip. "Each time I got you I want you to count, then thank me."

"Thirty-nine. Thank you, Daddy. Forty, thank you, Daddy." He ztopped after that and started to massage my arse. I had tears flowing down my face, my but will no doubt be bruised and have cuts that need attition.

"Now baby, you know why Daddy had to do this." He untied the ropes and removed the handcuffs. He then took off the mask so I was looking straight into his dark brown eyes as he wiped the tears from my face.

After I was all calmed down he smirked and then ripped the top in hafe. Staring at my exposed chest. I just can't fathom how he can spend so much on something, only to destroy it. He started to knead my left breast before he put his mouth on my right. I feel so dirty as I couldn't hold back a moan as he sucked on my nipple. He then switched and did the same thing to the other.

"Now, Daddy wants you to suck him. After you swallow I will them make you feel nice baby." He instructed me, pulling me by my hair to get on my knees. Pulling down his boxers I see his erection. I slowly lick around the tip in a slow motion, before opening my mouth wide. As I come back he puts his hand in my hair only to push me back and gag. He did this slowly for a few minutes before speeding up. He grunted as he released into my mouth, jerking forward a little bit.

Before long he threw me on the bed and ripped the panties off of my bum. I felt so bad for enjoying the pleasure he gave my body as he ate me out. It was slow and sensational.

"Mhm, you taste so sweet baby" he smiled at me before entering and finishing a few minutes later.

After that ordeal I got in the shower to wash myself off. I want to feel clean, but all I ever feel is dirty, no matter how many showers I take. No matter how many times I brush my teeth, my mouth still feels dirty. I still feel dirty.

I walked over to my desk, and picked up my mini box. I took out the blades, and deeply breathed in, putting the blade to my arm. No. I can't break my resolution this soon. It hasn't even been the new year for six hours and I was already cracking. I don't know how I will be able to make it. I'm weak. I'm a selfish, good for nothing whore, who can't to anything right. I can't even make it a full twenty-four hours without cutting. I'm pathetic. I put the blade down and went to bed